Tar ZEN…
BIO-ENERGY,
From SEX
to conscience APEX …
“EYE KING THE THIRD”
THE REAL ALCHEMIST
The 3D Message…
Of the BIRD…
3d talks & school walks…learn how to fly…
Tar ZEN… BIO-ENERGY,
The GODS FELL on my BAD…
A 3rd DIMENTION came into my head
3D WRITNG is BORN…
the WORD blew the HORN…
the WORLD is SCORN…
are you “STILL” reading…
The GODS are “STILL” …watching…
This is not a common way,
It is not just the history of my today’s body,
It would be too boring, may be not for you,
But for Me it would be, and I would miss the essential,
To communicate with the real you,
That is a failure, but pure energy doesn’t know such a thing,
So I let it be, to ensure true success,
The uncommon one, measured by the number of souls enlightened,
and not by the number of books sol-d, which means money,
That is not my honey, you are…
My third eye may want to share with you some of its ancient history,
My previous lives, who knows, I just wait and see,
I leave the door open and you keep your both eyes wide open,
Together we may catch something,
GOoD luck to get unstuck my friend,
Dance, dance, dance…and Jerk off to pull it off…
My “peace” be with you …
Body-Mind-Spirit
As
One
Peace …
Of…
Sheet !
The story of an ASS !
AKNOWLEDGMENTS
Let us put aside the old CLICHÉ,
of acknowledgments & their triviality,
without finger pointing & within respect.
Wisdom taught me TO BE & to ACCEPT,
Commonly we say,
To my wife, to my sister, to my brother, to my father & my mother,
To Mister X, Miss Y and Misses Z,
I choose to begin by presenting my SELF,
The truth sucker, the divine honey Bee,
Its family is all of humanity
fathered by ALL THERE IS,
To whom I OWE every single thing I have learnt and wrote,
To whom I OWE this dictation of the higher thought!
The rest of ALL BEINGS are my DEAR fellow brothers & sisters,
to which I OWE the happiness & joy IN living,
My roof is the whole UNIVERSE,
that continuously watch over me,
protecting me from my agitated beautiful country, MOTHER EARTH.
For I understood true love, the UNLIMITED, JUST TO BE!
I am a Shakespeare with no question, TO BE is my SOLE answer to ALL THERE IS!
Let’s start by calling up the divinity
that incarnates wisdom and its OATH,
to reveal to us the secrets of PEACE,
the highest present for UNIVERSAL GROWTH!
Here is my way of BEING in ONE FULL PEACE,
Before presenting the wisdom that chose to enlighten my MORAL COWARDICE,
First comes first, many thanks go to those who have vibrated in me
the higher being within, that I am and that was sleeping,
to let me live the emotions of happiness that embellished my worldly external life on one hand and have been my soul’s interior decorator with the higher taste, on the other hand,
for the full array of colours of the four seasons are in a continuous blossom within me.
Thank you, you, you … and you
Everyone that has been a source of a seed of happiness in my life !
You are too many to mention here…anyway what is a name?
Secondly, my warmest and longest thanks, go to those
who taught me by way of suffering to burn the CON within me,
the EGO & PRIDE, the two faces in ONE BRIDE, most of us chose to marry & still carry,
EVIL the sweet face of the illusion, leading IN all ways to CON-fusion.
Thanks for your “death blow”,
to help me understand the MATRIX, the whole show,
this mighty EVIL, I chose to divorce & berry,
by turning his face around, the one you still carry,
to unmask its truth & make it sound,
for it is ever UNBOUND,
how can there be a limit to LIVE,
the life you offered me, to you I return ,
here it is on a golden plate, back to you, I GIVE,
for you, this knowledge to churn !
It is this emotional & psychic CHOC that ignites the switch from winter to spring,
for all the beauty within gets liberated and begin to sing!
Again, many, many, many thanks to you, you …and you, for every slap on my face,
for every kick that pushed me forward,
how could I RE-cover this unlimited GRACE,
To “ finish off ”the EVIL in me with the loving WISDOM’ s SWARD!.
In third, my favourite number, as I function now, the 3 in 1 thing,
anyway, I would like to offer my deepest thanks to those like us, or rather lower than us
in your eyes, for they live in a world in which you are their God, ONE side of it is beautiful,
and the other is ugly & cruel, they simply have no other choice
than shout on top of their voice
to express their refusal of the torture we inflict to them!
Thus I thank all those BEINGS that
we OWN, BUY & SELL, RAISE as a friend and KILL with NO MERCY as an enemy!
For they are the immediate VICTIMS of our ignorance,
of the SOLE ENTITY that differentiates us from them, INTELLIGENCE,
we chose to use, TO PLAY their GOD, a GOD in torture abuse!.
I present my sincere thanks to all those beings who offered me their tender meat,
to help me grow on the cost of giving up their heart beat,
for I chose by ignorance, my soul & theirs, to CHEAT & their flesh to eat,
they had no choice, in every struggle they met a clinical defeat!
I BEG PARDON to all those to whom I took the life in full impunity,
for I was blind to know what is sacred, what to respect and RATHER PROTECT.
I am asking endless forgiveness in committing the highest crime of cowardice,
to every plant, fish, butterfly, insect, ant, mouse, rat, snake, scorpion, cat & dog
and rabbit I have actually killed!
At last, I really want to “ BOW DOWN” & grovel to every being
that has as sole purpose of living, to fill my plate with life & my eyes with beauty.
Those that made this world a WONDER & LIVABLE !
The oxygen that we breath, the sumptuous,
splendid & magnificent nature that we TORTURE!
Those that we hunt and drive away to demonstrate in the markets,
to decorate our INTERIOR EMPTINESS and lock them up in our CONcrete prisons,
where the free sun, occasionally can reach them, at the rhythm of the master’s mood!
Yes, a life time of excuses to those beings from whom, we extract the magic remedies
that pacify our tragic pains and the necessary vitamins for the purification of the soul,
absolutely needed to embark on the journey of rebirth of our higher intelligence,
Here I am finally IN PEACE, 3 in “one whole peace” !!!
K.Gibran has started me up but OSHO is being my continuous spring board,
why again this connection?
It seems like my path is enfolding nicely and effortlessly
through the wisdom that precisely corresponds to the rivers flowing in my heart.
As in the case of Gibran, my world and that of OSHO ’s, seem to be like two opposite islands separated by spiritual LIFE, for I spent all my life running after the worldly illusion while living on the edge searching for the forbidden, Osho has spent all his life seeking aloneness to meet the greatest Buddha sitting in him.
In truth, the stone K.Gibran threw in my quite river has giving up the relay
to higher vibrations through Osho’ s more accessible knowledge…
Gibran (6/1/83- 10/4/31) always wanted to speak through elegant literature,
as the heaven’s centripetal inward forces coming down and gathering
in the “prophet” pocket book, but the lotus flower couldn’t really blossom…
Osho (11/12/31-19/1/90), appeared eight months after Gibran left his body and lived eight years longer! He spoke at length to reveal the secrets within the seeds of Gibran’s vision, to turn them finally to a TREE bearing refreshing and vitalising fruits as to wipe out completely every trace of the forbidden fruit most of religions have excelled using it
to make us feel guilty and make of humanity a flock of sheep…so cheap!
Citizens of the world, time has come to see the true light in love, for the notion of “enemy”
has totally vanished, the heaven’ s YANG centripetal forces have finally met with their
corresponding earthly YIN centrifugal forces, no more contractions, time for delivery,
the (+) met the (-), the INWARD CENTRIPETAL FORCES are bound to expand & disperse OUTWARDLY as a single UNIFIED SPIRITUAL FORCE seeing no ENEMY at all…
Let us culminate into a lotus flower with endless petals…
Thus the circles in my quite river are expanding endlessly… fed with such high energy,
my river has no other choice but die peacefully into the ocean …of love…
Once more: Is literature the sole accepted way to vehicle the truth, as the editors
seem to demonstrate it? Then LOVE has to DIE forever, for the truth is naught
but the voice of love free of any expression imprisoned in spoken or written words.
Love lives in every sincere expression that is present in the dirtiest street
as well as in the loftiest peaks of literature’s residence.
The lotus flower does blossom in mud, doesn’t it?
This book speaks the voice of a heart that have never known literature written by men,
only that which is written by life through feelings and experience,
for this heart has lived in a house with neither light nor books,
the street was my theatre and the stars were my script.
Until I have read OSHO to finish the play K.GIBRAN has started in me,
Gibran handed me the curtain to my theatre, OSHO transformed it to the open sky,
where the “stars” are no longer a limited number in my play,
How can a limited number speak of the limitless?
Thus my play became the dance of the whole universe,
Where every being is entitled to get into trance…with no offence to any other…
Here is the first part of my life’s play…
INTRO…
Let us get tuned and have the “heart point” sitting on the little i that is reading me,
Strange, even this writing program refuses to have it standing alone as it IS, I had “to be” tricky to make it visible. Every work of man is in REVERSE, the IN visible has to be tricky to be visible. So are our hearts in their struggle to fit in the society, they have no other choice but to DES-STITUTE themselves, in every thing they FEEL, so they become PROS---TITUTE, The FEEL of LOVE is now the LOVE AFFAIR, a business DEAL we take for REAL!
So are all the “I’ s” in our writings, they can’t ”stand alone” with their HEARTS ON,
They become taller but they loose their CROWN, what a beautiful BODY, slender, how splendour, slim-waisted, heart wasted but “still”, the BODY alone can’t feel a shit, so the “eye with a point on top” has to enter the “big body of society” to make it feel real
and it is thus MIXED in every single BODY or its expression in any word written,
so the “eye King” or the “eye Queen” is bound to WEAR a link, a GOLDEN RING,
to be accepted in society, as in me, I am in, I mean me the king, hey I show you my ring ( i-n ),
( between us, I speak for both me and the Queen, it is just to fit in your DUAL world ok…)
I am stuck forever, they think! But I have twenty five other bodies as mistresses, my buddies, this marriage thing with a golden ring is pure FAKE illusion, just to give birth to what we all love most a “fuck”, sorry truth hurts, but bear with me, you will end UP with a bare ass,
no more nonsense but the ONE sense, the SIX that offers all the SEX you want, a 3D SEX!
Take some time to catch a little of that… the tear drops you use to experience,
are now an ocean, how does that sound, GOoD, so stick around!
And so the VENTURE became an AD- venture, written in all sacred BOOKS,
a vision with NON sacred words, where our little “eye king the 3rd” is laughing like HELL, that is how hell was introduced, if you speak nonsense about the truth, KARMA strikes back, and sets you on your back to get “fucked” instead of experiencing LOVE. Love was imposed
to “eye king the 3rd” in a ring , but love can’t be imposed, so he ended up fucking like hell, enjoying 25 mistresses, it is simply impossible to escape, they can’t do a shit without him,
ask all the alphabet members to write without the “eye king the 3rd”, they simply can’t, so the society gets the KARMA back, they forced him to prostitute himself in order to communicate with society, so he fucked them within the society, for that is the only way that defines the COMMUNICATION in a society, it is merely PROSTITUTION,
so he gives this advice that is now GOLDEN,( society earnings )!
Fuck the marriage ‘s ring and let your heart sing, the ONE wife is within,
actually a two of them, ONE wife and ONE husband, for you to enjoy “to be” straight or gay,
so you have 2 of “eye king the 3rd”, open your eyes and check “within”!
3D LAW:
all what I am trying to let you understand is NON JUDGE-MENTAL,
my compassion is delivering to you some tools different from what you usually have access to,
to enjoy life as you wish, if you are TRULY happy with the life you are having, don’t change anything, jus let it be…meaning let it flow, that is your path enfolding to you,
illusion is beautiful, earthly life is bound to that as “eye king the 3d” will continue to
explain, just use some of his wisdom to enhance whatever disturbs your happiness
and make you suffer, a human should be peaceful no matter how poor or how rich he is,
it is not social position dependant, it is a BIRTH RIGHT, to regain, give UP the fight!
No one is your ENEMY but Me…because I speak my truth!
I am in love with all of you…so I fuck you…my dear friend…come and get Me…or get fucked!
My well planned visit…by the Well of wisdom…
I was never born and will never die…
I AM the “eye king the 3rd”,
The ABSURD… to you,
The night is dark,
The moon is cool
The drumbeat begins
The echo is felt
the horses panic
yin and yang met
another life has begun
the seed is in the ocean…
the wind is blowing…
the womb is swollen…
war is announced…
the plane has landed…
the idiot is born…
the crying commences…
The GODS are “STILL”…watching…
Are you “STILL”…peeping…
Hi there whoever you are.
You are just caught violating my privacy …
But don’t you worry,
Life is freedom, Just peep,
I just hope you can go that…deep,
To UNDER stand the shit I am putting down!
I have always refused to consider writing my biography for I am no writer and no BODY,
I am some ONE who is someone only to him SELF, why would I write for BODIES ?
And then I liked the sound of that, so many BUDDIES I might have!
Anyway I just finished my first book about wisdom in its scientific motion called:
I am a CON-man & TO BE is my sole plan, a TRIAL of civilization,
It clearly explains how I became a WISE ASS…
and here I am stuck in Tunisia until this inheritance thing is settled
my family was completely disintegrated and I was the only link that is left,
I had no other choice but keep myself busy until this episode is over,
the books I ‘d like to read are out of reach,
I am not so much into common stuff !
How can that be, my being is the most uncommon within me,
and so I chose to write…
For one thing, Tunisia was the perfect place though, it happened to be my country HOST,
and therefore it makes the best start of my biography story .
I have to apologise for not being able to tell you about my best or my worst part,
the period in which I was pure and truly complete, but vulnerable,
and could not be possibly understood,
the time I was just a BLANK WHITE PAPER, PURE LIGHT!
But to whom?
Who has eyes for that?
That is the other question.
Sorry guys my memory betrayed me and could only take me back to the age of five!
But somehow it is much better so,
for we neither have eyes to see what is written on a blank white paper,
nor enough guts to face the loving torture inflicted on us by our parents nannies
during our period of full dependence, how could they know?
Surely not and so is our memory my friend, to protect us,
On purpose, It chooses to spare us the most horrible thing one can imagine,
Just imagine living as a full time slave,
Nothing you can decide by yourself, not even eating,
Only the wise ass gets away with it and decides as he pleases when to piss & when to shit!
So this period is not really worth re-membering but in no way we should feel
any blame for no one, who knows really “what love is” to do something in his name!
I pass on what this question is giving birth in me, too heavy already as an “intro”.
Therefore the memory is very selective and enfolds before our eyes
all the DIRT we live through our life’s experiences
to learn from the lessons that it will bring to our door step
until we take the path of mastering how to become again a blank white paper!
That is all there is to life in the human body really,
my first book talks at large about this and gives actually the key
to become an ass just like me, with a slight difference, your own way! If you choose to…
For now let’s start the journey into true violation of my privacy…
through the peeping hole…the key hole…the ass-hole…
But you need to get ready to live in the present with this book,
It doesn’t know any planning procedure,
It just enfolds itself as it experiences the present time passing by, fully lived
while Being aware of you, peeping…, and that is what I want, you to experience…
Take a deep breath…
A little deeper..
I am the present…
In the past I get stuck…
In the future I am just a sitting duck…
The present is life flowing…
Sees no obstacles…
Water makes love to the rocks,
No matter how big they are…
No matter how tight they are…
True love opens doors…
There is always a way…
Rivers always dive into the oceans,
Present flows…
No possible mark…
Like a bird in the sky…
The past is like your fear of the dark…
It makes you often cry…
Future sets you on the illusion…
The sure road to CON-fusion…
Give it up…
Drink from your present cup…
The boat is waiting…
Boarding is free…
“STILL” , is written on the “footbridge”
your ticket please…just…”to be”…
present…flows…
everything grows…
flowers open…
fragrance dissipates…
some will notice…
some will not…
the show is always there…
only for the one who dare…
but the Gods are “STILL”… watching...
PART ONE: MY BODY
The magic in a free youth…five to eighteen …years young…
Freedom is sacred,
You give it up, you die alive,
Birds have tried,
Fishes have tried,
Still searching in the limitless…
Oceans met the sky…
They never found the way…
Men helped them…
Confusion blossoms…
Death rejoices…
The gods are “STILL”… watching…
All has started in May 3 1007 = 3 X007 a great being hiding in a simple number, for everyone to remember, the thing to be a 3 in 1 thing, because I found the X that made me sing, my life has shifted to a 3D kind, kindness became my religiosity through the being in me, my THIRD DIMENTION “to be” …a BIRD, I, king the 3rd , can FLY and continue “to be” HEARD until I reach the SEVEN-th SKY, sorry it is my BIRTH RIGHT, 3 & 7 are SACRED NUMBERS and are BOUND to meet and create a BOND, the X man you call “James”, 007 is a prophecy, without it we are nothing but a DEAD MEAT, no wonder you are…STOP EATING DEAD MEAT…you cheat!
May is a beautiful month of the spring season where all the flowers blossom to show their hidden beauty to the world. They stand in pride to fulfil their subtle role in our lives, in being committed to seduce us and do their very best to bring a sweeter taste to our daily life. Lucky are those who are always sensitive to the gifts of nature and take the time to fill their lungs with pure fragrance of peace and their cups with overwhelming free and unstained love. Yes, did you hear about someone saying, if you have any problem just be ZEN and every problem will magically disappear, this is what it is about, just open yourself to nature, the source, where what you ignorantly call God is at hand for free and with no effort, but most go to look for it where it can’t be, far in the skies, unreachable, so it is reduced to a prayer, just words blown in the air, then you have to learn to be a WIND to deliver your prayer, before that, you can’t be heard for your way is absurd. I was called BEN than Tarzan king of the jungle, meaning Tar ZEN, Popeye of the CON called BEN to end up simply ZEN in God’s jungle…it is God’s plan. So many signs we mistakenly call coincidences, God talks to us in many subtle ways, she is at hand, she is here & now, even closer, she is HERENOW, through the people we meet, including the ones we doubt or we cheat, through a book we read to plant the seed, through a flower we see to learn what IS… to be, living IN the PRESENT within the present…moment…the only life to feel…that IS real…a flower never worry about neither yesterdays nor tomorrows, the sources of all our sorrows, a flower never look for a reason to open and die, unlike the rock that would say: I am not stupid, I stay firm and hard so that I last in the game, to play my CARD… as a pawn, a soldier, a cog in the machine, so be a rock if you want with a very small role, while the seed is hiding a greatness you can’t even dream about, when you get access to its core, you could feel what a rock feels, what a flower feels, what a tree feels, you could be the rain, the wind…you are the WHOLE consciousness, the UNIVERSAL! But humans attached to culture and customs defined by social and religion systems, chose “to be” reduced to sinners and slaves of these systems, thus they are BOUND TO SUFFER and climb OVER each other to survive and realize their material illusive and empty dreams, they simply can’t do a thing WITH each other… we reverse again the course of real life, we get the curse… we have misunderstood the universe that is in every corner and neighborhood that said U IN-VERSE, here is “eye king the 3rd”’s VERSE, the ZEN poetry to flood your being with unusual fragrance rising above these dead words, so your task is to catch it so that he can teach it…
As my spaceship landed on earth, my mother ‘s womb offered the adequate ocean, just enough, for the short visit, to experience the various faces of miseries that come along with ignorance, the denial of who we are, a spaceship can only come from a star, but we end up or rather down in a bar…drinking poison and eating lives to grow as tough as a rock to face our enemies, they are all over the place, for luck of GOoD food, luck of space, luck of grace…”THERE IS NOT ENOUGH”- humans said, so we are bound to become tough and rough, to win over the malediction of nature that doesn’t produce enough for all of us, and strikes innocents with floods, volcanoes and earthquakes, so the trouble maker becomes the innocent, humans are idiots, and nature’s innocence is pushed and pushed and pushed…and had no more space to go, so America is born and the revenge was building up in huge boundless fields of corn, waiting for the right moment to blow the horn, so the world is scorn and finally the time of accounts settlement has come and the DUEL has begun. The PUSH has created the AM-BUSH and the world watched the first round, and I was terrified by its ugly sound, disturbance took place and a subtle mark left on my face, my THIRD eye was born, but the JOB wasn’t finished, KARMA is like a jelly fish, you can’t get rid of it before going through all the SHIT you create, so there is no need for endless debate, it is life’s FATE, so the WORDS of the WORLD leaders couldn’t RE-TUNE, separation took place, some lost the FACE and some earned a NEW FACE, but all was a PURE DIS-GRACE, ECONOMIC TALKS and LAW WALKS, CON-FUSION rejoices and HUMANS MOVED BACKWARDS, so the MESSIAH had to get on with it, and OVER with it! And the SON of the first AM-BUSH came a long to finish the BLOODY SONG, with more strength added to the experience of the father, he is a SUN, his rays are so powerful, no one could look him in the eye and challenge him, can you look into the SUN? So he is a DOUBLE AM-BUSH, he is finally ONE to ONE with the PUSH, war is calling and people are falling, death is on salary roll, I have seen it all, I am awake, thanks to ignorance & madness of humanity, so I am taking a long, long, long break…I am no longer a fake…thanks to all, I got the providence’s call…I finally know how to play the ball…I got two…so one is for you, would you play with me, please? I will let you do it at ease, take your time…a life time…for it can only be…a choice.
My father has already lost all his wealth as soon as I was five, I found myself sharing a room of 4 x 5 meters without electricity but with abundance of people, the remaining 3 sisters and my brother, all still single. My father being “ill-literate”, could not think of more than a simple job with a thin salary working his ass off in the dirty and feverish city. From this experience, I have the memory of the sweetest thing my father ever shared with me and which stayed carved in my heart to help me grow as the me I am. During the Muslim feast named “AÏD SEGUIR ” celebrating the ending of the holy fasting month of RAMADAN, which is the equivalent of CHRISTMAS to the kids, where every child gets a remake and a little refueling, something subtle has happened in me.
This day was the blackest day for my father, for he kept blaming himself somehow for loosing his face and pride to the sweet wine and to the devilish gambling addiction that emanates from the magic within the cards, but he chose to follow first the SWEET HEARTS while being drunk, to lead him to the DIAMOND for a final artistic touch that tiled him in a diamond figure on the floor and end up burying all the heritage, he did not pay respect to in this life.
Well, my mother never missed a chance to remind him anyway, which did not help him much in coping with the situation, just added more suffering through remorse striking capability. But he could swallow his pride out of compassion for all of us and he run after every little capricious penny that never forgot how it was thrown disrespectfully here and there some time ago. As of now the COIN king, as it shows on its printed face wherever you go, has to be begged to come to my father’s infamous little street, for there is not even a decent seat for him to eat after his tiring journey, the hungry mouths would eat it up before he could even finish resting. And here he is that very day, sitting in front of me explaining why he wouldn’t be able to honor my day as it should? And surprisingly he had tears in his eyes while telling me that he wouldn’t want me to make the same miss-take, and that I had to be an excellent student, for that is my only chance to get out of this mess, as a symbolic consolation he handed me a coin to buy a candy! Since that day my mind opened a huge highway ready to swallow all the knowledge that was spoken at school. Something subtle and significant was carved in my memory and illuminated my educational path. The thing is, my father could never see that, for I had the best score without any efforts made under his eyes. And so it was, he kept beating me to make me better, for he never saw me studying! How can that be, I had the highest score, how to make him understand. For some reason, I never blamed him for doing so, because I really thought he simply did not know better. This acceptance was an open invitation to the higher Me to be more involved and help me solve this beating inconvenience.
I remember the day he hung me upside down in the storage room and has beaten me to a fainting fit with his leather belt, then locked me up head down. But my mother fought him back hard, and she got thrown on the floor, but she came back on him stronger and stronger until he gave it up and opened the door to release me from my hanging robe. And so this idea was whispered to me, I just had to LAUGH IN-stead of CRYING, another divine Inversion! To my surprise my father had no more reason to beat me anymore, he simply felt ashamed. Aside from this experience with my father, I had another memorable one with my mother. One of those dark and tough days, there was no food for dinner, my little sister was crying and I was quite irritated, the only action my mother could think of, is to COOK some wisdom, and here she was going out and coming back with something in the basket and said: you are blessed tonight, I have for you, some hard but very consistent potatoes, you just need TO BE patient and you will eat your “PEACE”. And so she put the tough potatoes in the pot filled with water under the fire that never tire to burn, to cook the unCOOKable, there were ROCKS inside! We all had our PEACE and we slept while waiting to eat it …the present is your highest present leading peacefully to all your tomorrows , there is always ONE waiting for you, isn’t there ?
Wisdom is the ONE sure thing that can get you OFF any HOOK,
Relax and COOK IT …IN …the ONE POT!
Poverty made me mingle with others alike, and here we are united in the struggle of surviving. At the age of six, I was a part time worker in the market, as a watermelon vendor, and the rest of the other parts of my free time, I was busy with my partners, whether picking up the pinky fragrant cyclamen flowers at the peak of the mountains, to sell it to the rare tourists in a bouquet, whether picking up from the houses of the rich, the fruits that were hanging there, stripping for the pleasure of the eyes of the well fed. I truly loved this close contact with nature including the steeling shameful act that was in fact, in the eyes of the fruits hanging on the tree, a DEAR blessing, for the love they expressed in return was only IN-describable. One has to ask our hungry bellies!
One adventure led to another and our GANG celebrated its birth. One of the good memories was the attack of the city market. Several nights we watched and timed the two guards, and here I am sneaking in and steeling our dinner needs while I was invisible. I was the smallest and the fastest, the DWARF was my nickname. We had great pleasure in celebrating these adventures around a bonfire, cooking our sumptuous dinners.
While growing up, our needs grew faster with the discovery of the cinema etc. And most of the members were thinking of starting to move towards a different theme of actions that we can mint and convert to true money. This idea was terrifying me and something within was whispering me some wisdom telling me that it is not an acceptable conduct. I gave it some thoughts and I have decided to follow the voice in me which coincided with that of my teachers and my parents and little by little a smooth separation took birth between me and my gang brothers, and completely with the ACT OF THEFT!
Here is the other magic left and still sleeping. Because of luck of space and beds, we use to sleep four in one bed. I use to be the filler in a sandwich. Nothing can beat that feeling. I was too young to understand, but my nights were long, very long, I was among the stars, my hands could reach the unreachable.
The dew drop is felt,
The moon is reflected,
The demons are awake,
The wars has begun,
The sun is hot,
Touch is born,
The horses are freed,
Innocence feels the seed…
Are you “STILL” peeping…
The gods are “STILL” …watching…
The wheel of life never tires, sunrise after sunrise, season after season and the sheep is running bewildered by the body’s treasures and infinite pleasures, some are sinking in it and some are just dreaming about it. But hunger is the most dreadful enemy, man incarnates the wild animal waiting for any opportunity to break up the chains and get out of the vicious circle.
My older brother got his university entry exam and received his scholarship aid for the yearly books. My father started to feel his wings palpitating, alive again. The early seventies were the golden years of immigration, Europe was on the high, money was flowing and richness was singing the summer song, the fable was alive. Cicadas were rejoicing the fragrance of the all the way through flowering season of the seventies, and many, many ants were needed to finish the colossal job created by the wings of fortune’s growth. The underground transportation was booming and plenty of holes were still to dig. Many other “dirty tasks” were available for ants’s world, gathering and picking up garbage. Paris was clean as early as six AM, but as soon recession hit again and the French had to save some money and accept their fate, they reversed the working time, the end became a new beginning. A new generation has another way of working, a more respectful way, but truth is truth and stays untouched by time, can any being beats ants at work? They are efficient and the least disturbing, you never see them but the work is done, just let them be…ants never bother about working times, it is their nature, they love to work, work, work and store, store, store before the rainy season. But my father new only rainy seasons back then, so he had to find a way out. A decision was made and he bought a boat ticket to Marseille in order to finally reach the blessed city of Paris by train. Then my brother had no money to buy any books for his university courses. But he didn’t bother, he also had his own plan. My father was supposed to send him a ticket to pursue his studies in Paris by the year next and so it was. My father was a hard headed man, toughed by the wheel of time, from the millionaire to the father who does really finally care. Nothing could stop him on his way to earn his bread, nothing to him could be possibly said, his mind was set and all his being was ready to take a bet, his life’s challenge. Alone in a country in which he doesn’t speak a word, disarmed by language and positively charmed by will power’s sward. And he made it.
The rocks are wise & useful,
Alive and vibrating with life,
The unseen is a true power,
the drums are beating hard,
the shaking turn to friction,
the flame is lit,
sunrise is there,
just BE…aware…
life rejoices…
with care…
sunset is “STILL” waiting…
The gods are “STILL” …watching…
Few years later, I was also there, but that is another story altogether, we’ll come to it later. I just want to mention this beautiful “ anecdote”. I was always wondering how my father would manage to move with the subway from one point to another without being able to read! Sometimes around nineteen seventy eight, the “ les Halles” station in the center of Paris had a total remake, a complete new outfit and a new make up. Hence, while in the subway with my father, I asked him what station was it, it was his first time passing by it, as it just has opened. He was very puzzled and a bit ashamed, pride is a sacred thing in most Arabs. About twenty seconds later, a bursting laugh was released and cried out “les Halles”. This guy was literally picturing the writings, the words had become bigger to him, the surroundings have completely changed but the essence stayed the same. It was an amazing experience to me, I was really thrilled inside, I respected greatly the man.
Mountains rise,
Islands disappear,
The New moon comes,
The night darkens,
Silence deepens
Echo penetrates,
Existence is thrilled,
The full moon comes,
The unseen is revealed…
Enjoy…
The gods are “STILL” …watching…
I was thirteen and took charge as the man of the family, I grew up too fast, a big responsibility. I had to make sure the money was wisely shared to join the two ends of the never ending month. You can never realise how long a month can be, when you have a fixed sum to stretch in order to cover the whole period with no compromise. We were living in a small town up the northern coast of Tunisia called Hammam-lif, a funny name meaning the “nose’s bath”. I loved this town so much, for it offered a beautiful sea and a mountain that is crying out along its feet its daily torture, in a warm sensual fountain of tears used wisely as a unique natural hot bathing place, called “ El-hammam el-arbi”, the “Arab bath”. Our small apartment on the first floor was full of life, right in the heart of the town and above a noisy café. Cafés in Tunisia are like a highly sophisticated ”killing time” machine for men, the dreadful killing weapons were cards and gossiping with café friends around a smoking Turkish pipe called “chicha”, the joy in the heart of the Tunisian ordinary man. Happy marriages are centred around the amount of freedom men enjoyed in going to his favourite café without being nagged at. Sports and fantasising on women are the main core of the Tunisian social life. Of course I am talking about the mass here. And I wish to add what is happiness? As an ignorant would have answered, happiness is happiness, whether it comes from sports & cards whether from travels and fancy possessions, why define what is only IN-definable, who is the fool to contradict that? Any way, we had a little dead space in the back of the apartment and a great idea arose in me, and this tiny balcony was used for rabbit reproduction. And we ate meat for the present and the past, no longer worries about the future, extra money could be made and my father had some break-time until he gets a better job. Things were just very tight but cool, only me was still playing the fool, counting on my natural enlightenment during my primary school education to continue. The easy memorising of the knowledge spoken in class is now more difficult. I had to work harder on the subjects, I loved to balance my ignorance in other subjects with my favourite ones, math & physics were my spring board, and my efforts were worth trying and so I managed to be successful, a living rabbit was in my blood stream, the PACKMAN of my enlightenment.
Life is sacred,
Books are even more,
Written by belly language,
Living in turmoil,
Would you listen to a fool,
Wisdom lives in the deep silence,
Get up early and listen to the sun rise,
Can you understand the language ?
And so the world is living, in the dark,
existence is compassionate…
Eat & drink from ignorance…
You call innocence…
I should have asked the rabbit…
But I could never wake up that early…
So I went on & on… sleeping…
Killing what is living…
To feed my ignorance…
to grow and fit in life’s show…
The gods are “STILL”… watching…
I was growing up, and travelling was bugging me inside, but a family is in my hands to watch over. A dream was born and crystallized in my brains, nothing could stop it any more, and the message was received. The universe doesn’t waste time, the omen is always there waiting for the right state of mind, it doesn’t understand the language of doubt, you can cry out and shout on top of your voice, omens have no ears, they blossom in complete silence and in any heart, no matter how poor or rich you are, black or white, Arab or Jewish, a priest or a thief. A lotus flower grows in the thickest mud.
A friend just came back from a trip in Sweden and was singing the freedom song, body and money pleasures were easily attainable, just find the job, a three months working permit is immediately delivered. I was out of my mind and especially out of money, I only new its fragrance during my whole life, but he is talking about real money, a plane ticket and survival starting budget. So my wings started getting very agitated, my schooling also, what wings can do in a cage, just a hindrance. So I calmed my self down, I could blow on the flame, first things first I kept repeating. To free my wings I need to break through the cage, what to do, I had no tool, I looked around, asked people, but they called me a fool. Another omen couldn’t wait to show up, he whispered me the way: again first comes first he said, I didn’t understand first and then I realised something, I better focus on my studies first and succeed the university entry exam step, the first step, I worry about the money later. And so I did. But my father was outraged, leaving my mother and my younger sister alone! It is inconceivable in Arab culture. I was eighteen and my sister thirteen, my mother was fifty five years old. He threatened to not accept me if I ever manage to reach France, he new I could do it. But we were certainly not on the same plane, we have never been, except this time my plane has a name GÖTEBORG, south of Sweden, free sex without helmet on top of a free working permit, served on a golden plate, that was my fate I thought. Can a young poor country boy possibly ask for more? Follow the omen, you get the metaphor.
And so I made it to Paris, staying with my brother who helped me get inscribed at the university and also with some money I think, but I can’t recall. My father was defied but could swallow his pride, he loved me dearly but cheaply cause of luck of richness during my existence, just bad timing. But wasting it is even worse, I had to find the money to get out and work for the three summer months. It is absolutely vital for me. I have never experienced being dependent my whole life, except the first five years! But I am not going to start now, my brother can hardly pay his rent and his basic needs and my father is as stubborn as God’s patience with us, nothing could break his solid inner core, he said don’t push your luck, but he forgot that I was even more stubborn then him, I had his experience from his genes plus my will power. So I kept asking every man I met, no scruples. And once more the omen was ready to fly over me and handed me the smart move with GOoD timing. And here I am visiting my father to enjoy one of his favourite recipes. He was a one good HOT cook, I tell you. But it is worth over-coming the chilly part, especially when he is in such nice company. This simple friend of his was another Tunisian worker, and seemed very charmed with my sweet talks. I didn’t waste time to bring up my Sweden project on the table in spite of my father’s big eyes. And he was right away troubled with the confidence and assurance I was expressing. I simply was talking as if I was already there and as if this trip was in fact nothing more than a routine thing. So my father asked, let us suppose he gives you the money, what if you can’t find work right away, how would you survive? I answered with a joke, you left us alone once and we have made it, I’ll just breed some rabbits again. So they laughed, and I added, why being pessimistic, I can not see what you are seeing, it is not you who is going, it is me and I see work waiting for me, I can’t help it, it is already there. I just don’t want to make it late because I need to work as much as I can to save enough money to face the non-working period when I come back to Paris. And the guy burst with a clear and bright compassionate answer, a YES as big as a sun, I felt I was his son not my father’s! And my rays touched already all the omens of the universe and so the future was born, and its red carpet started enfolding , I just had to walk through it living every single present moment, it is the fate I created and the man just asked me to get the information about the ticket’s price, no money aside. And so it happened, I bought my plane ticket with enough money left to survive for a day, cause Sweden was the most expensive place in Europe those times, but I am a survivor, if there is enough for one day, there is enough for two, schools should teach this simple but true great knowledge, there is always ENOUGH, they do everything in reverse, they tell you that you have to fight hard to get a social position etc…this is not knowledge, this is a crime we are living today for fighting creates the DOGMA of the ENEMY that is a mind fabrication, not that of the higher CREATION… and so we measure friendship with INTEREST…the thing the UNITED NATIONS do best…to exploit the WEAK…a handful nations rule over the rest of the world, the poor world…the sleeping…the ignorant…
The day “D” has come, and I boarded on the cheapest flight using the cheapest plane to cross such agitated ocean. Since board-ing, the only thing I didn’t feel is bored-OM, the Buddha in me was flying, despite the extreme shaking of the plane, almost torn into pieces, the “OM” would gladly gathered them to restore my peace, I kept calm, very calm deep down and couldn’t hear a thing, and so I was silent & peaceful inside, I simply wasn’t there. Let us take a break at this ultimate point and let this moment expand into eternity, it is a moment of very deep meditation, just die to it, let it BE…whole within you.
Life is a gift,
Full of opportunities,
You need not more than a shift,
to move towards your inner core energies,
Always re-member,
The new moon ‘s sadness,
You plunge into darkness,
But it is only a breath,
Before the full moon smiles,
And the sun rises again,
Never give up this language,
THE under-STANDING,
Nature’s magic language,
Your inner nature…
If you want to live,
You need to learn how to breath…
Never worry…
You’ve got time…
Until eternity…
You are eternal…Look up…
But feel down your guts…
Your life’s pool…
Dive in…to get your cuts…
The Gods are “STILL”… watching…
June 1976, Gutenberg, Sweden, three AM, cool temperature, warmed with hopes, boiling with confidence and bursting with joy of being…where you want to be…Hard to describe these rebel feelings that were emerging from an internal struggle of “will power”, you are over powered, over excited but swimming in the worldly nirvana.
A bus took me to the student campus to rent a room. Too early to find people to talk too, but certainly a lovely place to be waiting…to decompress a little, the target is just an hour away, the sun will rise, the curtain will be lifted, and my job will be easily found, I am sure, I am certain. The eight o’clock drumbeat shook off my tired wrist, but my fist was as hard as a rock, the feel of a bundle of money was real, it is already there, I just had to go and work for it. And so I left my bags at the reception desk with a smiling face, so easy and so nice to start a day with such a grace, a valuable gift, we mostly oppress and overrule by the dead yesterdays’ s miseries and the worries of tomorrows, how idiots humans can “be”, sorry about this language’s confusion, it strikes me on the spot, the only valuable thing is “to be”, the thing human can’t do. So unless you are IDIOT, you can’t be. Are you “still” with me, anyway don’t worry, it’ s God’s business, “STILL” I mean, the master of how “to be”. Here I am on the road again, heading for the” heart” of the town, the only place that could understand my language my omen said. And keep talking with your heart he added. So I decided to do even better, I was singing with my heart, my song of the day was: I am a student and I am looking for a job. Well, beginnings are beginnings and one starts always singing a little out of tune, but my instrument was hollow, that’s it, I was like a hollow bamboo, a little cold and still hungry. So I sat in the sun for a little warm up, watched life passing by, everything was so different, seemed very beautiful, strange, I saw much more girls than boys or I couldn’t notice the difference, so attractive, I never saw so many blond and tall girls and I thought, poor me, they can hardly notice me, my nickname was the dwarf, how could I get to them, I need to put a share for a kiss, if it’s still there, and the omen whispered in my heart, there is plenty for everyone, even for the blind so cut it out will you, just “be” and then wait and see, and so I laughed very hardly because how could the poor blind see, he could wait forever, omens make funny jokes sometimes and then I came back to sanity. That was a GOoD laugh I thought, and God must have eyes on every human being and must hear everything that happens, she must have no time for anything else, how can you cry while watching billions of idiots? Anyone can tell me? may “be” the pope, but then I am a bigger idiot by asking another idiot, my answer has to wait, but I give it a try anyway, I have peace of HER sitting inside me, She’s my lover like no other! And so the omen whispered in my ear again and shouted, you smart ass, you always find your way, don’t you? Your hunch is right, God has no time to cry over our stupid actions, he can’t possibly consume the laughing part, that is why the ones who suffer never get a return call, first comes first, and what else comes before the ONE, only a zero, and that is just your ultimate target, you become whole, like a Buddha, the circle is the figure he makes with his hands while meditating. But now I have to come back to my purpose in being here, I have to focus. And then before hitting the road again, I had to look a little back and express my appreciation for this city, yet we barely see the beauty of the flowers and the trees, as soon as we know they are always there. Humans are idiots, but to me everything was just new, so I wanted to take that love, it is free, like women in this city, I didn’t travel so far to miss free love, I am not crazy, I use to “flog the log” but now I need to tune my bamboo, it is most useful. Anyway, I found this city really beautiful, hilly and a little chilly but spacious, large roads and low buildings, without obstructing the freedom of the winds and the rays of the sun, no wonder people are cool around here. My system is finally ready to move, the higher part of my bamboo feels really warm, the wind just blew in it freely, I could hear its beautiful sound and so I am, feeling sound, let’s go. After a couple of trials, I saw a long line of people reading their newspapers falling in line waiting for their turn to eat in a Chinese restaurant. And I thought, Sweden is a rich country, I heard the media saying that it had the highest standard of living and here I am watching what rather looks like the poorest standard of living, I don’t remember have made such a line to eat and I was poor, it reminded me of Russian documentaries. I was a little puzzled, there must be something very special to make people behave like idiots and fall in line for half an hour to eat in a “self service” restaurant, so I went to peep inside, it is a beautiful place, with cloth on the tables and waiters were running like mad. And I understood that must be a very cheap price for very fresh food in a classy place, Chinese are really GOoD in business, they are very professional, very service oriented, “Orient” was a birth right, and looked always ahead for profits, they are patient and smart in using cheap labour. So I thought, hey I get in and play my song, what the heck! And Lucky me, as usual, I enter and ask the boss himself about the boss, he was working with them, he said what do you want, please be quick , and then I sung my song from the bottom of my heart, for the current was passing nicely, I loved the place, work is needed, and hunger is abundant, so they certainly need a helping hand, I am an instrument, with my bamboo flute I can be a member of this band. He said he had no time at this very moment but asked me to come back after lunch, with a natural smile. I new already, I just went out, sat on the edge of the fountain in celebration, pouring Gothenburg holy waters, only to my eyes, for its holiness is flowing from the Chinese restaurant, my holy Sweden Mecca. The pigeons were gliding in the clear sky celebrating the warmer winds under the golden rays of the capricious sun. The fragrance of summer’s love. Birds are really much smarter than humans, they don’t miss a chance to commune with nature, their clock is set forever ticking with nature as its heart beat, ours is set with the dead job seat. While contemplating their show in the blue sky, my eyes just fell heavy with beauty and closed the curtain to open another which is even more beautiful, other colours came into being, the blue is replaced by a fiery bursting orange-red mix with multiple nuances in which the birds vanished and disappeared from my in-sight. And suddenly a drop of warm substance fell on my face and I thanked instantly with all my heart the ass that honoured me with his blessings, and so I washed my warm fool face in the pool. Soon too o’clock came to pick me up, but I said hey, take it easy, let me go down first, I will be with you in a moment and I took a couple of deep breaths and followed the clock. I entered the restaurant, and all the staff were laughing and eating celebrating their daily victory, that is how they see it, it is never taken for granted, just between us, I was whispered, that is the secret of success. Every new day is a new cold-war to win, to earn your living, to do good or to sin. They promptly invited me to join them for lunch, I guess they rather had no choice, my face invited itself and they just made it easier for me, my last meal was offered to the open space through the plane’s toilet. I shared some laughs while eating with them and they explained to me what would be my task, an intelligent dish washer. I had to wash what is really needed and not what lies more of , in the sink. And I said proudly, piece of cake, I am a hard working guy, I started at the age of six, but I kept the theft stories out, who knows they might think I am still the same, humans are such idiots, once you have a label, you have to fight hard to change it, they won’t let you, they love to call you names, you become disable…in their eyes…only. Anyway, money was good and the work was a piece of cake, so le me go catch up with my waiting room and have a break. I need to digest all these things, tomorrow is the day. And I thought about how would be the face of my father if I told him I found a job the same day I arrived! Let me take a deep breath again and rest a little for now, may be you also, so if you feel like it, join me…
first comes first,
life’s breeding is within,
the universe opens,
the omens run,
the rays become the sun,
the heart starts shining,
the bamboo starts singing,
pure energy is liberated
the world is intoxicated,
the path is cleared,
love is naked,
don’t peep, dive,
dive,
keep diving,
fill your being,
rejoice,
make your choice,
the target is hit,
the arrow has landed,
in the other center,
communion is secured,
start giving,
never stop,
you are on the top,
the source is in love,
ask the knower,
ask the pine tree, its tip,
what is just a sip,
from the rising SUN’ s rays,
the universe’s mother
there is no other…,
please go on…
it is fun, anything that IS…
the Gods are “STILL”…watching…
Few days later, my life’ s rhythm found its beat, in phase with my heart. The work is hard and the people were fun, hardship disappears. The studio I rented was just perfect, a common kitchen on the last floor, always a smile with an open door, life was rolling, and happiness was strolling, all of it at hand, I was just flying and the space was grand. But the meeting has to start, I can’t miss that part. When the evening came, I hit the night life, and here I am in a nice night club, the owner was a country brother, a Tunisian, I couldn’t believe my eyes, a small world really. Africana was the name of the club, I can’t recall the guy’s name, memory is like that, very selective, but it has its own reasons, I never bother much, as soon as I feel the resistance, I release the clutch, it is self torture, I may be an idiot but not stupid. I have neither drunk a beer nor shook my body on a dancing floor before throughout my whole life. But again, there is always a first time, I love first times, everything within rhymes, cause they are the most sincere moments, we betray them often too soon and we end up with a face looking for a new full moon to cheer us up. Humans are real idiots. I just had a baby fruit juice and sat around a table, watching the steps carefully and fill my eyes with the body language, I wanted to be…able.. and alive as soon as I can, singing my magic number and fulfil my plan, I had a GOoD one, but let me tell you about what I feel right now, about what is coming. Ay, ay, ay, there is nothing bigger than first times, why do we have to have this stupid memory really, it is more of a hindrance, everybody is more concerned with yesterdays and tomorrows more than the present. Just ask any one anything, he will either talk about the past or about the future, but never about the present, and that is what I wanted to talk about, and when it happens, you meet silence, your mental stops, the present is to live and not to talk about, your essential part takes over, the mouth talks mostly nonsense, feelings are a better way of communication, they can arise also from your eyes, from your smile, from your friendly touch or from a deeper stolen soft caress as such.. a hand in a bush…a GOoD feel…that is REAL…that was “STILL” my greatest DEAL…to come. Mute people must be…always happier than others, they neither can talk nonsense nor hear it. I never thought of that, silence is aloneness which means holiness. But we never let them be…live who they are, we only stress what they are, just dummies, Mutes, we feel pity for them, the truth is the other way around, take a GOoD look within you, are you sound? These lovers of life are far greater than us, so far that they give up on us, we are so idiot to think of silence as a hindrance, what nonsense, if it is so, why so many meditation & yoga centres are growing like magic mushrooms around the world, this is my very GOoD advice:
The higher Meditation,
Anything FREE is WORTH living,
Only then you can BE… giving,
Save your money,
feel the “REAL” honey,
Get a mute and catch some of his silence!
Get a DIS-ABLE “to be” ABLE,
To under STAND the greatness of silence,
You are silent…
You are DIS-ABLE!
You are …on BOARD…
Welcome to the REAL world,
The GODS are “STILL” …watching
Mutes have no true place with us, we don’t give them a chance, to teach us their dance, we force them to learn ours. They are seen as handicapped and can’t fit in our world of hearing and speaking nonsense. We can learn a lot from these people actually, if we let them really be. Fast they can reach the target, their ocean within, they can be our battery charger, this is a true path to explore, what psychology and psychoanalysis are saying about them, I should explore, I wish I did before, but never mind, the present can’t wait, it is now at this very moment. My fingers have to go on fingering, another love story with my typing board, I got the key. Another discovery I was not aware off. I tell you, awareness is something very deep, it breaks all monotony, it is the cheapest ticket to the golden “mine”, the “real world of mine”, “free of charge” the world of “FREE…DOM” but you need to free D.. OM, a Buddha could, anybody would, but do you have guts to walk out of a KING…DOM for a price-less FREE..DOM? Follow the price and you collect the ice to freeze your ignorance, but now listen to this echo of the world of free…DOM, so many adventures you are experiencing at the same time but you don’t see a shit, all pass by under your nose, its fragrance is lost and you pay the cost, boredom blossoms and frustration flourishes along, with suffering, big time, while human idiocies celebrate their rhyme. Ay, ay, ay my friends, hopefully I tasted a bit of awareness unconsciously, now I am swimming in it, but unless you live it, you don’t get a shit, that is the highest law, far above these dead words, they are only a fragment of truth, you ought to make them alive, no one else can help you, no Guru can, the harsh law of existence, the JUST law, no short cuts but plenty of guts. You can’t bribe the judge, which is in fact JUST BEGRUDGE or BE GROUDGE or be envious, you get away with money and you pay back with your honey, UN-REAL for REAL or the other way around, think and tell me how that does SOUND, IS it a GOoD DEAL? But you are stuck, you need to know WHAT IS REAL, that is what life is all about, now you can release your FROZEN IGNORANCE and SHOUT: I am a STUPID IDIOT, you will realize your IN-credible PROGRESS, you simply become an IDIOT, you enjoy life with no wife I mean strife! But let me stay focused, where was I ? Oh in the night club, here is my first pray coming, I couldn’t believe it, she is the one talking to me: what is that mark on your arm, friend ? So I said, hi I am Nora and you, and she answered Jasmine, so I said, what a charming name please give me a chance to see if you smell the same, and I followed up quickly by saying : if you want your answer, you have to listen to the whole story, I don’t give anything in pieces, always in one peace, so please join me, and she sat with a drink, the bench felt warmer, everything that vibrates has life, even rocks have, but humans are idiots they have no manners with things, they think what they call “things” are dead, commune with everything you touch with respect and you will feel their energy flowing within, I know its crazy but it is real, so please try to get real, don’t you worry you will stay idiot, like me, and keep it that way, later I will tell you about the “high way”, ok. So I started con-versing, living in the past while my eyes were penetrating her light dress and my ” etheric” in-visible body was already enveloping her, I could smell her flesh, Jasmin just offering itself so fresh, what a longing moment to experience. Before she gets bored with me, please be kind and let me tell her my story. Here it is: since young age, I had plenty, plenty of street time, and soccer was my best talent in this body, so I have excelled in this game. By the way, as young as seven, my gang jokes were a bit mean, we loved fooling people, especially the elder rich and serious men. So while playing soccer with a ball made out of a sock filled with cloth, we kept one special aside for the prime time when an elder man had the push from his awakened youth to join us. So we place the divine ball for him to shoot and try to score the penalty. As soon as he shoots the ball, we all disappear in different directions and the man is left with pain, that ball is filled with hard rocks! I take this opportunity to apologise to every man that has suffered from this laughing experience. And one day, a French trainer had the idea to pick up some street talents for the town’s football club and a tournament was organised. During one of the games, a guy managed to push me into a bad fall, and idiot as I was and as I still am, I answered his call, and I heard my left forearm’s two bones ringing their bell, I almost passed out from pain but pride was standing with a smile, you are a man she yelled, you can deal with it…and so I smiled holding my arm that bowed to my pride, I tell you, my nose was living in the peaks of the world, having my pride at its tip, and everything in me always bowed to this authority. Well I was in the community hospital where the patient is the “guinea pig” of the young practitioner. The man was rather tired by the end of the day of such a tough job, and as we say in Tunisia “ his face is stinking his bottom”. Social workers suffer a lot from the mass in Tunisia, most are a bit noisy and difficult to deal with in general, so you have got to have GOoD patience if you want to have such a job, it is very hard for the nerves, and I happened to pass on a bad day and in wrong hands. And my bones were yelling on top of their voice imprisoned in the casting. They were still not aligned! He said, it is ok just go home, the pain will stop soon, otherwise just take a pill, no X-rays, no checking whatsoever. But the pain didn’t stop, I reasoned with her as much as I could, she wouldn’t listen, so I decided to let somebody else deal with her, and I came back a week later for a check, so they sent me to the specialist of the head hospital, and they found out about the gross mistake. The doctor, in an angry state of mind about his colleague , shouted at me saying, now, you are coming? Your hand is fucked but I will try to save it, and fear filled my whole body and made it shaking, and I thought, you are just a chicken, where is your courage, but human nature is basically hypocrite, that is what makes them human…idiots. Anyway, he made me swear to never come back to soccer playing, otherwise he rather cuts it off now then later, he didn’t want to waste his time. And so I did, and gave up myself to the unconscious for the operation to be executed. A day later I woke up in my hospital bed with no pain, to start this journey for the sake of my health to regain. Few weeks later, one nurse was a bit too much on me, always asking me to move my fingers to make sure that I feel my arm as much as I could, she was just concerned and doing her job, but my stupid mind decided otherwise, for you don’t have to tell me things twice, I am not stupid, I can remember everything, I am a grown up…can’t you see. And I have decided to tease her, and let her see, the man I was. The day after, she passed by as usual and set beside me to check on my arm and asked me to move my fingers, and I only moved the middle one, she turned her head and left ashamed, she never asked me anything again, as I am remembering this action and this person, I make use of this moment to apologise sincerely for this bad joke. Conservatism and culture kill a lot of fun in humans, they are always living with an invisible stick that makes their inner stink than sick, two many rules in store replacing the REAL metaphor, to be part of a system, a society, to FIT and eat their SHIT, bonne appetit, I just got out, be aware of what I am talking about, please! I was eleven years young, another idiotic human idea to force you to feel old as soon as you are born! By the way, I was selected with another player as best players of the town, but I never wanted to join the club despite the insistence of the French trainer, and that was the end of my soccer career, I just became a “wisdom sucker”, a little different but the talent is still there, in the sound vibration, the fragrance within the word, the 3rd dimension you need to catch to commune with my WORLD, the “L” you need to identify to remove the LIE. A piece of CAKE most would say, and they find the lie but they fall again, they celebrate and they eat the CAKE they shit later so I laugh, I get my PRESENT, the WHOLE PEACE! No wonder the world is full of shit, all nations are UNITED in the INTEREST that feeds the FLOCK with more cake, so that they can shit more, SHIT my omen said, Humans are really loving idiots, they are circling endlessly between eating and shit-ing without seeing a shit, they missed the essential PEACE of the WHOLE CAKE! For GOD’ s sake they claim, we had to do it…in their pants, they are naught but ANTS, they work their ass off to store and store and store and have some more, then die…where is the metaphor…I better be the opposite, I prefer to always SING and make my four seasons a continuous SPRING, I just be and accept what life will bring, there will be always enough…it is a BIRTH RIGHT, so be, to be bright and deserve your birth right. DON’ t be an ant…chant, chant, chant like me, I am an ass whole… a CICADA, ASTA LA VISTA! Any way, sorry, I forgot all about you, my story was a bit long and I really wanted to impress the girl and keep her around the maximum I could, I was enjoying the female company, it does really make sense when we say the female is our missing half, I felt more complete and she was laughing like hell…her echoes felt rather like heaven in my deep Well, strange words we use, always CON-fusing depending from where you look at them, every word can mean the opposite just buy the way it is said, no wonder the Human’s mental is fucked, how can there be TRUST, can you ask a computer to think, surely not so you are FUCKED cause you can’t learn the dance, but at least I am trying. So here I am dancing like an ass, for the first time on the dance floor, but the DJ saved me from this pleasant torture by putting my favourite slow piece of music, and Marvin GAYE started me ON with his magic voice, but he did not stop there, he openly said “LET’ s GET IT ON baby”, and I thought don’t tell me he’s gay, he is Marvin the great! And I understood he was just trying to help me out, he just answered my call, it was so loud in my mind, I was just trying hard to get it on, and welcomed the offered body to hold, to which so much stories still to be told, and I just let everything go, ready for the show, I did not need to know… once you know you’re out, but I want to get in, the SIN they say, but as I told you I can be IDIOT but not SUPID, so I listen to the CUPID that is WHOLE, the ASS that speaks the voice of the SOLE way to become WHOLE. Are you “still” following? Come on, this is the way to the highway, follow me, I mean fly with me, that is what I mean by 3D writing, you are invited to enter the scene, dive and STAND under what I mean, get a full shower and get clean, this shit is really GOoD! And I just grabbed the body softly, the rush is inside only, the outside was peaceful and serene, but my bamboo bottom was as hard as a branch of a tree ready to blow the whistle but my omen was hanging on there to pacify his temper, and so he did, what would I do without my omens. I really enjoyed so much these three slow numbers in a raw, the omen must have drugged the DJ, omens do these things, they can be tricky and very helpful sometimes, easy to deal with them, keep being sincere, a “peace” of cake. This dance lasted forever, and my hands behaved outwardly, but inwardly they have visited every corner of her temple, a million times, but real life soon woke me up from my dream and forced me to leave the heavens with grace on Barry-white’s disco rhythm, names are also funny, this guy is as black as a Tunisian olive, humans…they swim in contradiction. Let me ask you a question, and please answer it honestly, suppose you are a mind this time, and in your program you have a clear visualization of what WHITE is, then you are in front of a BLACK man you are forced to call him white, what would that be, CON-fusing no? And where does it land, that is why we are full of shit. Come on it is obvious, you have to adjust all the time, you can adjust but it needs more effort, two more programming instructions has to be added then “in-bedded”, you become its lover and one million things like this related to simple human’ s idiocies will create a long, long list of programming, the mind is inevitably affected but he can handle anything, I call him the powerful Smith, the Matrix’s enemy, this movie is great, so much spirituality in it, but most will only enjoy the tricks and miss what may BE the Matrix, (and the omen whispered, don’t forget they are idiots, so give them this hint ( May- trix )), you just have to be comprehensive and stop being arrogant and apprehensive, ok, please, please, please.
Back on the table with Jasmine, and a heavy weight friend joined, but who cares she was really funny and nice, so we drunk the night with laughter until dawn and had to split ways till the afternoon for a visit in my studio. And my mind was insane planning all kind of things, I had to give up for certain beliefs and I have bought a bag of 500g of amends, in Tunisia they say it is an excellent aphrodisiac, good for endurance. We both rested and the door knocked softly, she showed up in her very best look and I was wondering what would she think of me by daytime as an open book and in a sober moment, I hadn’t a hair growing on my upper-lip garden, despite my constant daily watering buy my thoughts, strange are humans, once young they are dying to grow older and once old they long for youth, the same goes with wisdom and knowledge that evolve in opposite directions, in youth knowledge is far too busy to know and experience life as it enfolds and wisdom is struggling to breath to let us feel its fragrance’s huge heritage born with us. And so I was afraid of looking too childish. But as soon as she entered I was possessed, no more time to waste on my stupid program errors, serious matters are going down, my blood pressure was rising and the 100g of amends started moving in my blood stream, so my horses started getting warmed up and I was only waiting for an open window to jump through, into my dream, into her vast domain, the wondrous lands of peace with their moon-like mountain hills, their secret garden and their endless walking pathways. As of now I rather tighten the screws and get closer, her eyes were inviting and seemed invading but what could I do, I was already in the skies and wouldn’t help destroying that moment for anything in the world, I need not to make any silly mistake, I heard a lot about the aggressiveness of Arabs in France, I did not identify with such things, I haven’t started, yet I am judged because of my birth label, but my birth right says the opposite! Anyway, I told her very funny Tunisian stories and enjoyed the laughs and our hands started their own friendship story, separately, my mind was thinking of something, my eyes were looking at something, my mouth was saying something and my hands were deepening their relationship, the only true happening. In no time the mouth got tired of telling nonsense, and my eyes dared to look straight in the naked flashing mirrors, what a beautiful thing, I just realise it now, you see, I wish you could, are you having a boy / girlfriend in the neighbourhood, try with me, once you let the present live, you discover new stuff. Nothing can beat the present, and at this moment I am watching my “self “ in her eyes and she is watching her “self” in my eyes, a deeper meeting has happened already, it is like our souls have swapped through our eyes, what a moment, I have missed it a million times, I never thought of it this deep, who knows there will be always a next time. I knock on wood but still no answer, “still” is thus my answer, omens have this kind of 3D language, you need awareness to get this stuff, so many under our nose but we miss it all, and I can be “STILL” as a desert snake, not a ZOO snake, the human silly” miss take”, the FAKE, “STILLNESS” is found in the desert, where the dunes of sand move against time, the one we count in our clock, the dead lock, only nature forces can move against time, without any disturbance, the winds have stories you can’t possibly hear in a hellish feverish city, hopefully nature is still alive, what is left of it to help us cope with our clock’ s fate, to slow it down, but we can’t run forever, time will win, we set it down and we will therefore DROWN, I am just drawing the picture for you to be aware of the true & magic life’s messages expressed through the forces of nature. I am just doing that. Sorry my friend, I am afraid I am going to let you down here, cause I am about to leave for a deeper trip, and I have no camera in my tiny bamboo flute. But don’t worry I will just keep you posted with what is happening on the ring. Well, the presentations were joyful and the cheers were overwhelming, from my little toe to my fragile thin hair, every piece of me was called up, what a support, they have all praised this meeting and waiting for the battle to start…with NO REFEREE, these matters are above human laws and Human doctrines & dogmas. And the first round was announced, I was knocked out on the door step, but the flute surprised with the flood kept trying to whistle while pushing, and as I said, I have no camera on, so I don’t know exactly what happened inside the ring, but I just had to keep going, and was standing on my feet again on the second count in nothing of time, amends are really powerful I thought; and the second round finished within ten minutes, Jasmine was very happy about it, she said not bad for a first time but I said hey, don’t push your luck, I am far from being knocked out, you better keep up with my bamboo flute, bamboos are magic, they are the fastest growing species on earth, they can reach four meters a day I think, and she said, hey my grounds are not that deep you better hold your bamboo horses, so I calmed her down by adding saying, the four meters are for very young bamboos only, for an old guy like me it is just four inches, relax, you are very lucky though, you did not meet me ten years ago in my prime time! And she laughed and she laughed and the rounds were rolling while amends were fuelling my batteries. The sun rose again, and the six round sent me forth for a long rest, the sleep deepened, and we fell asleep into each other. By the way, later on the same day, I started pissing blood, I was worried but it did not last for long, I had also a terrible head ache for two days, so please forget this amends thing, it can be dangerous, it was only youth ignorance. Now let me rest again a little, how about you? Join me, sit nicely and stay still, think about living in the present, there is only present, the present is now relaxation, breath deeply, breath deeper… very slowly, with your belly INCREASE, feel the diaphragm stretching, hold your breath three counts, and release very slowly, the belly is going in and the diaphragm back in place, do this at least as much rounds as I have done in my story, six rounds breathing are far easier than sex rounds aren’t they? Try to hold your breath longer if you can, while keeping enough breath to release it smoothly and very slowly, Life or pure energy ( prana ), is between the breaths, the less you breath, the longer you live, when you become more aware you will be amazed with the meaning of life, it is an ongoing “paradox”!
Meditate and win every debate, the mental stops,
the nuisance ceases to be, silence settles,
truth talks and nonsense walks!
Let’s start this relaxation session, now listen to these coming words with eyes closed… are you ready? Ok let’s go…
Do your breathing to “live” a little more,
Every session a bit little more,
Take it as a simple metaphor…
And explore,…explore…
Let me know…
Life is now…
This very moment…
Nothing but this moment…
Nothing will cross my mind,
Nothing is happening now,
this happening is the only thing to live,
something is slipping into my mind,
I just watch it pass,
Just a disturbance,
A benign one,
The mind is a dear friend,
Just a program error,
Human idiocy…
Don’t entertain,
Just let go,
Let it be a peaceful passing cloud,
The silence will be sound…
As I said nothing is happening,
This is my only happening,
Nothingness…,
Only silence…,
My body is still, but a bit heavy,
It is also my dear friend,
I ask him to be…
Silence is required…
I push him softy…lovingly
Not too hard…
I am not this body,
I am not these legs,
I am not this belly,
I don’t ware tags,
I am not this mask,
My soul is the task,
Body is a loving temporary home,
A very sweet home…
To be…well fed…
Meat will make it mad…
Life-less IS its daily bread…
But I need not to have it with me now…
On my way …
To my true home…the eternal…
All body activities are slowing down,
Getting deeper down…
I feel no thing…
The mind put asleep,
No more orders,
Everything is IN order,
I feel lighter and lighter,
Silence is deepening,
Deepening,
Deepening,
Deepening
I am diving into my nature,
“still”… very still …still diving…
I reach my river…
I let go completely…
Only nothingness…
The river knows her way…
The ocean is so near…
The silence is dying…
into a greater one…
It dissipates…
I am in the ocean…
Bliss is all over…
There is only IS-ness…
Enjoy…
The Gods are “STILL”… watching…
Welcome back my friend, how are you now, participate, I can hear you, I am with you, just think of me as your soul mate, I need no face, no name but full of grace, be idiot, that is GOoD but not stupid, just call me, give me the name you like, I will be with you telepathically, it is a fact not an act, believe it, better be & live it, here I am, where were we? I have to select only few events otherwise no editor will edit this book, it would be far too long, especially the way I write, two lines from me and ten from the inspiration, wisdom is taking too much space, but this one seems to possess an outstanding grace, but I need not to push my luck, I must master to get unstuck and speak more about my life’s nonsense, people love that, whether it reminds them theirs whether it stretches the dying wings of their dreams, too much of sleep in a boring daily life, laughs are rare, time is so square, they omitted the garden, time is greatly missing the essence but not the television, the material telepathic vision, where am I going here? Getting lost, thank you, I get back to my story.
While spending with this Swedish girl my first twenty four hours togetherness of my life, she explained to me that relations are very simple and very free, it could be an hour , a day, a month, a year or a life experience, time and feelings decide. And I said wao, this is quite astonishing for a Muslim young boy, but it felt right and cheerful, because my mind started already thinking about new exciting unions, and I said to myself, I just opened my eyes to this new world, why would I close them on the first one I meet, I am not going to cage myself, a bird does not belong to a cage, even if he has not known living in the wild, a chance is worth being given, instincts are there and still alive, nothing comes near the least of the tiniest hair of the feeling of a total freedom, but humans always mistaken compassion and touch grounds that are completely out of their reach, what can I say, humans are loving idiots, I love every single one of them very deeply, but can they deal with such free love, they have to find a “reason” behind the “no reason”, that is mind’s philosophy, are you still, with me, GOoD, and so they can’t contain it, they say are you “all” right, I say, are you nuts, and they say, what? And I say, do you see more than one in front of you, and they say oh yes I see, and I say I am the right ONE, all in ONE peace-full being, the friend of all beings ,
a bird belongs to the sky, a fish to the sea, an animal to the land,
a root to the earth and the fruits to all! One God, one law…
don’t push your brain into this domain…
it is for brainless like me, I only know how to be….
Bow…bow…bow…down, so that you can see…
allow your ass hole to become WHOLE!
My western friends are always saying, we are very open minded, I say that is ok but not GOoD enough, so they ask me why and I answer, you are hypocrites, your opening is about your asses that you let your silly mind control through its hole, but the true opening is UP in your third eye that speaks a 3D language to your ass to make it WHOLE. And they say I am a lunatic, and I love that for I am JUST & thus GODLY, always following his steps, I speak the language of the MOON to be LUNATIC every full moon, that of the SUN to be all FUN, that of MARCH to get me eternally ON-going, that of JUPITER to be always there for every one who care about being, that of VENUS to learn the alchemy of the anus, that of NEPTUNE to make my whole being sound perfectly in tune, that of the EARTH to take a shit-y re-birth where every act becomes a RE-ACT in which BOREDOM starts then sprouts then grows then shows then make us dance on the toes on the rhythm of his steps, he comes and goes, in & out, the love story of duality.
This is a true revelation, but who would listen, I am just another madman, the first resistance comes always with a question, for the SHOCK is too big to handle, and they dive straight into any opposite question you can’t answer, to just unveil their inner ignorance, EGO hates that, never likes someone who knows more, so he mirrors it in his very dear IDIOTIC way, I do not Mind, I do the Soul, so I take the high way, and the question would “be”, but not them! ( Get that, it is a “be” for you to catch and store), otherwise there will be no question, so the question IS but he IS not, and they burst saying: but animals eat other KIND of animals and so is life for us, they are for us to eat, and the omen whispered, tell them to copy the wrong process right, by at least being KIND, a being is eating another being to survive. How can there BE any chance of REALIZATION of one “SELF”? But my answer is simple, the question is very IDIOTIC in itself, they are comparing themselves to animals to justify their ignorance, while the animal is the one trying to learn from us, his life is in our hands, for we are higher beings and should be aware of our doings without imposing a “chaos” to nature! My understanding is this, and put it in a frame…not on your wall down the hall, in five days you will never look at it anymore, you will never hear its call, just heed it in a golden frame inside your heart, the very empty part of you…sleeping, the one that is only peeping…
“ the more we progress toward a higher & more intimate relationship with nature, the more progress in animals is felt, they are following our steps not the other way around, that is called regression! We came from there and we enjoy now conscience intelligence, we can direct the course of life on earth, that is a HUGE responsibility, whatever behaviour the animal shows, it is naught but a reflection of our own energy, they are not responsible for what happens to them, WE ARE! “ , “Tar ZEN”...“Tar ZEN”...!
Animals eat each-other to survive, because we are doing just the same,
killing them & each-other to survive, a birth right, a simple task!
A very difficult piece to digest, so make peace first, you will digest later…
To be turned into being or into what you do best and con-sume at ease…shit…
My first book explains at large the scientific facts demonstrating this daring idea, the energy conservation is an undisputable and inevitable physical law, it shows itself in everything we do, even in the least of our actions, for example if you remember a happy moment you become happy, the energy of the thought is thus a true active energy and by being bound to be under the law of conservation, as it is liberated it can only be transformed to the resulting energy expressing a reflection of what you have created in your thought, and so you feel happy, very simple, no? But as I said humans are great loving idiots, they will create endless systems to help them cope with their miseries while the source is just in them, free of charge and starts with a simple purification of the thought. But I don’t want to play the devil’s advocate, I am against no thing, I let them be and they let me be. I just chose to use my “conscience intelligence” to fill the responsibility, of being the protector of all beings, only then, I can be deserving the honours of the PROMOTION to the human world.
The real one must be very far from mother earth, and may be not even on our planet system,
If you count the HUMANS in the sense I just explained, they would represent something around 0.000001% or one over a hundred million people! That is why, I see humans on earth as rather “conscience-animals” no more than that, they are not able to do more than what the animal is doing. Every time I ask someone this question: What is your ultimate objective in life? Most answers are around being happy and raising a family in a nice house with abundance of food. But they don’t realize that this is the least of achievements, and if it is so, than they did not need a mind that thinks and can produce “conscience intelligence”, for this kind of goal is automatically fulfilled by the most insignificant animal on this planet and in a much, much, better way, with no sweat. In this case, conscious is a hindrance, and many will come back to animal life in their next lives, the ones that have committed suicide for example, for they have failed to deal with the presence of conscience!
I am sorry, I couldn’t help it, the inspiration is a very tough thing to deal with, when it starts singing you can’t stop it, for its emotion’ s fragrance inside feels like a fresh sprouting “marijuana leave”, who would resist that, only a fool…Ok, let us move on to another Swedish experience, days were passing by and so were girls, small, big, nice, bitch, anything that moved on my way and fell in the net of my charms, I said to myself, I have to taste of “all there is”, to make a better decision if I ever consider getting married. I could not imagine the success I have achieved in this field as a boy of eighteen looking like a fifteen or less, I loved the Swedish mentality, they didn’t bother with height and super looks and all of that, they were just looking for a laugh, the one that takes them to visit their missing corners to balance the miseries of day-to-day empty life. Any way, a month has passed, and a beauty called June Netzeen happened to be on my way, her name just popped up, and her being shined in the deepest darkness of the night as a bright full moon, and something above the usual happened and so she asked me to stay with her if I was interested in her, and added that she was watching me secretly for a while because I was changing girls as I was changing socks, never more than two nights! But I answered, I was just learning from your society, girls themselves guided me on this delicious practice. And so it was, things were nice and beautiful between us and love was growing and my money started showing its first big appearance, a ceremony had to be held, my blood got almost shed, pressure rose but kept its lovely face and fragrance of a rose, and I was a bit panicking, I had no bank account and I found my hands filled with so much money at once, and I remembered the first day I arrived when the watch rung in my wrist waking up in a very stiff fist, holding the bundle of money, but now I have it and facing where to hide it without loosing it or being robbed.
The mind goes really nuts when money comes into play, he uses to think only GOoD about these people and this city, and the moment I had money in my hands he didn’t hesitate to turn his vest and started behaving like a rat, but what could I do, I was young and inexperienced and especially afraid of rats, so I have hidden the money in the safest place , under my bamboo flute, rats never adventure there, big snakes are living under the bamboos, wisdom from the tropics where I was living for seven years, I built a unique place I call my larger body and a friend goddess calls it my temple, so the national TV crew had a missing screw in one of their programs and chose the place, than me to present as ONE, as Tarzan, the one to one with nature, after my enlightenment it became Tar Zen, the Popeye of ZEN well being, but we will get to all that later, if we ever get there. Anyway, I managed to get home safely and started to figure out where to store all this money, and suddenly I thought, let me enjoy it first, a dream came true, it is simply pure “alchemy”, who would ever thought a guy like me, a thief and a water-melon vendor would be having this kind of high life with the riches and the bitches, but I missed the beaches, the beautiful Tunisian beaches ,when the night hits the obedient graceful sun, my friends and I use to prepare some of our food stock for a late night snack, the water-melon is thrown in the sea to get a sweeter vibration in his flesh and our daily, or rather nightly favourite game would be about to start. Evenings on the beaches in Tunisia are unique in the whole world, during my time at least, people gathered around the “canoon” filled with charcoal to travel through the night gossiping while drinking mint tea with peanuts. The best part is when they remove their sandals before sitting to enjoy the love story between their feet and the fine sands. Ah, so much a grain of sand can tell about this adventure with the feet, in a vocabulary that is far beyond the ordinary, I can’t tell you for I have to get transformed to a grain of sand and you wouldn’t under STAND to get showered with diamond would you? The worst part, we come silently from the back to” spirit” away one piece of the sandals. The laughs start at the end of the night, in the mean time, we lay down on the sand recalling our success of the day while praising the beauty of the stars that are in fact an eye accomplice of our daily game, but we made a spiritual commitment with the stars: we would never keep the people in panic for more than a couple of minutes, so that they could also rejoice a bit and finally get their attention for a moment, as everybody knows, no one remembers God while everything is rolling, and so it was, midnight hits the clock and few groups got the shock, you could see them turning around looking for the missing “peace”, they couldn’t think of an act of theft because only ONE is missing, and that was un-intentionally the “spirit” we took away from them for this game, to drag them to re-member God for a moment and at the same time to honour the stars with a bit of gratitude for watching over them by not letting us endure their unpleasant moment. The scene is really beautiful, here and there people were moving around asking the providence with two arms UP about their bad luck, and so we approached them carefully being 20 feet away, security in this kind of action is a wise move, and then we through back the sandals and run like lightning. Ah, I am landing back in my room in Sweden, the money was spread all over the bed, and I couldn’t miss the chance to feel it so close on my body, I new it is just my destiny, a love affair with money has just started. The thing is, exciting life IS about nothing else than “ how many love affairs you experience ”, with anything that answers your call coming from the bottom of your guts, and not from the amount of money you can possess with short cuts, to buy more houses and more women and more divorces and more marriages. I do believe we all live similar lives in terms of emotions, no matter how rich and how poor we are, because the drive is always the same, you fix an objective, you enjoy the jump of its obstacles to reach it, you suffer the ones that needed several trials following the falls, then you hit the top to live its BREEF sublime moment and you can only go down, you need to create another hill to climb, would you keep doing the same hill again & again, that can be of fun but one day you get bored of it, so you come to the change and these circles continue forever, every circle you can break it down to a love affair, there is naught but that, from a silly job venture to a great sex AD-venture, you are in the same big circle, you can’t get out. Your only chance is your SOUL’ s DANCE, the 3D DANCE, 3D hearing, 3D speaking, 3D eating,3D touching,3D seeing, all these five senses have no more meaning at all, they become NONSENSE but to form the ONE 3D SIX sense!
Everything one can buy, except love, even a fake one, like the one I am talking about with my new beauty queen. The reason is simple, most do not have a clue of what LOVE is, but that is another whole story in itself. You can sing it on top of your voice in a song, or immortalize it in a picture or in a poem, drink to death your hopelessness or even kill yourself over it, but that is not love in my understanding, sorry to drop this bomb now, but what can I do, I am just a key-board, the key is whispering and I am complying, without it I get bored like hell, and will write more nonsense, the world is full of it. Even as I am now, at this moment, at a Zen state, no more desire for anything, I can’t be filled with what material can give any more, pain still sneaks in from time to time as if to remind me that there is a higher step, it is a hammer, pure energy uses to awaken more of it within me, I haven’t yet used 3% of its holiness, humans what a mess, so I am even feeling pain from my own being for I am too much living in being-ness, it sounds far too crazy but that is what it is and how it is, cause the I IS …”STILL” there, it needs to move OUT, for it is the very last OBSTACLE to the expansion of my pool within, the one I was talking about in the beginning of this book, the one “that makes me universal” but it is wrong to say so, for me is still there where in truth it is no longer there, no more…in stead I should have said: “that makes THE universal”! So now that I hope you understand perfectly what is going on, I offer you the answer on this most valuable topic in the history of mankind, unfortunately is “still” CON-fusing…its fragrance is still imprisoned within!
Here it is, through which the universe “LIVE” …to you I give…
The mystery of LOVE,
A little essay for most, a treaty for me…I get the treat…most cheat…& turn it to shit!
Is any BODY can be…truly in love?
If so, what is love?
I have just noticed that I have never been in love CONSCIOUSLY…
So I had to write about it, now that I am even more ignorant…
The illogical or the negation…
The first step toward knowing is not knowing,
The first experience of loving is not loving,
This step is far too easy, too obvious, too vast , too far-reaching,
I get lost in such huge domain,
I rather look for who is loving,
But I am stuck again,
I still don’t know what is loving,
which is a good step to get me closer to knowing what is loving,
but I still did not experience what is not loving,
so this good step is just an illusion, a short cut,
my mind’s creation,
I have to stay focused,
Where was I,
Oh seeking who is loving,
Back on track,
The first step is seeking who is not loving,
This is great, so great that it is found in every human being,
I am the first step of not loving,
I lived it for too long, 45 years,
It is all over me, I can feel it , I can smell it,
I can almost touch it,
This is good, very GOoD,
It is in me,
hey I can take a bigger step to know what it is,
how could I feel what IS, in somebody else,
it is simply impossible, only IN possible,
humanity is in the dark for centuries,
no wonder we are seeking something we don’t even know what it is,
we only know its dead representation, just the word,
we use and easily get board,
we are totally confused with its meaning,
we can only define it by relating it to something else or someone else,
this process is not right,
LOVE IS NOT RELASHIONSHIP,
Love is existence,
Relationships die,
Existence doesn’t, and so is love,
Love is a continuous process,
Love is like our heart beat, you can’t stop it,
It is just so,
Whether you exist in this body whether you don’t,
There is no on & off,
Only ONE choice is possible,
For it is a part of ONENESS,
Part of GOD, so GOD is love,
Unfortunately over used for ages as a dead word, it has never been more really,
Except for a Jesus, a Mohammed, a Krishna or a Buddha,
But who can possibly understand them,
When the knower dies, the knowing goes along with it,
We only have some knowledge left, the dead corpse of knowing,
So we are still stuck, but if we look in ourselves we still have a chance,
We only need to commune with that knowledge,
Not merely reciting it by heart, that is a mutation of its death,
From the paper to the heart, which makes it even worse,
It can make you a priest but not a “knower”,
A knower meditates on the words with neither goals, nor expectations,
It doesn’t matter if you understand the language or not,
It is the word’s vibration to catch,
SILENCE is the ultimate and SOUND is its SWEETEST AWAKENING,
Experience picks the suitable frequencies,
Not what your mind or what any other mind makes of it,
The true sense transcends language, it is the ONE, only IN-visible,
The SIX sense, the fragrance to catch, the “essence” of existence,
Some people keep saying that they had GOD in them some time in their lives
Than they lost it, this is pure NONSENSE,
It is only possible unconsciously,
Animals have it in them all the time,
But we are killing millions everyday,
So a part of God is gone,
Humans are big STUPID idiots,
They think they represent GOD,
It is the worst image of GOD,
Look what people do under his name,
We see only shame,
Human GOD is a KILLING MACHINE,
Exterminating the bigger part of GOD on earth,
The purest part of GOD is in the most IN-significant plant,
You discover it and your being will chant,
You commune with a part of God,
A blade of grass will do,
But it is hard to explain God with these weak words,
That is why I am trying to give them a 3D feel to be more REAL,
God presence is more in the plants and animals,
In the winds and the sun rays,
In all the expression of nature that we torture,
But I am addressing humans right
So why humans have human rights,
It is sufficient just “to be”… human
Rights can only “be” if asked from a higher authority,
How can a human “be” higher than a human,
and practice some rights, only by being,
now who are making the laws, stupid idiotic minds,
they make it and violate it,
they make children and fuck them later,
for luck of a piece of ass,
so what do we get?
A big mess, we loose the thread, no more direction,
We are in a labyrinth system, an AM-BUSH style,
We start reconstructing again to struggle to come back to the same point where we left off,
Then we praise the accomplishment as a process of progress! Pure nonsense.
Humans don’ t even know who they are or what they are, anymore,
Human means conscience,
And are simply conscious animals,
And GOD is CONSCIOUSNESS, so is CONSCIOUS LOVE !
That is what GOD is, Conscious love,
The in-visible path to consciousness,
This is as far as words can get,
More is fallacy,
Experience is “THE” KEY,
SILENCE is its voice,
The mind through intellect is its BROKEN LAG,
GOD is then all yours,
But don’t forget, she can’t bare a TAG,
Otherwise you get it all UP yours,
Love is its ultimate course…
Dive in, and swim forever in its boundless ocean,
The unconscious “minute feeling” you experience while making love,
Is just a tear of the boundless ocean,
But this same “tear” is capable of “tear-in” you …apart,
How about an ocean of it,
That will completely blow your “MIND” away,
The fatal spiritual BLAST that makes you an EVERLAST…being,
This is the two step away from the greatest thing that can happen to a human,
you enter the world of EGOLESSNESS,
you merge with the cosmos,
The last thing you know you become nothingness,
Nothingness is fullness,
you become a BUDDHA, a Jesus,…
The ultimate!
But this is still the work of my mind,
My dearest cheater,
He loves the illusion that moves my imagination,
But he can’t win this time,
And I will not make him a loser neither,
I let him be, so he lets me be, then I wait and see,
That is the whole game of life,
I AM AWARE of his moves,
I just surf with him while watching him , observing him,
Lovingly, I can not do it otherwise,
Cause I simply love him the way I explained above,
I can’t stop this LOVE,
All what is left to do is more meditation
For more conscious love,
My stream within will become a river,
A river will always find the ocean,
it doesn’t need to be shown the way,
by that time, awareness will be meaningless, MIND-less,
then love crystallizes and explodes in the ocean,
now forget what I said and keep your mind away from this,
don’t kill the “life” of this moment that slipped in you,
just be aware …of its fragrance…I didn’t say expect!
That will make you re-act, a mechanical act, a machine ,
I want you to ACT..
Read my first book and practice,
You will discover The FACT…
It simply works nicely…
Please do it wisely…
The God’s are “STILL”…watching…
Anyway, my love-making with money while rolling on my bed couldn’t last more than one round, how true this thing is, but we all fall for it all the time, money has no feelings, just a tremendous drive for power, once reached, every feeling is greatly pacified then fades away, no eternal‘s fragrance, no soul, then we change the goal…That was my first love story with June Netzeen, nothing to add but a little funny experience before proceeding back to France. During my first week staying, I went to the sauna, but every body was naked, I am not used to this, I use to peep for just a taste of an upper leg! Hopefully I could have a towel with me, while walking through the hall of the saunas, my bamboo was already standing to at-tension, I managed to cover it with my towel and walked back to the toilets to finish him off to avoid humiliation, what can I do, bamboos get easily stiff then break in cold countries, under 30° , is cold, I can manage stiffness but breaking would make me renounce my hole life at that age. The departure date approached, and my tribute to the city as a whole started, so much life was passing by, and so much beer was standing by…every Saturday & Sunday mornings, the streets were full of cans and bottles, but it was just a routine to remind us its beauty, and Swedish people got that right, they never miss restoring it with a little more beauty, if you happen to be there early enough, but my drum was beating and my mattress had to undergo the removal of the stitching, my money was all the way safe and warm, now ready for the storm, paybacks and filling in for the student fees given cheques. Paris was also a great city of a different charm, but amazingly busy and for me I saw no harm, just things were not so easy. After a couple of months, I had a steady job but not a girlfriend, no one was ever calling, French girls were neither font of my easy going kindness nor my funny stories. I was really bugged, I felt like a WOLF landing with a community of DOGs, they must have felt that I had a GANG! The possibility is there but the task is very delicate. And I thought, if they can’t appreciate the deep down kindness of a wolf gang, let me learn how to be a dog, a GOD, just a matter of looks. Strange, a two hours flight and you are facing a complete different kind of fight. But one should always live in the present, the easy way was the past, I turn the page and learn the hard way so that I master the two ways and become a smart ass, I mean a sage, a MOZART. And so I learnt their way, stopped giving too much of true smiling faces and loving warm hand shakes, it has mostly given me “heart-breaks”. Anyway, I am a fast learner, they always thought I was faking it, with too easy giving, faking was taken as fucking. Things just took completely another turn after meeting a very up-to-date Tunisian friend named Jellel, I salute here, this smart ass fell for money illusions and ended up living against his will, he lost his freedom, he followed the saying related to his name, “ a noble name in an empty stable…a shame” among his family in Tunisia. He spoke fluent English and was often going to this special “bar 10” in Odeon, Paris centre. All foreigners favourite place except for Arabs, as dogs, Arabs were not allowed, a big inconvenience, but as I always believed, just disregard the prejudgments and the nuisance will disappear bringing the label with it. They fuck Arabs, so I love them and fuck them deeper. Love can always get you out of any HOLE you might think off, just “BE” to be able to think “3D”, the LIE will DIE the word becomes a WORLD and the hole becomes WHOLE, you are FREE to move and to groove. I was not looking that much Arab anyway, I have more of an Italian look and my friend was a familiar customer, he always passed for a French. A Human is an idiot in the face of the sun facing a beautiful shore how about in front of a door! Anyway, things were rolling and my eyes started strolling, luck was often there and sex blossomed everywhere. A year has passed and a good job was found, a night man during weekends in a three stars hotel. I was really bewildered for I loved socialising with people, I am a natural for it, the inconvenience was that I went to the university half asleep every Monday morning. But my schooling was just fine, just camping in the middle, as I am always after the middle, a comfortable place to be,
Please listen to this carefully:
Life’s secret,
Breeds in opposites,
Life’s wisdom,
Sleeps in the middle point,
Life swings,
Love pull the strings,
Passion gets in,
Blood pressure flows in,
Temperature rises,
Some rejoice the moment,
Some fight it,
Joy meets pain,
Lesson ‘s refrain,
Music enters the scene,
Classic versus Rap,
The game is set,
Life’s basic bet,
You loose some,
You win some,
The bell rings,
Wisdom observe things,
The minds think,
The hearts produce the ink,
To be is the ONE link,
So fly or sink,
There is only choice,
From the only two,
The ONE twin,
To Be is the way,
The middle is the high way,
Stay there and be aware,
The GODS are “STIL” …watching…
So many things to tell and to say and the race of my life’s events doesn’t tire on my way. Here is one discriminated, fighting back very hard with some fun, he is claiming to be a GOoD part and had no choice for he is running for his life, his wife is chasing him with a gun. It is amazing how fast one can change and draw this incredible energy under these circumstances, themselves can’t understand it, because they are not aware of what kind of power is sleeping in the pool of every fool, a desert powerful snake is coiled and sitting in tranquillity around the bamboo flute, that is why I hide my money there, that is my wisdom. But if this snake is disturbed, its “de-coiling” action strikes your body like a lightning and you could lift mountains at that very moment, many people experience this, a gun can tease the snake a little, Meditation can make him stand UP, but unless you are ready with the right CUP to contain him and taste what is universal, you will die or go astray for ever… But at the moment my compassion has opened its door to this deserving event that fought his life back courageously. Here it is, I was eight:
Summers of my youth were far too exciting filled with various actions, risk was there and life was aware but I was not. Playing soccer on the beach was our daily joy, so practical, the body is always in the verge of loosing adherence, surfing between the peaks of the hot sun and the coolness of the mother sea. And as I said, my mother would never hurt me, I just jumped in the sea no matter how hot my body was! On this beach, so many things happen every night, very jazzy all the time, a night in Tunisia…, but I only told the GOoD part of the story that spoke about the stars and the holy sands. But in the depths of the nights, other creatures come to play for the stars and the sands alone, they avoid spectators, it is forbidden by the law of God transcribed also on the social one. So wine can’t be enjoyed freely in front of others, you might offend them, but under the skies and the stars while experiencing love with the magic of the sands, you can drink to death with the divine. So bottles are hidden under the sands that are uncovered little by little with the soft winds of early mornings. But not all of them, some stay asleep to serve the karma and make somebody who offends it weep. I loved very early mornings strolling up and down the beach picking up my share of fortune my father wasted in cards and women games. The sands were a true source of “in-come”, some I was aware of and consumed it in a cinema and some I was not aware of and were sheer delight I am sharing with you at this very moment. There are treasures in whatever we do, stop doing and many will show up! Life’s paradox, can’t you just do the box, a mail box, a triangular one, cornered by your Body, Mind and Spirit in which you move within until you step on its center of gravity, to loose your gravity and fly…I am gone again, please allow me, I have to fly…follow me…no, fly with me I mean…you are not a subject…you are a master…you just need to enter the higher world…the world of subjectivity…
The desert bath & the ultimate path…
Diamond is at hand…
Even in a golden grain of sand…
Give it all your attention…
A 100% tension…
The desert snake will wake up…
In your being it will land…
I wish you under stand…
Bathe with diamond…
You will just hear a ”plough” in the pond…
Life will enter your E-motions…
Your natural devotion…
Moves once more in circles…
Whirl & whirl…
Consciously this time…
As an ever lasting beautiful girl…
Can you make it rhyme…
I hope so…
End of the show…
The Gods are “STILL”… watching…
Then I was playing the soccer game on the golden sands containing crystallised love in broken bottles, I couldn’t avoid such a gift, so I stepped on it accidentally but somehow gladly, laughing has been always my natural action and let my self immediately drift. My emotions were flickering, wavering, life was fainting before my eyes, a significant shift is felt, my hottest love was over flowing from my blood spring, the sand drunk its thirst and thanked me dearly for my compassion, I was his close friend, I just relieved him from a thorn of ignorance, nobody’s fault really, love has to teach us a lesson his own way, I obey, accept and pay and move on till a next lesson, the next summer…Fun of stealing grew up and took another turn, right at a corner of a street I was waiting for the water melon truck, a daily routine, when it slows down I hop on and pick up one, throw it to a loving stretching hand and get off at the next turn, but that day I slipped while hopping on, and my for head fought the steel bumper, again my love spring started to sing vigorously, and I thought, I have so much love that I had to exert it this way every summer! Yes I was the summer love boy, my wounds in ecstasy couldn’t hold their mouth shut, they were laughing at the stitches, you can’t beat love under the sun naturally, there was no “con air” around, the heat was reaching my heart beat, I couldn’t cheat. But the wheel of life goes on and so the game, I am a natural, nothing could stop me from living my life my own way, what is the matter with all these people around, under the name of love they just wanted me to sit still and keep quite, they couldn’t understand what was going on, they are not young like me filled with a boiling life, a volcano I had inside of me, what is their problem I am the one paying the bill, now tell me who is really ill? And I started a fencing game with my elder brother and the corner of the open window I scorned every day took his revenge, my wound was so happy, its lips were astray, what a feeling, I wished I could be the wound, but I wasn’t, and I thought well, another one down, but this time my eye was saved by a distance of a feather, so I thanked the distance and gave my self up to suffer, and here I am in the arms of my poor father on the police station’s desk. No place in any free hospital, so “phone’ s compassion” came into play and talked with just the right temper through the policeman’s voice and found me a free place in a women’s hospital, sharing a double bad with an old lady. I was finally relieved from my family’s worries, thank god they were suffering more than me, I needed more fun and more happy faces but the compassion people usually have is naught but a CON PASSION, with all respect.
A new visitor came to me, so I said politely: hi who are you, I never met you before and it answered: hi, you seem to be a very, very pleasant guy to meet, my friends told me, sorry I am the queen of INFECTIONS, so I offered my usual warm welcome and said: make your self at home you are in GOoD hands here, you can be the way you want to be, no one will scorn you here, I am the master and you are my friend. And so it loved me so much, every inch of my body was speaking its name and springing its loving yellow juice to the point that my hair chose to take a vacation for a while and offered its fertile valley for a new vegetation. So I showered yellow love with yellow love every day till infection started to take leave happily, it gave me all and was drying out, so my showers turned to red for I wanted to show her how much I am thankful for its divine visit, she was the QUEEN of all, not one single area of my body was discriminated and I said that is true love. And my presence was highly appreciated with my never ending funny stories while playing cards. I was very GOoD at it, I said to my very poor father: don’t bother to bring me anything, you can hardly feed my brother and sisters, so please I am fine here, I am simply over fed, the cards that took all from you in former times are giving it back to me these days, I won all, the fruits, the cakes etc…but every woman was happy and especially the one next to me, just one day before I leave, as soon as the morning has broken, there she was, with an eternal smile on her face, I talked to her but couldn’t get through to her, and I said, this woman must have been so happy that she couldn’t stand living after I am gone! So I thanked her deeply for her appreciation and showered her with few tear drops of love and called the nurse, that was the end of this summer curse, since then I have never had a major sickness or accident.
But I never gave up the beach, the very next summer was a great celebration, I was just a star. In my little town, there was a cinema freak who wanted to make a movie, so he invited all the kids of the town on the beach for a selection of the main role. And as usual, the omen was there and said hey, it is not about how many are in the race but how determine and confident you are to show your full grace on that little face. And I run the test as a winner to end up the best. The first part started in the mountains and soon enough scenes off town in the south of Tunisia were planned and my father didn’t want to hear about me going elsewhere, so my actor’s career ended right there, but who knows, another might be waiting, if it is in my genes the universe will give it to me sooner or later the omen has said. You don’t expect, you get the respect of what was planned for you within your soul. Just play the fool, play, play with life as it comes, embrace all, GOoD as bad, but stay cool…
PART TWO: MY MIND
The confirmation of personality and the friction with society,
From nineteen to thirty eight,
Life ‘s jungle,
The MIND is boiling,
The horses are hungry,
The body hunkers for the extreme,
Ways are open,
Experience expands,
The scars deepen,
The tree suffers,
Branches are cut,
Doubts are building up
in a small hut,
Doors are closed,
Refuge darkens,
Depression on the verge,
Music pacifies,
Order restored,
Madness talks,
Doubt walks,
New beginning is born,
Life blows again the horn…
The Gods are “STILL”…watching…
What is it with humans, most never know what they really want, they are merely dogs raised in a confined system that they are bound to follow its steps. Everything is built around this main idea to fit in the system, everything stinks the fragrance of the system, it is reminding me the stinking communist Russia, but it is still the same, just a different face with much more grace, to your body kingdom! But you can’t get out, while “FREEDOM” is praised in every national anthem, and again the same confusion rises in this extremely important powerful word, yes, like in the word “LOVE”, freedom is highly misunderstood.
One has to meditate on this dead representation of such a noble word, this way, or rather highway, one might get to its core and catch some deeper meaning, politicians are the voices of the empty drum, just nuisance leading the system to deeper ignorance…But I love them and would do anything to help them, in my own way, the ONE way, the sleeping one, common to all. My golden rule is, I let them be so they let me be…I hope, OSHO was chased from the loving FREE AMERICA, the false freedom, today we celebrate the DEATH of the FIRST AMENDMENT of their CON-stitution, I call “THE MENTAL INSTITUTION”, it became a plane OPEN PROSTITUTION, GUANTANAMO is an open challenge to the world of FREEDOM but who gives a shit, HUMAN RIGHTS WITH NO RIGHTS, money talks and freedom walks, that is the currency everyone listens to, it makes the higher policy, Survival of the fittest & might is right,
With us you are stronger, against us you are dead !
Without us you are weak and ignored,
within dependence you are better fed !
so be a cow we will show you how… to live our way…
All the emerging countries are falling for this cheap model like sheep, to join the flock that supported the Iraq war, the true faces of the countries in the world are uncovered, the only ETHIC left of man is the GREEN DOLLAR talking with economics, we no longer can use a word as integrity today, from west to east, except French, Germany & Russia as a block, saved a little of their faces but still dropped their pants finally and signed the last resolution with some under the table CON-sessions we will never know, but we know before hand that they are more idiots then the others because they have a power with no balls, so we have the new slogan on the USA green card that became: “take off your pants and join the ants”, they recruit cheap cheep to play the powerful American ruling the world, I tell you, people are less than animals, the situation is alarming, they would do anything to ensure a well fed family. No more ethics, no more dignity, no more GOD, only FEAR! America is the hard working force in today’s world, everyone should join, to ensure a daily three meals DEAL and keep your mouth shut, they know what you want and that IS what you want! But I love them deeply, yes I do, because I respect the determination, the strong belief in what they are doing, they have the will power, the guts to OVER RULE the highest rule, just like the Jews, I should say the Israelis, and it works, they even have invented a new way in self defence strategy accepted by the whole world, I honour it with a clearer definition:
SELF DEFENCE OFF FENCE is “JUST” OFFENCE !
The magic merge that makes you a natural winner,
Mr AM-BUSH saw the prophecy in there, his own reflection,
Now he is the messiah of it, and his message was heard,
Even though it is grossly absurd,
For the common sense became the common interest,
Watch it happening, the real test…
The” west-bank wall” is the symbol of the SHAME in today’s world,
Yes, the world is going crazy, and we are sleeping, sleeping, sleeping …while the true power is in our hands, it’ s real, it’ s there and alive, mountains can be lifted with no sweat, just a retune inside, the ANGER in your PRIDE will incarnate the PEACE as your new BRIDE, yes citizens of the world, the power is within us first, only then it becomes operational, it becomes with us! But with no arms, as soon as you put an arm in your hands or in your thoughts you loose all your power, because you become a STUPID IDIOT again, like the ones you are fighting, but they are true brothers, your ties are far stronger than blood, pure spirit my friend, God’s magic sperm, I am bathing in it and it feels above all your worldly illusions, and its law defies all your laws, FEAR chose to move out where it has life, but who would listen to a mad man in a world of IDIOTS, that is the problem with idiots, neither the wise nor the mad can get to them, I give it up, only the father can get to you, please speak to your father…Don’t be afraid to be fucked…it is worth it, I am telling you, this is true religiosity which has absolutely nothing to do with religions, you do not need to throw your anger in the universe through individuals or a creed, just sit still, connect with the ONE, and give it all up to him, all the shit that is bugging your mind, do not withhold one single thing, and since you are face to face, set your accounts honestly, speak the language you want, fuck being polite, courteous, and all the nonsense that goes along with it, it is men’s fabrication pussy talk, enjoy for once in your life, freedom in its biggest dimension, EMBRACE the 3D LIMITLESS VISION and empty your bag completely in emptiness, and make sure to do it again and again, for that traitor mind of yours might withhold something somewhere, he is a Hitler in your daily life but just a coward asshole pussy in God’s kingdom, because he was conditioned like that, with your social & religious education systems, he is just a stupid computer program, nothing more, so yes, say everything you have in your guts, all of it, and spare us your fuck-n pussy moaning in your everyday’ s life, you are a scum, a burden to the universe, that is why you get the curse, so inverse, inverse, that is his message to you, your complains are just adding negative energy to the universe, so TAKE YOUR ONE CHANCE & SHOW US A BETTER DANCE, I love you my dear son of a bitch, I love you, I love you, A message from the greatest father, GOD is nothingness, you can’t touch him with your words, he can’t hear a shit, he only picks your inner vibration, the true thing, your feelings only, that is why, he is all loving, if he could here our NONSENSE STUPID WORDS he would have already regretted to ever have made such a stupid ROBOT called the HUMAN! So go for it, if he can’t take it who can? So give it all up and set us free including your self…GOoD luck, set an appointment and JUST DO IT…get unstuck!
When RELIGIOSITY gets a TAG, it turns to a SLEEPING BAG!
You need not more sleep, on the contrary, talking about contrary, the Jews have used it cleverly and bravely during their “Hitlerian” persecution, they are using the martyr image until today in movies and in any other media system to cover up for their daily Hitlerian actions! Hitler did only one thing right, the transformation of a stupid non educated Hitler to a very highly sophisticated intelligent HITLER, I call today the JEW. To understand this parallel you have to dig well in simple logic, threatened by extermination their best chance to survive was hidden in the very depth of the proud EGO, the best you can be inner-world, and religion was of great help to the Jews to get to the bottom of their EGO, as contradictory as it might seem, EGO needs strong faith, and the Jewish scriptures gave them that faith, they are GOD’s FAVOURITES , the supreme creed!
And that is how they made it, as I said before and keep saying, Humans are loving idiots, no matter how determine they are, they can never be one, and Hitler was betrayed from inside daily, just because Jews were SMART people, very inventive, very skilful, and specially very tough inside, they could contain their anger and swallow their pride, they were successful business men, and business means money, money means the highest prophecy of human idiots, and that is how they could get through this dark episode. I have a lot of admiration for these people, my best friend is a polish JEW living in France as a Frenchman, I wonder what is the origin of the mystery behind the Jewish names ending by man, how about KINDMAN!
If they let this name vibrate in their deepest guts, the world will never stop praising them, because if you track them down, something you can’t do, it is just a matter of speaking, you will find out that they are present wherever there is money & power as a couple, because once fear gets hold of your guts you can’t get rid of it, even when you live alone on a lost island, they behave like a mother protecting her new born children from the various predators. Their intelligence is all over the world, and their passports are completely fake, they live their identity in their hearts, THAT IS POWERFUL, I bow to this oneness! I invite you to have a look into the Nobel Price’s records, you would be struck by the number of Jewish names, they own nearly half of the cake, so they deserve half of the world, no wonder nobody dares to oppose their misdoings courageously, they would be cutting their own branches, yes they became a deep rooted tree all over the world, with millions of branches, their blood is running all over the place, its heart beat is in the USA but its main stream is in Israel. But EGO can’t lead forever, it always run into SELF-DESTRUCTION, its inevitable fate, faith has to move on because it has a third eye, once awake it tends to start moving slowly but surely, betraying the faith openly is a very serious fallacy, faith unite people, fallacy separates them, economics and peace are its voice. It is a pity that these great people continue choosing the path of self-destruction, they read history but no one catches the higher lesson, EGO blinds people, they forgot Arabs were there before, other creeds also like Mongolians, but Arabs represent the best example, the enemy brother, in blood and in faith, Arabs were masters of the world once, look at them now, the tail, the dummies, they even make it so clear so that you can’t miss them, riches has to be shown, so that it can be used, they only misuse it, so they had to tell you I am a dummy just come and get it, without touching their pride, in the words they hide, but on their heads a big invitation to their idiotic riches, it simply says we are double zeros, and thus you could read on their white cloth around their heads, but I love them deeply also, they are my closer brothers by creed, the same Arab seed, I am amazed how dummy they can be, the C.I.A plots the plan and they cheer and become the idiot fan, they let them believe their kingdom is threatened by a crazy neighbour USA have put in place, and they take the pill, and they open their holy land to the enemies of Allah as it is clearly said in the Koran, the “KOFFAR”, but they close their doors in the face of the sincere Muslim to be on the promised land, they make it very difficult for them, and this story continues with all the Zeros of the gulf area, When Muslims speak with the voice of an empty Drum, you don’t have to do anything to weaken their voice, they take care of it themselves, to make sure that it doesn’t sound further than their own room, for all Arabs have agreed on one single holy thing, TO NEVER BE IN AGREEMENT!, I have always wondered how such a tiny country like Israel, surrounded by a far greater number of Arabs, could play the policeman, Arabs did not have to use arms, they can just fill Israel with Arabs, they will end up killing their own people! So Arabs are nowadays just survivors, a creed that is governed by cowards in the hands of the C.I.A, they only care about the survival of their kingdoms, Arabs of the southern part are poorer and play the good disciple of the European Mafia, trying to follow their steps before being matured, so that Europe can always fill in their falls, that is the main stream of the big project of GLOBALISATION, that can’t be objective, people are different in so many ways, it is IMPOSSIBLE, they are just hiding their true motives, a handful countries plotting openly to EXPLOIT legally all the rest, by way of ECONOMIC POWER securing DEPENDANCE, in other words: SLAVERY!, it reminds me my faraway meeting with my banker, the universe took his place these days under God’s supervision, why would I use such a lower idiot who always try to CON-vince me that he is working for me, in a partnership adventure in witch I am the LOOSER in case it doesn’t work, that is what powerful countries do, Wisdom always speaks on a different level, help people grow in their own way of living, change needs adaptation, it doesn’t happen overnight, history tells you about it, France has known its revolution, Tunisia didn’t, yet they are trying to live on France foot steps, it is not possible, people are not ready for it and the mess is there, my Tunisia of the seventies is no longer there, people are more and more materialistic to the bone, television is powerful and they are watching themselves playing the fool, again help is a full hand stretching to the needy with a face looking the other way to save him the shame, and not with a straight look in the eye and two hands waiting for the return! I feel so GOoD, now that I said all this publicly, but let me make one statement straight:
Any political system in place, is the very best system a country can afford
in these very circumstances!
The problem is not the president and his party, it is the flock that are not ready
for any better system. In Tunisia for example, people are not able to practice a simple law,
how can we talk about democracy while the mass itself is fully corrupted in the mind,
democracy has to be earned, you can’t just PHOTOCOPY IT,
when the flock is ready the change will be there,
(we will watch the world’s headache in Iraq reconstruction,
they have no idea of what KIND of ghetto they put themselves in,
Idiotic political miscalculations, force can’t install democracy,
It is a process, a transformation, a life value, not a two year pill,
the system put into place will be always ill,
The only positive thing in Iraq war is: the removal of a dictator,
USA made, from TOP to BOTTOM, until the day he disobeyed them…)
If Tunisians complain about their president in the dark, and the day they go to vote
in the open light they write his name, then they don’t even deserve the fragrance
of democracy, its presence is in itself a waste, people are afraid in the open,
so I say this, let us say the election day there is only one name on the list,
so why these idiots bother to go to vote at all, unless they want to reassure him
of their support, so don’t complain like a rat afterward, you want him, you get him,
now this is the way, my highway,
if all don’t go to vote, he is still the president, no CON-tender anyway,
where is the fear, he is not going to chase all the people who didn’t vote
to inflict to them some repressive measures. He simply won’t do that,
it can’t serve him, rather on the contrary.
So unless you lift up your pants and express yourself,
You accept the shit you have chosen and you shut your beak!
May Allah be with all Tunisians, they need him with all this Mafia around,
Suggesting false help, the open market will kill all the small craft industry
and all in-laws among the other production forces, we will all see flourishing
multinationals, SUPERMARKT, SUPERNONSENSE…
where most of the products are unhealthy !
Most Arabs think the same, but these poor guys they can’t speak their pain, FREEDOM OF SPEECH is not a package of their birth right. Well I hope these lines can be of a consolation to them, earlier times Arab world had a guy with guts like the Great Khalil Gibran, but now, they are lost in catching up with western nonsense, even the music became so western!
The Media is the MEDIUM to make the maximum of disciples, it is today’ s PROPHECY’ s VOICE! Anyway, the wheel has to continue its eternal turning, it will never stop, it is only that now the turning is far too dangerous, nuclear power can fall in the hands of any foolish frustrated man, you can’t stop a man willing to die! I say again we are at the peak of the usual turning movement of the wheel, the population is getting far too heavy for it, but the wheel can’t stop, it has to overcome this heaviness, we have been preparing these fatal moment for ages, the nuclear power is overwhelming to do the job, and the BUSH-BOTTON is an extremely simple act, you don’t have to face the happenings, it is a coward act, we lived it in a smaller scale in Hiroshima, it is an act of a GREAT IDIOT! Let us choose the other way to reduce the speed of this wheel of destiny, we possess a choice, transcending the politicians, FUCK the politicians, they will become GODLIKE, yes because your sperm is now holy, that of a son of GOD! I know people will call me all names, and throw on me all kind of blame to protect their CON-ception of their GOD, I am not blaspheming any religion & any cult, I love them, I grew up with them, they are fields of flowers, its honey is all over me, it just crystallized, I am one with its fragrance not with its ignorance, I was given a FREEDOM like any one else and I am using it to see GOD my own way, my highway, it is so great, so awesome, that is freedom, but who can handle it, to do so, you need to embrace it, to live it, to under stand TOLERANCE, to shower with it and end UP… bathing in it, you enjoy the melting of your crystallization, GOD’ s sperm, GOD’ s LOVE…it makes you give up the cheap sexuality, the fake sexuality of the body, all religions made of it their leading battle to bring humanity to GOD, they just have turned them all to hypocrites, more dangerous idiots, I still want to fuck…spiritually, so that they can feel GOD’ s love! The love that doesn’t neither shy nor die, it is the present, God’s PRESENT to you…Yes, citizens of the world, let us change the course of things by just being…awareness is the ticket to higher transformation, NON-VIOLENCE is its ship, CONSCIOUS LOVE is its friend, GOD needs your friend-ship! We can, just follow your inner plan, we don’t need really big spaces for meetings to show our separation from our sleeping brothers, no we don’t, at least I don’t, Bush, Blair & Sharon are my brothers, I don’t want to declare my SELF against them, just BOYCOT their ECONOMY, learn again hunger, face difficulties with courage, only pussies around, you are merely beggars, minds of beggars are worse than slaves, slaves had no choice, you have brains, you put in your basket, in your car, in your clothes, in your electronics, in your stupid empty life, that is what you are, a silly empty drum trying to tell the world you exist, a mosquito is more courageous, it knows you are going to kill it, but it comes back to suck you dirty blood, so be human idiots but with some DIGNITY, starvation is far better than dignity renunciation, you loose your soul, only what is left of you is a HOLE with an ass that can’t even accept your PARTNERSHIP, so here you are a hole with no ass, completely lost, a JUNKY that is DRUNK, you deserve to live in a dump! All the same, from the engineer to the street sweeper, every body became a pussy “weeper”, this experience might lead to the best feeling you ever had, hardship may lead to great realizations, remember, there is always a sun behind the thickest cloud, be in touch and I will show you the highway, all as Gods in formation to conquer the world, while meditating, nothing to do, only to sit and meditate, that is TRUE POWER, mark my words, when economics gets stuck, they will become our slaves, I mean these great idiots leading the civilised world, the thing is:
You can make it without them, they can’t make it without you,
So who’s going to fuck whom!
What I am saying is very rational, pure mathematics!
So get on with it, slowly and smoothly but surely,
We don’t want chaos, we want understanding and respect of our choices,
They are serving us, a president is a servant of his country,
WE ARE THE COUNTRY, WAKE UP, WAKE UP, WAKE UP!
Internet today is the most powerful tool to change the world, far greater than meetings, this is
not a show off, this is about your own show within,
remember what I said, we are the IN-visibles only,
so they will join or loose the coin, they print their soul on its back!
Can you live without your soul?
Internet is our IN FORMATION, put your sincerity and all of your heart, and it will
become as GOoD as a nuclear weapon, even faster, information can reach thousands of people in a SPEED OF LIGHT, so stay cool and “still” as much as you can, you will need it,
It is your tool to reach your INNER LIGHT, we need its speed to win this peaceful battle!
Just remember how GHANDI won over the English powerful idiots, with no arms,
The soul is perfect, the natural winner over the silly intellect, a FACT!
If they are fighting no one, they end up fighting themselves, if you did not see the movie
buy it and put it on the internet for free access to your fellow poorer brothers,
I AM POSITIVE, VICTORY IS CERTAIN, I am now dropping the curtain…
But we will be in touch, just hold the clutch…
Please never engage any negative thought to anyone on earth,
The universe needs some cleaning, thought is an active energy…
Anything bothering you, while meditating, throw it on God, he loves your shit!
Never go out of LOVE, love once you have it, IS forever…
Either than that, is NONSENSE, I would never again go out of LOVE! Anyway, everything that reaches the TOP by climbing over another is BOUND to fall after reaching the peak, it is a DUAL LAW, a rational law, simple mathematics, once you are on TOP you can’t escape from experiencing the BOTTOM, to finally understand your action and take another chance to UNDER stand the “ONE power over all” and climb to the top WITH others not over them, this is the knowledge from the ONLY ONE POWER ,OVER INSTITUTIONS, straight from above, the highest prophecy:
GOD’ s INFORMATION = GODS IN FORMATION
The unbeatable formation,
We are GODLIKE,
We are only IN visible,
The invisibles,
We are fighting over nothing and no one,
We are fighting WITH no one,
We are simply observing every ONE,
Sitting within each one of us,
We are being honest with ourselves,
We are experiencing the POWER WITH every one,
We are transforming the POWER OVER others,
We see no enemy,
We only see unity,
We are SET FREE…
Let us BE…
Let it BE…
The wisdom wheel is ON…
We keep observing…
I am a Muslim born,
Finally I answer God’s horn,
I prostrate to the little Allah sitting in me…
Let peace fragrance spread again all over me…
The Gods are “STILL”… watching…
Why do I need to play the fool to be…cool… let us start this non-violent peaceful Formation at this auspicious moment and right now, nothing to do only “to be” with me and true to your SELF, are you with me?
I don’t mean me, Tar-zen,
your higher SELF is asking you,
I am just paving the road,
just a servant at your service with love,
you ought to walk on it,
you use to take drugs to reach there,
and that is ok,
but it is a temporary thing,
you can’t hang on there,
you keep falling,
unconsciously,
so you miss the calling,
your SELF keeps calling,
she is very lonely,
she is your eternal lover,
like no other,
but you take drugs to meet her,
too much is taking you further away from her,
so be moderate until you just BE…
a being that can hear…
the drop of your soul’s tear…
its echo in the silent river…
the path to the ocean of love…
it is a re-birth…
you lived it many times before…
just remember your first swim…
in your first ocean…
your mother’s womb…
water is always the source of life…
so drink from this ocean of wisdom…
it is not a brain washing…
it is a heart filling…
absolutely FREE!
Speaking of freedom…
Who can UNDER stand its porch,
They go for a Ferrari,
To seek their freedom,
They are on a racing track…
That is not freedom…
That is EGO’ s dance floor,
Puppets love that,
Stop pulling them and they die..
They can’t handle deep silence…
They get bored…
They miss the boarding lane
fronting the porch, they love being in pain
Race is horizontal,
The trace of freedom’s mental,
True FREEDOM…is grace!
It is outstanding…
your understanding
you are under standing…always…
Watch a bird flying long enough…
No trace at all,
Freedom is VERTICAL…
From north to south,
From west to east,
Any place will do,
That is freedom,
So you have to look up…
To wake up your third eye…
Freedom’s race is of a different nature,
It is nature itself,
The prophecy is crystallized love,
The higher you reach,
The bigger sucker you are,
The more love you can store,
You become God’ s STAR,
You can FUCK everybody…
Not just bodies, their inner core,
Would you like to be my BUDDY ?
That is the metaphor…
of love…to create true buddies!
Freedom IS…
Before anything, a…
Free…dom…of…
Free…thinking…
Free …speech…
Free …smoking…
Free… abortion…
Free …sex…
Just free …
The thing you want … to be, IS …
…your freedom!
Above the system…
Above the human laws…
No condition…
The chains are broken…
The path is open…
The moon is visible…
The butterfly too…
The sun is visible…
The bee too…
Also the bamboo…
BE…Aware…
Of the IN visible…
The freedom’s king…dom…
You are the ruler…
The ties are gone…
You are a bird…
Fly…Fly…Fly…
Rejoice higher life…
Be “STILL” and join…
The Gods… are “STILL” …watching…
If freedom was understood, there would be no prisons, if freedom was understood, there would be no contradiction, society is full of it, we invest on research, and then we take away the freedom to exercise it, how can society progresses, I don’t really care, I just mind my own business, I have to progress, society is just a word, I am a being, I don’t have to worry, it will follow, who’s the ruler here? Now I am just realizing my constant progress with this writing, except for my story!
Could we really live without nonsense, it is simply impossible, try it, as soon as you skip the past and the future, you run out of words very fast, you fall into silence, it is great actually, if you understand it, its story is infinite but you can’t handle, your ears can only hear nonsense, nuisance, your mouth gets unrest, your mind also, you become nervous, because you are just the puppet, you can’t rule over the mind, you only know life as your strings are pulled, other wise you feel dead, and you are damn right about it, I am dead to the body, thus to the mind, that is why I say:
I am the dead-living at the service of the living-dead !
In other words, I am already dead to the body, you can kill it as many times as you want, you can’ t touch a hair of my being, it is above your understanding, I am eternal, above death!
I can’t fear death, this is reminding me the funny discussion with some Christians, Jesus said
I will be back, and I said yes sure, it is true what he said, the soul never die and it can choose to come back but in another body, how would you recognise him, and they said from his wisdom, his behaviour, his powers to make miracles, and one said, the Vatican have the solution, they would take him to the pope and shoot him with a bullet in his heart, if he dies he is a fake! And I said, Jesus, Christians are really rude, they crucified him before and now they want to kill him in cold blood out of fear of loosing their Vatican kingdom, because that is what Jesus would do first, make them poor again and send them begging in the streets to purify their hearts from greed and nonsense power over the poor followers, all churches would become anything else except churches, God is true compassion, if you have God within you why do you need a specific place to worship him while you have the sun, the moon, the trees, the flowers, the rain, the wind, the ocean, the river, you need to be away from Humans if you are truly a seeker, be-sides, he is not outside he is IN-side by your side, and he can’t be worshiped, he can only be attained through hard-ship that turns to friend-ship and end up becoming THE SHIP, God’s ship, far greater than the ridiculous” queen Elisabeth two” ship, the ocean might swallow it one day for it is full of riches, full of EGO, full of shit! So why do you need riches if God embarks on your ship? It is for the ignorant DEAD-LIVING IDIOT I love so much, because he made me “so rich inside” with his ignorance, I am a Jesus, a Krishna, a Buddha, and this “I” is not the one that represents my worldly name, I am speaking the 3D language, that of the center and not that of the circumference, that is why I feel great compassion for the living-dead, I want him to feel the beauty inside while keeping his wealth, I got the health, what is wealth compared to health ? Just go to the expensive hospitals of the rich and see their cowardice facing their sickness, they see doctors as gods, and they expect more from them and they suffer more, and finally they preach to the God they were yelling at while being healthy, Humans are really IDIOTS!
Jesus might have come back already, you might have talked to him or read his wisdom in a book, he is not fool enough to go to the very place that betrayed his knowledge big time, a soul can’t forget, here is a beautiful story from a ZEN monk called ROYKAN given by Osho:
One night a thief entered into Ryokan's small hut. Ryokan had only one blanket which he used day and night to cover his body. That was his only possession. He was lying down but he was not asleep, so he opened his eyes and saw the thief entering. He felt great compassion for him because he knew there was nothing in the house. "If the poor fellow had informed me before, I could have begged something from the neighbours and kept it here for him to steal. But now what can I do?"
Seeing that there was nothing, that he had entered into a monk's hut, the thief started to go out. Ryokan could not resist. He gave his blanket to the thief. The thief said, "What are you doing? You are standing naked. It is a very cold night!"
He said, "Don't be worried about me. But don't go empty-handed. I have enjoyed this moment, you have made me feel like a rich man. Thieves usually enter the palaces of emperors. By your entering here my hut has also become a palace, I have also become an emperor. In my joy this is just a gift." Even the thief felt sorry for him and he said, "No, I cannot receive this gift because you don't have anything. How you are going to pass the night? It is so cold, and it is getting colder!" Ryokan said with tears in his eyes, "You remind me again and again of my poverty. If it was in my power I would have taken hold of the full moon and given it to you." When the thief left he wrote in his diary:
THE THIEF
LEFT IT BEHIND --
THE MOON AT THE WINDOW.
If you can catch that beauty in your heart, you become a Jesus!
Now that I live this abundance daily I understand Jesus compassion,
Not the written CON-passion of the greedy!
Possessions are just a hindrance to your vertical flight,
Stick to the basics, the launching platform, not the golden dorm…
Please try to enter in the Vatican late at night without permission!
So be religious, within the religion of your choice!
In the sense above, the vertical…
And my story gets lost again, everybody goes crazy about Schizophrenia, but I love it as I am living it with you at this moment, as soon as my mind gets back on the track of my story, my being takes over through inspiration to say what he has to say, it is a SPLIT of personality, but this one is non-existent, I have no more personality, I can’t manage to say much about my past any more, it is only for your sake that I am trying hard to give the nonsense I lived during my sleep, a lot of fun stuff inside but I need to find the way to silence the unleashed inspiration that did its best to forget completely about my personality, another big nonsense it said, and gave me this definition:
everything you do, that is JUST
in the understanding of your BEING is the truth in you,
the rest, that which CON-sequently can ‘t BE just, is the LIE,
called justly the PERSONALITY and incarnates the external face of your EGO,
that prefers to RE-ACT internally!
And then I was so surprised that I asked about the individuality that was bugging me, and it said this:
The INDIVIDUALITY in a human my friend, is the “ BEING ”as an ADULT
where all its “ NONSENSE” are the image of his PERSONALITY.
And I felt like I fell from the sky and promptly made a statement about my understanding and said this:
The personality don’t like to see what upsets its experience,
It wants to see what it wants to see,
The “being” sees & accepts all, without judgment!
You see, there is nothing to worry about my Schizophrenia, it is rather GOoD, but I know that some are really horrible because they take the violent personality, we need to find the violin that plays the pacifying music to this violence and not an overdose of medicine, I know it is extremely difficult, patience with pure love is very rare, psychologists and psychoanalysts has to have that, to find a better way to get to the bottom of the cause of this predominant and violent personality. May be I should move into this direction, but at the moment I am moving to Paris to share with you these various experiences as a night man in the hotel. And lucky me, yes again: lucky me, I was one of the first MAGIC CREW, in which I played often times the missing SCREW, for I was the one SOLE NIGHT MAN in the vacation PARADISE HOTEL people chose. I was simply their servitor, WHAT ELSE COULD I DO?
I was about twenty two years young, and a lot of colorful opportunities were heading my way while making money, what could be better, but I was very professional, I didn’t mean that, but now that you bring it up, yes that too, I never took the first step, it was so exciting, I had all my time and as to pay respect to my work I was equally nice to all the people, and you couldn’t tell if I was interested or not, it was so natural and sincere, and I really “took a GOoD taste” to this game and I mastered it, sometimes I do two rooms in one night, and none of them new about the other, that is why I said I was a professional in that too, but now you are laughing again and I know what you mean and I tell you yes, in that too, but that makes it three, which makes me a true professional ONE, a “three in one peace”, and so I gave it to them peacefully. One of those nights, a woman client was worried about her eighteen years young girl, she didn’t make it back to the hotel at the promised time 11PM. Two hours later there was still no sign of the young girl, she was just partying with some friends but you know how mothers are, the pressure kept building up and she started a bit panicking, she was calling me every fifteen minutes to ask if she had called, what a silly question? I would have put her through right away, but if normal people are complete idiots how about a restless woman, so I had the idea to invite her to sit with me at the reception desk so that we can talk, to keep her mind off her daughter, and so she did, half an hour later my last client checked in and I was going to sleep but she asked me to keep her company, could I refuse such a demand, of course not and I really wanted to make her laugh, and she really did, I was a tape recorder telling one story after another from Tunisia to Sweden passing by Thailand. And I told her my adventure with a Bar-girl of the famous Pataya tourist destination, without paying, I had a Thai friend with me to tell me if the girl I was with was a real girl or a boy with a female part, this place was full of them, but I liked very much the beautiful virgin islands around and the night life where many Kick boxing games were organized for a miserable price but the kids were really fighting like lions, anyway, I was attracted to this tall & slim beautiful Bar-girl, so I bought a drink and sat there to engage some conversation and unleash some of my irresistible charms, but she said that I had to pay the Bar to be released and could be with me for a while and I had to pay this much for the night, I hoped she didn’t say anything, I was enjoying her company and that was fine enough, but she was just working, so I said to myself what the heck let me try to talk to her as if she was not a prostitute and explain to her my vision of sexual relationships and see what happens, and so I spent the rest of the night talking about the subtle meanings of such a beautiful act, money would destroy every part of its beauty, especially with a guy like me, I was young, small, but handsome, you better try to do your number with old guys I said but not with me, and I asked if she ever had an orgasm, but she couldn’t tell, so I praised the act as much as I could to give her some appetite, but the time was up and the bar was closing and so my eyes, I went to sleep, the day after I came back to finish the story plus some extra jokes, while leaving I gave her my hotel card and my room number just in case, three o’clock in the morning the door was knocking, and there she was, so I was so happy and offered a nice shower for two, some biscuits and started the endless night with a body ignoring its powers, everything I was thinking off was to please her, I had to measure up with my story about such a sacred act, and she moaned and she scratched and she laughed and she came, and she came again and so I did two…times. Since that night she was knocking on my door for the last three nights I spent in that city. No one can fight the purity of an act lived in the present, made without any prejudgment! So the lady I was talking to forgot all about her missing daughter and started thinking about something else she was missing, at the age of fifty…why not, I really felt some warmth in her eyes and in her movements on the chair beside me, I was the chair, within me , that is what I was and that is how I reach my pray the same with my prayer, to reach God, I just be God…in a flower, I am the flower, in the wind, I am the wind, in an animal, I am the animal, in a human I just no longer can’t ! Something was moving in her and so I went on to chain her feelings to a more plausible experience she would love to hear, a magic moments I had with an old lady of fifty six in the same hotel, this charming lady was a high class French woman expert in putting in value her appearance, she was radiating and I fell in to her charms, she was so smart in taking steps, and did everything to invite me to start kissing her, but the hotel was a bit busy and so I asked her nicely to wait for me in her room, and after closing the door behind the last client I went to her room and she was waiting naked on the bed, the whole image I had of her was completely destroyed, I sat naked next to her and she started playing with my young body and I tried to make my move and the unexpected happened, I was shaking like a leaf, even my jaws were, she started worrying, and right away, she put her pajamas on and held me close to her heart to warm me up, what a nice feeling, she was just a mother, what a change of situation, a minute ago she was my lover, and then she went downstairs with me to the kitchen and made some tea, and trembling was gone while life goes on, since then, I never let an old woman keep the lights on, that was the shock I had, the power is in the imagination, at that moment my lady friend listening to me was laughing and so relaxed. She loved very much the motherhood part and gave me a very, very warm hug as a mother she said, and so I hugged her back, and my face was in her tender breasts, I didn’t tell you about the beauty of this American woman, she had a fresh sun tan all over and her face was shining but I could hear her body moaning for some life, so she pulled my head up a little and kissed me on my chicks with a mixed up look and hugged me again, this time her skin was on fire and she couldn’t wait to make her move and she did the thing I like most, playing around with my ears and soon enough our mouths have met and the bed was set, the bodies rejoiced and decompressed, her tears came out and deep feelings started to shout, no part left out, I gave everything I could to this spontaneous magic experience, her heart smiled with life and joy, experienced with a young boy, behind miseries there is always a deeper joy waiting, but you have to let go, to invite the show, there is always a sun behind the clouds, and the sun rose, the morning has broken and she left for her room in one “peace”. At seven AM her daughter came in, hopefully I was already out. I have learnt so much from these adventures, I new what young girls wanted, what women wanted, but I was always very puzzled about why they were accepting doing it with me while they had their boyfriends and their husbands, and ninety percent of the answers were around luck of magic within the couple, very soon things became a routine, a dead act, no life in it, just a mechanical release, then I also asked how could they face the lie and live with it and they said once you do it once, you can do it twice, and they kept saying they loved their boyfriends and their husbands, I tell you, humans are really idiots! But at that time I didn’t know myself what love was, so I couldn’t give them the great definition of love I gave to you, But I have worked out a way to minimize the maximum I can, the possibility of having a girlfriend or a wife doing that to me, here are my findings: the first thing is to be truly in love of course, secondly always focus on the pleasure of my partner and as long as possible, women have a much longer stamina, men have it outside, longer tool but with a very short life, thirdly we had to accept our weaknesses, and an adventure might happen in such a moment, and could be shared openly to avoid hypocrisy and self blame, that can do a lot of harm to the relation, fourthly to have two to three short separations a year to revive the magic of physical love by feeling emptiness, the voice of holiness, and fifthly the most important, NO jealousy allowed, trust must be complete even if a closest friend would tell the story, humans can’t be trusted, except your lover! And I lived by these rules and I got married and got divorced, happily, with some accidents I might talk about later. For now I am taking a deep breath and relax a little…you are invited too…
A day ends, another starts,
A year ends, another starts
Youth is becoming old,
Bodies are kingdoms stinking gold,
Life’s story is told,
Lessons are sold,
Hearts cry out,
Mind filled with doubt,
Feelings shout,
A balance is found,
Wisdom sprout,
Life is more sound,
Drumbeats getting loud,
Time is over,
Everything repeats…
Watch your steps…
Take the fall…
Record the call…
Until you learn it all…
Play the ball…
The Gods are “STILL”…watching…
Here I am, back, but only love stories in the sack, but too much is too much, I wish I could release this clutch, what could I tell you more about my student life, nothing exciting and that is what you are waiting for, I know you guys but I won’t disappoint you and something will pop up I just have to put the right energy into it, some might not even believe that I am doing it as I am writing it but it is true and spontaneous, no plan, no thinking, just one meditation and start hitting the keys with love, they are really alive, could you ever imagine how many books one can fill with these simple keyboard keys, it is an endless story, the mirror of the writer’s glory, this sounds GOoD, and here it is, a new story knocked on my door, let me get the door, finally something different, lucky you, well I told you already that I was very fond of traveling, and this time I had Thailand in mind, but the money was not yet there, this trip to the far east needs more than my weak hotel salary, so I just found another additional job to save some more, a goal was born and the machine is on, as always, will power never fail, and within a matter of weeks I got a job as a garbage collector in high buildings of a residential complex. I never understood this social system, so many jobs are available and so many people are just collecting government money while watching TV, I thought well, they are lucky fellows, in Tunisia you work your ass off and you are not sure of joining the two ends of the month, but riches breeds laziness, people were becoming more and more assisted, I love it, any time I need to round up my finances the job is waiting, French people wouldn’t do such a dirty job, may be it is a birth right thing, but why would I care, my plan is on schedule and that is all that counts, one day while doing my work in the basement, where all the garbage comes down directly from the apartments to the dustbin containers through a column (Glass of course couldn’t be thrown) two women came in, to throw their glass in the special container, I overheard their racist conversations about lower class Arabs, they did not think I could understand French, the usual workers were illiterates like my father, I really decided to give them a lesson and even scared them a little unconsciously by closing the door and making them my hostages until I finish what I had to say, they were very annoyed and surprised, I was preparing my master degree at one of Paris universities and doing a job the French are refusing to do, and to show them the equivalent of illiteracy to literacy, I demonstrated the cuts I had in my hands because of the glass thrown in the column. They appreciated the discussion and left with a natural smile and my day felt a much better day. Prejudgment is the carbon dioxide that sneaks in with the oxygen you breath, it is the biggest nuisance in the relationships between humans, boredom is the major cause, people are unable to mind their own business, they love to gossip about others because they are very hollow inside, the echo is loud but the meaning is a nuisance to the whole world. Humans are idiots.
GOoD morning to you, I don’t know what happened to me, I rarely watch TV, but I have a six sense you call it luck, mostly I find interesting ONE hour program to watch, I feel great doing anything leading me to a ONE, this oneness is growing and it is showing, today on TV about a complete nonsense debate around whether or not there should be a law to prevent Muslim female students from wearing a scarf on their heads, this problem expanded to a tremendous scale and was poisoning the political and religious scenes, I was really laughing like crazy, you could see the gap between the Christians and the Muslims fundamentalists, communication was simply impossible, the language was understood but no one was touching the other within to plead his cause, the sounds were just naturally forced to pass through their ears short cutting the rest of the body, a straight line, from one ear to the other, a plane nuisance, I don’t want to get into their hypocritical game but as always, the best remedy is to go straight to the source, the superficial solutions are naught but a postponing thing, two solutions are available for them, the first which is, ”ONE”, can only be GOoD, tolerance is its primary voice, so don’t bother with what the students are wearing, no attention should be given to it, look at them as souls not as bodies, souls are “cloth-less”, the problem vanishes,
it has never existed in truth. The second solution is also simple, as I explained before, one has to let people evolve their own way for the culture gap can never be filled with just a plane ticket and a student card garmented with a tang that speaks the local language, it is mush deeper than that, civilization went through long struggles ending up in a bloody revolutions to reach that state of mind and society model, enjoying democracy, but the rules show their weaknesses in their laws fearing the infiltration of racism and its in-laws, but this fear breeds bigger problems with time, for the seed once planted can only grow, it is irreversible, and here we are today with today’s TV debate, any civilized country should protect its civilization bluntly by opening its doors to everyone who chooses to live within the ethics of that specific civilization while living his culture at his home, and as a private enrichment, in a form of exchange of views with the people he can embrace within the society, the public force has to be completely off grounds, because it is the foundation of that civilization and he is not one of it. He simply can’t possibly understand it. So schools and all the rest of public institutions has to welcome only people who are willing to fit in that system, so that a natural choice will take place and only the ones who embrace that civilization will stay, those who can’t cope with it will choose to come back to where they belong and not be engaged in a fight to impose their right under the aegis of any moral organization, just an excuse to use. Let’s take a similar example, very practical and reflecting perfectly the problem we are talking about, poetically, allow me please, I love poetry, it reveals the universal and makes you an active accomplice, because it gives only some clues, you have to complete the puzzle… this one is easy…
Mohammed knocks,
Jesus opens,
a friend was standing,
smiles were shared,
few steps were taken,
“shoes off” sign appeared,
shoes dis-appeared,
smiles blossom,
dialogues start,
everybody takes part,
culture exchange,
differences are there,
all are aware,
Mohammed picks a cigarette,
A sign is shown,
The matchstick is blown,
Dinner is served,
Courteousness observed,
Laughs rejoice,
Love speaks in ONE voice,
Differences are there,
All are aware,
The game started,
The host deals the cards,
The game ends,
Mohammed kisses Jesus ,
Jesus kisses Mohammed,
Till the next meeting…
The Gods are “STILL”… watching,
A lot of nonsense fights are happening within the different societies and civilizations in the world, it is poisoning the very core of Democracy, the funny thing is, if you go and sit in a Muslim country, you don’t even have the right to preach your religion which happens to be different. But again humans are the champions of hypocrisy and falsehood, you give them a finger and they spend the rest of their lives fighting to eat your whole hand, but then, you are not less IDIOT than them, because if you give the finger while knowing you might loose your hand, means you are full of guilt, for if you look back to history, what your ancestors did to those countries, you see various exploitations etc., but it shouldn’t be your problem, doing that means you fall in the law of Karma or cause & effect, and so you pay for something you haven’t done by reviving it, so cut the shit, a law is needed to stop this nonsense political unhealthy debate. How great would it be if people had just a glance of the world of oneness, they would be able to look at themselves as an enlightened sees them, very loving idiots, wasting all their energies on what doesn’t serve them! But humans… at this moment, Allah just came into my thoughts, I take a deep breath and relax …
Allaho akbar…
Allaho akbar…
Allaho akbar…
I Stop there and rejoice the nectar…
Of this sound vibration…
I Let it enter its kingdom…
I let it propagate…
No resistance…
To reach destination…
Its own creation…
A little Allah is sitting in Me…
I bow … bow … bow …down…
I become the bow…
I feel my body bending…
Bending further…
Ready to wear the arrow…
I am the arrow…
I am the son of Allah…
The arrow is released…
I am sent forth…
In a speed of light…
I am in the indescribable..
The IN describable…
I land in the center…
I silently enter…
All prophets are there…
Mohammed is ONE…
Mohammed is ONE…
Mohammed is ONE…
Can you just BE …
To be… ONE…
The Gods are “STILL” … watching…
Are you “STILL” …
peeping…
Yesterday, Dec 11,03, I was part of a meeting with the group of Humanity’s team I rather call Humanity esteem, at “the centre recreer of Paris”. One of the participants said that he was looking for an apartment for a while and couldn’t find any, so he had the idea to rather look for one to offer to somebody else, in this case his daughter, so he did, and his apartment followed! So I added: the one sure way to not have what you want is to want it! And one of the leaders said, yes but if you want it for another you want it for your ”self”, cause the other is naught but a part of you. The rule of the game was to exchange but no “ping-pong” style, “nuance”. And thanks God for her, I didn’t take the challenge, I was a professional table tennis player! She had no chance, but I lovingly accepted to play the game without the ball. Anyway, on this paper, everything is allowed and I am dying to throw the ball back, cause you are asking to know by reading me, and I just love to play, with love, here it is: Speech has this ”mania” of possessing an excess of zeal driven by the natural “passion” sitting in human nature, and it is this quality that creates his glories & his failures. Thus, every time we express something zealously, we prove we do not have what we are expressing. But words are so cheap and inviting, and we say one more and one more…it is for free ready to deliver , prepared by the intellect that is full of defect, just an old info taken out of a stock room filled with ignorance read in books but not lived! How can a city person can find time to consider a “SELF” study, just the idea is out of reach and hardly available, 75% of the time is CON-sumed on office work and what is left is for TV and books mainly…always preparing for a better social position, “ the power is found in whom he refuses position not in the one who claims it”. And this is what civilisation imposes in every-body’s life to fit in the system, the opposite thought is for whom who loves to live in the lie. A civilised human can not possible be able to talk about depths of wisdom related to “being-ness”, while he never got out of the system, for being-ness is an experience and not an intellect effort! As this woman did, I am bound to challenge such a person and I almost asked her to share her wealth with me if I am a part of her, I am still homeless and jobless, but I just did not want to ridicule her in front of others, but face to face I would, lovingly, then she can choose to wake up or keep sleeping praising her intellect. She was just “farting” above her ass, no one can. Here is a Tunisian saying adjusted for this occasion:
The voice of the empty drum sounds like that of the one going to
the “FARTING MARKET PLACE” without his ass!
Yes, today’s world is EXACTLY of this image, all the speech specialists are of this kind, there is only the voice of the interest flooding all the vocal cords of the speaker, music is thus inevitably OUT OF TUNE. My role, at the risk of my physical body, is to help them anyway I can to retune to universality, that is why I can’t withhold anything, I have to speak my guts out, loud, SHARP and clear, my Music is that of a MOZART ‘s ASS farting FREELY. Nonetheless, how could we say such an affirmation “ the other is a part of your “self”“, it is pure cheap compassion nothing more.” WE CAN’ T SAY IT WITHOUT BEING…IT”, it belongs to the Being to say such a thing, unless we are ONE with our Being and it shows, otherwise we better observe silence and continue the learning process of how “to be”; in that case, we want NOTHING, neither for ourselves nor for another, one then can say: I AM… NOTHING …but an OBSERVER! To see that, you need to experience what IS…TO BE… NOTHING … The vicious circle is closing, my mouth also while thanking deeply the one who spoke zealously to let me speak zealously! I say it again:
I am a CON-man & TO BE is my sole plan! The title of my first book.
During this meeting I have brought three copies of this book to give it away for critics. To my surprise one of the participants had brought with him his first book to sell, so I was a bit thrilled to share my thoughts with a writer on the same subject. Thus, spontaneously, I asked to buy his book. A subtitle stroke me,” in relation to who we are”, and I thought every thing related to who I am is GOoD to read, so I offered a copy of my book and he declined spontaneously by saying: No, No, I don’t read using some help of his hands moving left and right! It was so surprising, he was like he was offended, so I said it is ok and he added: you don’t have to buy my book, and I said: it has nothing to do with you reading my book, so he hugged me and handed me back my book. By doing so, he actually has given me one more reason to buy his book, he dared to be…true to his feelings right in my face, I love to be…slapped with honesty, he was COU-rageous, which to me was, a “RAGEOUS-coup”, and I love people with honesty and rage, for they are daring people, only those has something to share, which expresses their uniqueness, that very uniqueness is the substance that has a great value I could use to continue the painting of the greatest vision of my SELF. The sweet talks are for the one who walks and end up SEEING nothing, instead of BEING nothing, so he will be coming back in another body to take another shot to continue from the point where he left off, his learning of how TO BE…This wheel never stop. But something was inviting me to write about this beautiful family man that was not ready for my knowledge. And so I took my pen and le it be…and it started to reveal the story about family man’s wisdom process and came up with this ( my pen is an uncommon one also, it writes down but never can “be” down, just the projection of the knowledge, just to help you KEEP UP with it, until you fly, I call it the 3D writing):
My dear friend you have just refused the book that would have given you some wings to access to the vertical flight, one day you might be …ready for it or for another book, it is not about bodies, it is about “REAL” BUDDIES: the souls! We are just their temporary hosts as vehicles for their actual brief VISIT on earth. Without the deep comprehension of the irrational rationally, it is very difficult for the common person to access to higher knowledge while it is very possible and sits in every human. To fly, one needs to be able to detach from the “horizontal” way of thinking. Can a human fly without a mechanical help? Definitely NO, You need to wear a flying machine or take the plane to be in the air. For that you need science which IS the point I am trying to make in my book, unveiling the simple secrets that are available for all and enough to give you access to everything and GO BEYOND SCIENCE. That is how the world works to advance, you need to be a TRAITOR, whether of your SELF whether of the knowledge that put you on the platform. Life is DISORDER in the molecules, the only way of TRANSFORMATION we call CON-fusingly “creation”. Thus one needs to understand science to go beyond it and build his OWN COSMIC PLANE for in essence WE ARE FREE, and especially of MATTER, unconditional flying, no tickets to purchase, no timetable to depend on, no precise flight direction that wears a NUMBER, WE ARE NOT A NUMBER just RE-MEMBER how to fly! Therefore, to be FREE you need to free your SELF from being a SUBJECT of everything that is attaching you to the horizontal motion and defines what we call GRAVITY of the earth. This is what I mean TRUE science that every one can understand and identify with, meaning anything relating to your BODY and all its ties with other BODIES including and especially those that are your CLOSEST BUDDIES. When you SUM all that you can appreciate the WEIGHT you NEED TO LIFT UP if you want to FLY. Let ‘s identify all the ties carefully:
Visible ties are: The BODY & the MONEY
IN-visible ties are: UNCONSCIOUS LOVE
To FLY IS TO BE… CONSCIOUSLY
detached from VISIBLE & IN-VISIBLE TIES!
The visible ties are easy to see and to deal with as soon as you develop the sincere WILL POWER that is available within your BRAINS. In TWO WORDS this would be:
The MATERIAL STAIN or The SWEET PILL or The SYSTEM’ s DEPENDENCE,
Materialized in all what is called ”CONDITION” restraining your FREE WILL!
The IN-visible ties are a sort of a MIX and thus HETERO-GENEOUS by nature, One has to break it down to unmask the mystery of its ALCHEMY, because it is one CHEMICAL COMBINATION that is leading the whole world by the BALLS, the very place where it is MIXED, The nucleus of the crystallized MATTER that represents the Chemical weapons our friend G.BUSH has spent millions of dollars to find them to justify his war and “STILL” searching for them ( between us only: they are at this very moment in his hands, but watch out, he is BOUND to apply the INTERNATIONAL LAW, GENEVA CONVENTIONS protecting the prisoners of war, you can’t treat them like animals, which he did and had the taste of a united reaction reminding him the RULES, but we have seen that he doesn’t play by them mostly, like in Guantanamo and this war trigger, but would he do it again? Would he dare to put his hands in SADDAM’ s BALLS and QUITE all his political enemies?), you can laugh your eyes off, but if this thing reaches him and he can show SPORTSMANSHIP with me, he would laugh also his eyes out, and then and only then he can SEE, what he is LOOKING FOR to get him off the HOOK, that is why I dedicated my first book to him, so that he can read the BOOK and finally see while deprived from his physical eyes, the OPENING OF HIS THIRD EYE. To see the invisible OUT-SIDE and the visible IN-SIDE. Humans are really great IDIOTS, sorry for repeating this STATEMENT because it is the one and only that comes out so clearly victorious from this WORD SURVEY I am writing, that IS in truth a WORLD SURVEY. I can’ t help it. G.BUSH thinks he is doing everything in his favour and therefore believes he works on his own SIDE, but then he is in the DARK, and can’t find a shit, it is a DUAL world, only two possibilities are at hand, and so is the SIDE, whether you are OUT or IN, he CHOSE the OUT-SIDE and found himself an OUTSIDER especially to him SELF! I wish him GOoD luck, just a Fuck to wake him UP, a spiritual I mean, I can’t be that MEAN, I LOVE HIM CONSCIOUSLY, the love that plays the ROLE of the colourless SPIRIT in the glass of wine you drink, to get away from yourself or to stimulate the nice feeling you are IN, and that is bound to come OUT later for it is a FAKE SPIRIT, just a FRIEND. You can’t keep a friend with you all the time can you? For that, you need to engage in any KIND of CONDITION, both can no longer BE…meaning FREE. When you NEED you can’t speak FREE…DOM, you speak BORE…DOM, so lighten UP stop fooling your SELF. We constantly live in contradiction or COUNTER-ADDICTION, The ALCHEMY only the THIRD EYE can make you see, the WORLD through the WORD. This is the MIX I am talking about, the MAGIC you need to TOUCH to RELEASE your CLUTCH so that you can DETACH…and FLY…FLY…FLY in the FREE…SKY…and say GOoD BUY…The thing money can’t reach, it is far too high, CAN YOU BUY CONSCIOUS LOVE with a full FREE WILL? Certainly NOT, you need to have GOD IN your POT, within you, and not OUT as a label for a SHOW OFF to Jerk OFF with true knowledge of SACRED BOOKS that are full of CONDITIONS and THUS FULL OF SHIT, please wake UP a BIT and SIT “STILL” and MEDITATE to the “REAL” to “HEAL” your “SELF” IN-SIDE this TIME, see how everything is in The RHYME, that can only BE my INNER voice, I am a simple scientific IDIOT that has decided to turn his back to society to be FUCKED by the system and then come back to it, to FUCK the whole world SPIRITUALLY, if you choose to or TOO, it is UP to you TWO…always. The alchemy I am talking about applies also to the language’s style, that is the reason why I am using a DOUBLE standard, again the MIX to bring together the TWO antagonistic forces PULLING in opposite directions. This IS the VERY CORE OF LIFE as conceived by the DIVINE PLAN, TOGETHERNESS no more MESS and especially no more MASS, TOLERANCE REJOICES and we feel ALL as ONE, all in ONE CREED, ONE MASS, “A” as IN Absolute & not from the cheap E that is worldly Energy creating the BIG MESS, the BIG BANG, that will melt all the Antarctic and NOAH’ s ARC will be proven again true, this knowledge I am RECEIVING is THE BLACK HOLE of SCIENCE, we are so CLOSE to see it happening, let us listen to the UNIVERSE and REVERSE THE CURSE, there is “STILL” time, George don’t STEAL it from all of us, anyone can help me to see this BUSH?, before he incarnates the PUSH and become the BUCH-BOTTON of the NEUTRON BOMB, I know how to DEAL with BUSHES, I was very GOoD at it, ask the BUSHES I touched and HEALED…Every one disliked the idea of having a GREAT FUN and then Being considered as an EX, but once more they attach the E to it and they get only the hole, they miss the WHOLE, the “X” movie, the magic INGREDIENT in every one and that can’t be defeated by any CON-FINE LAW, for it is the MANIFESTATION OF THE ONE LAW in a human to TRASFORM a Human or an ASS HOLE to a BEING or an ASS WHOLE! What can I say unto you more than this STARTLING truth that is keeping CIRCLING and pointing to the same thing, in this HORIZONTAL DUAL WORLD, I am STUCK with you, even in my writings cause I am BOUND to circle, it is a LOGICAL LAW of simple Mathematics, how could I FLY my writings can only BE… BY-DIMENTIONAL, words can’t have wings, I wish they had, I am doing my best, because only REAL LIVING has that extra “DIE-MENTION”, again the WORD’ s ALCHEMY: DIE first to join the MENTION than the MANSION where Jesus, Mohammed, Krishna, Buddha etc…LIVE…SO GIVE…GIVE…GIVE… UP your NONSENSE against the SEX…sense to TRANSFORM to your SIX sense, remember the worldly E that turns to “I” the” eye king the 3d” to become a BIRD!
FLY,FLY,FLY…in the SKY…Shit I am going…
I have to abandon you and this paper….BUY…this shit…
Life is too SHORT…
You need to ABORT…
From time to time…
To let the re-tune to rhyme…
It doesn’t cost you a dime…
So be…to be…a real SPORT…
And TRY some SORT…
Of Meditation…
The safest flight with no number…
To your DESTINATION…
The creation you need to RE-MEMBER…
Life is too short…
Come to the FREE court…
No LAW of that sort…
No tribunal court…
Only ONE peaceful LAW…
Running the WHOLE SHOW…
Not like in your world…
You RUN they shoot you with a GUN…
God is on board…
The limitless…
You RUN…he sends you the SUN…
To have MORE FUN…
You’re free to leave at NOON…
The sun is too HOT…
He sends you the MOON…
To tell the truth to the FOOL…
who one day came ALONG…
And coocked his own truth-less SONG…
called AM-STRONG…
Challenging the GREAT…
GOD…the ONE and only… STRONG…
No silly DEBATE…
They got it all WRONG…
IDIOT’ s FATE…
There is no AM and no I…
High in the immense SKY…
BE IS your only lullaby,
Get up & try…
Life is short…
And I am getting cool…
Need to change court…
Where to play the fool…
So the beautiful VENUS came…
And claimed my NAME…
But I was lost…
Such a gorgeous…to light my flame…
At no cost!
But I looked around…
For we are all called the same…
Only ONE name & ONE flame…
More than ONE is not quite… SOUND…
It would re-call the FAME…
Who wants to put UP with BLAME…
So I am bored again…
I need to spring…
As a REAL born again…
Not as in a Bush during Spring…
So Mars was sent forth…
And I set on the PORCH…
saw the Bushs’ s plan…
my God, what kind of a MAD MAN…
so much life & vegetation…
my EYE is full of it…
compared to their stupid creation…
theirs must be full of SHIT!
How can a “space probe” see…
It just can’t be…
Here is “biggle” sent and lost…
Who cares, something went wrong…
Back to the oldest song…
To see, you need to be!
So be…a man and come up here with me…
Life is short…
I “STILL” love to go there…
Here is Jupiter…
Saying I am a queen…
The ONE unseen…
So I said WAO I see what you mean…
Now enjoy and keep going…
Here is another showing…
Hi there I am NEPTUNE…
Wondrous MUSIC playing…
Here is wolf GANG…
There is the Beat of heaven…
We call Beet-hoven…
No wonder he became deaf…
But music never stops…
Just follows its course…
No Energy Produced to TUNE…
Neptune is the natural source…
So I under STAND…
And see all the members of the BAND…
The WOLF was directing…
The music was frightening…
So I asked the GANG…
IS it for the BIG BANG…?
And I fell in a black hole…
I woke up on earth…
Like you as an ass hole…
For a new re-birth…
A COSMOS CYCLE has ended…
Another has started…
So be-come a FAN…
To live this WHOLE divine plan…
I am again fucked…
My third eye is blocked…
Are you “still” peeping…
The Gods are “AGAIN” “still”… watching…
At this point your Mix is becoming just an “X” the GENIOUS, the E of genEous is dropped and the hetero sexual thing is STOPED, you are OVER this basic SEX energy, you enter another world of orgasms, another ladder that takes you to the round TRIP in our planet system through their REAL INTER-ACTIONS with our ENERGY CENTERS of the BODY!
Why would I think of it precisely this way, I don’t really know, I just follow the inspiration.
Scientists and philosophers have agreed that there is an inter-action between humans and the stars and planets but how this inter-action is related, I never looked for it and never came across my reading. The only thing I know is that Tibetans were very advanced in individual astrology, even more powerful then their neighbours with Feng Shui systems. Here is my point of view: Let me remind you the eternal presence of the law of duality that makes the human an eternal bridge between two systems, Body & Soul, on which he plays his role dancing between these two ends. Some get lost in the middle, the only place NOT TO BE! Only great ignorant builds his house in the middle of a bridge. Now Feng Shui say that the “CHI” ( pure energy) is of five different types which defines the five elements ( Fire, earth, metal, water and wood). Where does this energy come from? Within our universe the leading energy is that of the SUN forming what we call the solar system made of nine planets in constant movements around the SUN. However in our Body we have only SEVEN main centers that can be more or less directly INFLUENCED by these movements. So we have a natural relationship between these five elements and the solar system the same way our body relates to the soul. If the body is more of a water element his soul will be more sensitive to holy waters of the Ganges river for example. Thus seekers have to be aware of their inner solar system that is their SOUL system ( sun=soul ) and its sensitiveness to the five elements to be able to better channel their Body-Soul energies to invite the DIVINE for the explosion to happen…SEX is the first unconscious easy step common to all…I am not aware yet how the Moon affects us…its relation is “STILL”…not known to me. The one idea I could think of is after the SUNSET, the MOON takes over…nights are always cooler than the days aren’t they? And so is our behaviour IS IT NOT? I take the shot…
The LADDER of ORGASMS
The absolute choice
The” unity” in the “ mental action ”
The ultimate fusion
SUB-conscience = conscience = SUPER-conscience
Past = present = future
The MENTAL is conquered by the” conscious present ”
The MENTAL can no longer RE-ACT
The MENTAL FUNCTION CRYSTALLISES,
of all its possibilities it keeps only one,
Incarnating the DESIRE of the SOUL!
The BODY obeys & ACTS within this CHOICE
The experience of PURE JOY
The MENTAL ACTS finally as an OBSERVER
The SOUL & the MENTAL in TUNE,
The BODY is hence ENCHANTED!
Its expression becomes a universal MUSIC
The PART is connected to the WHOLE
The RE-BIRTH of ORGASM EVOLUTION
Along the seven creative ENERGY CENTRES
As base, the SEX energy centre
The GROSS energy, the earthly
The surface pleasure through the gross element, the body
The primitive external contact
The least of achievements,
The highest in material life,
The temporary and brief experience
The gate entrance to paradise…
Why stopping there…most do…
Why not exploring the higher centres
Re-cover the orgasm of the body with itself
The INNER meeting
The pleasure in meeting your inner woman / man
The choice of just being sexual
No matter what your tendency is, gay or straight…
The permanent experience
The higher IN dependence
The complete independence
The usual ugly ordinary faces disappear
No more jealousy & rape, created by frustration
From these centres I don’t know which ones I have already touched
I am not following any theory or method
I am re-covering what I have forgotten in DISORDER,
I keep telling my “self” that I only need to re-member
The ORDER of the centres experimented will be revealed to me in due course
will it be after consuming all the disorder?
As an example I quote my communions during which I lost total control of my emotions
The ( + ) & ( - ) have met within me,
The BIO-electric energy replaced my common conscience
The STATIC energy of the crown centre met the dynamic energy of the basic centre
The ALPHA met the OMEGA
The YING met the YANG
The left hemisphere met the right hemisphere of the brains
The left eye met the right eye
The re-birth of the third eye
The heart slowed down flirting with death due to excess of happiness
I have produced my own electricity
My inner flame was lit
I AM enlightened
Every single part of my body was vibrating
A solution was found
The “ X “ of the equation is unmasked
I am finally bathing in my own MATRIX
My hand writing became faceless to embrace random figures
with no sense but the new born one, taking over the common five,
the indescribable by these words, the IN describable only by my ” experience”
this state is very close to what is called “ SAMADHI “ in Indian mythologies.
The highest LOVE MAKING…
The message has reached Me & well received
These multiple forms of ORGASMS exist
My TASK is to master the process,
Meaning RE-produce them without hankering or even wanting them
To LOVE them without EXPECTATION
To be DETACHED permanently and achieve the SACRED LINK!
The permanent dichotomy…The paradox …
Logic fades away…in favour of audaciousness…
For you to experience…
Otherwise, I could only be seen as a FOOL…
Sorry , the only one thing I know for sure
Is that I AM …not… YET to be… COOL…
The path leading to God is a simple LOVE AFFAIR during which we re-member who & what is JUST & FAIR, the shortest way is rather far too simple “to be” true… MEDITATION my friend ! If I tell you that meditation is naught but an unconditional sexual experience, would you dare? Logically yes, for sex is the ultimate dynamic force in our earthly existence, the most tasty and most wanted variable in LIFE’ s EQUATION, although the result is rather MEDIOCRE, dissatisfaction, deception, envy, jalousie, abuse, misuse…in brief frustration, all these are unfortunately on our daily menu wherever you stand in the face of the sun on earth. Somehow, because this experience is meant “to be”…lived differently, we certainly drag too often a big part of “con” within the equation, the social and religious education my friend, the limited path of “ the process of creation “. Society and religion dare to create the right to practice their power over us, always hand in hand as close members of the same band playing the music of the giver and the ruler, blessed by the providence’s law and the human law. Indeed they know that you are an essential element to their survival. SEX is the only domain in which for a split second, no one can control you or interfere in any way we can imagine with your holy moment, the thing is, they know that damn well. Hence “INSTITUTIONALISING SEX” is synonym of seeking control over you, through a conditioning brain washing of your “mental power”, in other words converting your own power to their obedience, in one word NON FORCED SLAVERY.
SEX is the AWESOME & FEARSOME REBEL to the MIND
It disobeys it very frequently and they don’t like that one bit!
Hence, SEX has been for ages the “ natural enemy” of any CON-fined LAW, their favourite battlefield to reduce its REBEL WINGS the best they can to go ahead with their common POWER OVER plan. Once more remove the CON of the equation and find the true NATURAL LAW of FREE LOVE & FREE WILL, simply the FREEDOM God granted us unconditionally! The whole thing is to comprehend then under STAND its powerful wisdom to preserve its reach, and then consume it as you wish, if necessary why not in a CON-dom? One has always the choice to live with his time, it was not done for dogs!
Yes my friend, Meditation is the most adequate way
Ready to serve you lovingly and faithfully
as soon as, consciously, you “short-circuit” your CON-ditioned Mental power
the LINK to nail you to the ground and pin you down on earth
( the limited world & the “attaché-case”)
only then, the MENTAL TRANSFORMATION BEGINS
the relative “thinking energy” choose somehow “TO BE” also
and incarnates the ”energy of the OBSERVER” the eyes of the ABSOLUTE domain!
The total negation of the relative, the negation of the human,
The innermost core of humanity, pure subjectivity
You just BE…come an “ EXCEPTIONAL BIRD “
Finally at the image & resemblance of the creator.
Would you accept “TO BE”… his ACTOR ?
But let me tell you this guys
These are your” calls”
to show him what you’ve got in your balls!
And to you girls
This is your time
to tune up, not down, and show him how you can make it rhyme!
Check it out and play, play, play …with Meditation,
The SOUL’ s masturbation, shake it…but don’t worry you can’t fake it…
The result is as HARD as a ROCK…so let’s rock it…the vertical flight…
DIVINE SEXUALITY naked under your eyes…
Let us go through this seemingly simple and strange Diagram
within which is hidden all the subtle world of sexuality.
The very natural step for the BODY “to be” able to express its basic MUSIC
Is to complete its SCALE by achieving the “circle” and close the gap between B & C,
So that we have a continuous path of sound vibrations in the full scale, from C to C.
However, two possibilities are at hand.
The FIRST CHOICE or the most natural action, is to think of its “instinctive reflex”
and close the gap between B & C within the BODY itself,
no one to my knowledge have realised this FEAT!
The SECOND CHOICE or the most common re-action is to call for another BODY.
A: Let’s go through the “second choice”,
The B of body 1 is meeting with the C of body 2
Or in clearer the SEX of body 1 is meeting with the MENTAL of body 2
Meaning acceptance of body 2 without getting involved in the sexual experience
Lived only by body 1, his music scale being complete,
We can only hear the Music of body 1 plugged in body 2!
In the image of a hungry man consuming his sexual frustration in a prostitute.
In case body 2 desires to sing also,
the note B or the SEX of body 2 has to meet the note C or the Mental of body 1
So that the two music scales of the two bodies are completed,
( As a representation, we can detect the common shape of a 69 position! )
the ART of making these two bodies sing at the same time is the ART of making love,
unfortunately, this ART is difficult to master,
all lies in the TIMING which is SELF tuning dependent,
we all have a long way to go in performing this pure ACT perfectly…
to finally enjoy the higher meaning of sexuality,
this is the meditative state OSHO was talking about,
you simply commune with nature and you shout,
only by reaching this stage, you have access to higher realms of communions,
you will discard progressively sex,
for you have realized the ultimate step in a human, the “conscious sex”!
the one thing that differentiates you from animals, they do everything instinctively, thus unconsciously, hey never, ever acknowledge boredom,
the thing that is hunting man every minute of his life,
so he finds refuge in alcohol, sex, drugs, self-hypnosis with repetitive music etc…
anything that drives him into unconsciousness,
back to his animal life, the free easy going life,
away from the human in him, the regression, the failure to grow, to meet the divine in him.
Basic SEX is that harmony between the Music scales of two bodies
which begins by a sincere desire consumed mentally to end up in fire
celebrating its sweet pleasant death… and retire.
Higher sexuality is harmony between two bodies tuned up using the SAME TUNER.
Therefore, there is no harmony in bodies in which their souls are asleep,
their MUSIC is a little out of tune.
Thus we ought to get the two bodies to vibrate with the same frequency to enjoy the
beauty of the “resonance” within or the experience of the “optimal explosion”, one can
recall the explosion of a bridge under the regular march of a battalion of soldiers!
Each one of us, I hope, have closely approached this unique experience, easy to perform during the very beginning of a relation due to the sincere search of a common interest.
Life has shown us the difficulty in preserving the greatness of these magic moments.
Look at those famous birds they love to play the butterfly & the bee, too sensitive to settle.
Indeed, the heart is very sensitive and has extreme hard time to absorb all the
disturbances of daily life, he gives up often quite rapidly because of luck of understanding
of what is right and what is wrong and re-act constantly to dig his own grave,
the only solution to get out is to look elsewhere to fill the gaps…temporarily.
And no true solution can be found…Just a SHIFT!
It is the FATE of the RELATIVE life due to DEPENDENCE of another.
In order to enhance this dependence one has to knock on his own door and enter his
own world within to better understand himself, for every single problem we experience
is rooted and sprouts from within us having as its sole goal our “awakening”. So let us dive inside and check out our inner garden to re-establish our built-in balance. Music wise, the first little annoying obstacle is the change of interval length between D & E (one tone) to E & F ( a half tone) until the second obstacle occurs when our B meets the C of body 2. But first comes first and we are invited to clean up our own backyard …first. This first CHOC between E & F is sweeping a very sensitive area lying between the Throat and the Heart, which explains why we associate all problems of personal relations to a “sentimental Heart problem”. This area is in fact the “Life & Death area”.
Indeed, everything we eat goes in through the “Throat” and affects the body via the blood stream that has the “Heart” as the operational center. This CHOC is therefore a FOOD CHOC and our DIET is in fact our ticket! The most suitable is what I have explained above as a Naturian. As a representation, I say eating a KILLED BODY is uttering your own Heart’ s vibrations that make it unstable due to the intake of an external uttered energy imprisoned in the flesh of a life long oppressed body.
The more this CHOC is corrected the better we are self-tuned
the better other centers function, the Heart being their humble servant.
Indeed, the Mental area is better fed and we experience a significant shift
making us more INTELLIGENT and especially more TOLERANT, which ensures
a better atmosphere within the relation and allows new grounds to emerge offering
the capricious LOVE to renew itself everyday and keep away from the ugliness of aging.
Compatibility is within the subtle energies and all the failures we have experienced aren’t
failures in truth, they simply represent the best shot of our available choices, we had them
because we had to re-learn through them what is still escaping our understanding.
“WHO WE ARE NOT” attracts “WHO WE ARE”
a fact, otherwise how would we re-cover who we are?
Once this realisation is achieved, the individual attraction to the other noticeably weakens for we know already who we are, life’s mystery, and we long for death cause it is only the other life’s mystery. Thus nothing left but beautiful experiences to live and an excess of love to give, the faces disappear, the ATTRACTION is now UNIVERSAL in relation to the external world and INDIVIDUAL in relation to our INNER WORLD,
the ULTIMATE CYCLE of knowledge!
INNER understanding --> OUTER appreciation --> back to INNER higher understanding!
And then just CAMP there, for the OUTER becomes also IN visible
there is no longer need to seek to embrace it, only when you are invited by compassion!
And here we are in the following case:
B : let’s go through the “FIRST CHOICE”
The B of body 1 meets the C of body 1,
Which makes body 1 enchanted, completely IN dependent and SELF sufficient!
A first order sexuality, more stable, more permanent ant DETACHED from the other.
This second CHOC is rather very unusual generally referred to as TANTRIC in yoga.
The entrance GATE to an uncommon LADDER of ORGASMS, the ascension of this ladder is first CHOC quality dependant, interior body PURIFICATION to embrace the being human with a sane spirit in a sane body. The HUMAN MODEL capable of re-creating the higher sexuality at the mental level Incarnating what I call the SELF SPIRIT MASTURBATION , the KEY to the seven symphonies of a MOZARIAN ORGASM.
The human of MERIT “to be” … a MONARCH !
Let anyone RULE himself by his SELF before ruling over any other!
At this stage, words choose “to be” silent to leave way to experience silence, ”the gap”
The thing is, do you have the balls to CON firm it, time will answer you my friend…
So let me finish this ESSAY right, the other serious VISIBLE TIES are FAMILY TIES, the Indian mythologies call it the RENUNCIATION process, many left their families and children like a piece of garbage and headed to the Himalayas to find their God. But that is not the way to the HIGH way, it might be higher, but even from the peak of the mountains you “STILL” has to sit and SEEK within. So all that was NONSENSE, these people are seeking Enlightenment like a BUDDHA, but where can you find a hair of a Buddha these days, Buddha was a prince, and chose to become a BEGGER, now when people have a little enlightenment, they praise it in a BOOK in which they use their ART of LITERACY to make it SOUND by all means, adding some knowledge from here and some knowledge from there, and they hit the Jack pot, so they are NAUGHT but BUSINESS people but hopefully we have such people, they are the ones they can gather the flock and God takes it from there with some higher knowledge from real enlightened ones and every one plays his ROLE, cause after all it is just THAT and justly said by one of my Favourite business man that has created “HUMANITY’ S TEAM” that is under the umbrella of CONVERSATIONS WITH GOD. I read this book in one shot and in one day and left behind, for its originality , and so it was my spring board, now let me ask you this:
If you have the open sky why would you STAND UNDER an UMBRELLA?
Simply because you are someone who still thinks God is EVERYTHING,
Everything is LIMITED, and you feel PROTECTED, you BE-LONG there,
Until you REVERSE again your thinking and UNDER STAND this time,
that God is the same ONE under the umbrella but much, much, much BIGGER,
The UNBOUND, The LIMIT-LESS – PURE NOTHING-NESS!
The ONLY IN DEFINABLE, so stay where you are, where ever you are,
GOD is right there, and all around, except in a mouth of a HUMAN!
Any way, for the family man it is the least a very TOUGH task, because his TIES are deeply ROOTED in his COMPASSIONATE HEART and can’t AFFORD TO LOOSEN THEM. But that is OK, we need those GUYS most because they serve the SOCIETY greatly, they have a chance to TRANSFORM THEIR WIFES &CHILDREN and bring them to his level FIRST, before flying. But then they all still have to decide to go to the gate together and commune on the PLATFORM to try to fly together, then they FLY HIGHER THAN ME if they could pull it OFF and so they GO DOWN, the TIES had TO BE tuned UP to pull the WHOLE THING UP!
At this point, I became aware of the fact that I am turning this book to a journal and I say, why not, what is a biography, the journal of the past, this is even better, if it all can be of the present, but then you miss the excitements of my past, I know, Humans love to live in the past, and because of this love, I will live it again and give it to you as fresh as possible than we are both happy, ok! And as you might have understood , I am a guy of challenge, and here is one that I am thrilled to relive as I am writing it, I could feel the adrenaline mounting up to fill my cup with excitement, here I go, you stay, … with me.
One day, a friend showed up for a few days visit with a beautiful Icelandic girlfriend, and after I offered them the comfort I could afford, one of my two rooms of the sixth floor without elevator and through the side stairs, for servants only in former times, I said spontaneously where do you get such girls, and he said in Angers where I live and there is another one still single, and I said, I use to catch those who are running like crazy, one who is “STILL”, a piece of cake! Just get me to know her, and he was laughing his chicks and jaws out,( this guy had a huge lovely mouth very flexible from the Tunisian hot sun, his Icelandic girlfriend must have loved it for that, her icy mouth would rejoice meeting a warm one! ), and he continued the chase and said, you must be fool, I bet you can’t do this one, I said I take you on and decided that the bet would be two tickets to Carlos Santana concert in Paris, and so it was. Then he wanted to deepen the pin by telling me that for one whole year all the students of the dentist college have tried and no one could lay a hand on her except one while watching a movie, he got slapped. But he just gave me a great tip to defeat him, it is simply an enlightenment for me, I will reverse the process, she will be the one making the first step, I just wait and score like Johnny Rep ( Ajax football scorer). Yes I always believed in that, you have to beat your challenger in his own game, only then he let you be…a winner… with him, you both finally meet in the middle point, and that was my target, my ticket to fly with SANTANA, the other I will offer to her, another scoring point, once you are on the winning scene, you can only score, “ GET THE METAPHOR & EXPLORE”, life is a play in which you should cling to nothing, unless you are “ no-thing”, only then you experience nothingness of the oneness, you dive in the IS-ness, you are already in the centre of everything, the middle point of the WHOLE, the one hole I am leading to is nothing to this, but I just love the game, who’s to blame? No one but the ignorant that lives in SERIOUS-NESS, life slips under his nose while he is asleep, holding the sacred books of idiocies. Why do I always end up with the Human’s idiotic way of living, it must be me, I am a SUPER IDIOT, to see something, you have to get out of its domain, being…above it, when you come back to its level you become a superman in that thing, In my book I consider myself a “COSMOS IDIOT” who’s laugh is expanding constantly reaching the whole universe, and again I land again on the hole, so let’s get on with it. As we all say, luck does things right sometimes, but I don’t believe in luck, luck is NONSENSE, my view is far greater and has that of the SIX sense, and I say:
what has been lived has never existed,
what will be lived has already been lived,
the present, is your chance to live it, I call WHAT IS…
At worst, your life is ahead of you and NEVER behind you…
In short, my friend was planning already to bring her to stay for two weeks vacation before going back to Iceland, her French course in “Alliances Françaises” was coming to an end. The challenge is becoming bigger and my friend was rejoicing his sure win before hand, and so I said ok we can also stay in my room, don’t you worry, she can come along and also sleep along…with me, I have no other space but an empty space in my double bad which is in fact GOoD, it is a home made, I am very GOoD with my hands, you better don’t let them touch anything of you, I tell you, you will have a problem, but my problem was to fix everything nicer and get ready for the big fight inside me while peace is serene outside, its fragrance must penetrate every cell of my coming Queen. No longer than two weeks and she was on the scene, Holy shit I said, she IS beautiful, I understand the frustration of all the idiots who have tried, I am a Tunisian and we have a saying that I just discovered that it is worth more than any “parable” ever written,
Play the CON, and you live happily CON-siously !
Now if Mr CON can BE…an IDIOT, than I am IN consciously, remember, the middle hole!
And so I did, she was no more than my dearest sister, the second night, she just slept with a T-shirt on, and I thought if we could write the T on the bad I will be already a winner but I don’t mind to be …the shirt, and then I said to myself: hold your horses are you crazy? she has to DO the first step, I have to sing the DO, and I thought Santana would have been of a great help, and I played his music and she loved it, and me too for I loved to play her servant. And so I served her several times my heart-full made food, I took her to many places and every night, I just steel a small GAZE on her shining full-moons out of her twin light zone, whenever she wore her T-shirt before sleeping, right before my idiotic face, but just the gaze was my whole grace, I am not going to be like one of those, I am very hungry, but not a beggar. I wanted her to live what she had made others live, even though one can only get what he deserves, I am not saying she did something wrong, I was may be. But what the heck, once you are on the job you ought to be on the track. So ten days have passed and nothing has happened yet, but a lot was going on. I finally had the idea to invite her to the famous Tunisian “couscous” restaurant “ Chez Hamadi” Paris 5. This place was constantly overcrowded in rush hours but I took her to a late lunch. The candles were on, the atmosphere was just right and my time was tight, only a couple of days left, my inside flame was burning and my mind was idiotically churning: what to say and what to do to make her move toward my hidden explosive treasures, just waiting to be…lit to release all that shit. But I know excitement can drive you to say all nonsense when you are focusing on the goal, I just keep hidden in my mind the hole and reach to her WHOLE heart, then she might drop the fight then her pants and be PART, of this moving song of Santana’s CHART! This is it, I am gone, I take a deep breath, another… and let it be…said in poetry…you know me…
Lights are subdued..
Candles are on,
Flames are on fire,
Fuelled with passion’s desire,
Silence sneaks in,
The hearts retire,
A round is ended,
Another begins,
An innocent touch on the chins,
Lips stretch,
A kiss is to fetch,
Laughter took over,
The game is not,
I adjust the shot,
The mouth have failed,
Eyes have sailed,
no focus,
Now is the time,
The sun must shine,
Moons are sleeping,
Can’t wait till the night,
The ocean was right there,
Just a look in her eyes,
A deeper look,
Eyes are an open book,
I read, come and get,
I answered back,
My eyes said,
I am on a double bet,
Then her mind was set,
My face was grabbed forth,
My lips were kissed for its worth,
Everything followed
my tang was swallowed,
time just stopped,
we fell in deep silence,
the night is finally set,
once more she said,
just come and get,
and I dived in the bad,
the moons were very giving,
a lot in store,
one year of non living,
too mush of a score,
everything else met,
I won the bet!
The concert started,
Santana farted,
Life is a game,
Music is its flame,
It hit the night,
My heart filled with insight,
I am aware,
Of you peeping there,
are you “still” peeping,
I say no more…
Get the door…
The Gods are “STILL” …watching…
Ah, time out, I am gone really, so intense, what an inner dance, thanks to you, I am reinventing the wheel, reviving the dead past, not a bad deal, then I am dead too, you can’t escape it, the present is the only LIVING PRESENT, the top, then you have a NOTHING to share, it is there and not there, out of care, to the present it never existed, the only way is going into death, to revive the past, so what, I have no fear of death, I did it a thousand times, a million times, from the plant to the human body, how many faces I wore, how many bodies I tore, it is just a metaphor, nothing more, how many times I have to go through this, life is an ILLUSION.” NOTHING” IS REAL, but idiots would see it as NO THING IS REAL= EVERYTHING IS ILLUSION, they are damn right, we finally agree, life is an illusion, but that is not enough, they can’t see the REAL, meaning they can’t see NOTHING, NOTHING can only be seen with your eyes SHUT, let the heart DO the thing, you do NO thing, you just can’t, just shut your mouth and all the rest, and experience the maximum you can… NOTHINGNESS, that is GOD’ s PLAN, just be… you become his FAN! I can’t miss the light just emerged from this simple word “FAN” so much inaccessible wisdom lying behind the story I am about to cook for you, the alchemy of transformation, just be …aware…
During the hot season, fan vendors fill the third world’s streets, and you can’t draw any relation between the prices practiced among the vendors, some of them are really GOoD, they look like they are from outer space, one of them was a true cosmos idiot, laughing all the time. He gathers some junks from what the people throw and makes what he calls the magic fan out of that nonsense stuff, he never makes more than one, he thought I am not stupid to make more if one is enough, my purpose of living is to have time for my self before any other and certainly not for money, what kind of feeling money might have, none, so it can not give me what it doesn’t have, people have false feelings with the money, just the illusion, it doesn’t last, because it is a feeling produced by a projection and not a creation, this word should be completely barred from all the books on earth, NO CREATION IS POSSIBLE IN THE RELATIVE WORLD, ONLY TRANSFORMARTIONS, CAUSE THE GLOBAL ENERGY STAYS UNCHANGED, so I would rather call it a transformation, because science said, nothing is created, nothing is lost, all is CON-served, and that is what I am serving my customers, the CON they need to freshen their miserable life with, this principal I have learnt from a very nice scientific COSMOS IDIOT guy (he calls himself so) who spent his life going to schools and universities to understand at last that from all what he learnt only two principals are useful, all the rest is the nonsense of these two principals, the first is the energy CON-servation law, I am going to use for the functionality of my magic fan and the second for its life insurance to secure the eternal character of my fan. The entropy principal he calls it, and it says you can’t repair anything, repair in life is impossible, I recall him saying, the transformation is irreversible or something like that, I don’t understand this jargon but I got the meaning, life is always ahead of you if you start now, “Other-Wise” you miss the “Wise” and you are reduced to a just an “Other”…IDIOT of course, what else, there are always two choices never more, he said: that is how life is created by illusion, illusion works with the opposites, the real can’t have any opposite, but humans…can’t even understand this for thousands of years, and on the contrary they rejoice only things that have opposites, and a lot of CON-fusion is going around, you can’t possibly imagine the size, far bigger than your memory, I see spiritual people writing beautiful books, truly beautiful but they represent only moments of enlightenments, just sparks that often fade after a while, for these sparks need a continuous support they don’t receive so they leave, and these people are the champions of the highly “literate pen” praising unity and the oneness while them selves have known only the very basics of the kingdom of oneness, the one who claims to know oneness can not waste his time wanting for things, if you have conquered oneness with your SELF, you are Godlike and thus you need nothing, try to give some money to a Buddha or to a Jesus and you will get the thrill of your life, you will get naked and bow to the knowledge, a lesson you will never forget. This crazy scientific guy ended up living like that, he gave away to lovers of life all of his possessions and is spending all his time writing about some of the nonsense of his life as an identifiable decoration to pass the message, the mud allowing the lotus flower of his writings to grow, the true knowledge of oneness he is experiencing, this is powerful stuff, if you can put your mental nonsense TIRE-LESS working machine on hold for a moment, you will see how much true knowledge can sneak in, because this machine leading the human is going straight to self-destruction, a car that runs without “tires” will end up as a sitting duck, won’t it? That is why from time to time moments of enlightenments on every level, sneak in to change the used tires, and that is going on non stop, because the mind works in a very idiotic way, he is unable to slow down his horses, so I asked this scientific guy can you tell me how to slow down my mental because I am a very poor guy and can’t follow him at all with all this overdose of needless needs that overflows through television and radios, the “Medium” of the illusion, he said that this step itself is a great step to enlightenment, because I was aware of what was going on, and my question in his terminology would be, “who am I” but this is too advanced thing for me, philosophy is not my cup of tea, he said as soon as you are on the very beginning of a “real” path , the end is already drone, you can’t miss, for it belongs to the world of oneness, and there can only be ONE road, it is rather a HIGH WAY, Jesus said, I am on the high way, fly with me, but the one who reported his words, took a short cut and made it sound more of GOoD literature, but God has no literature, we have, everything that is to have, the nonsense, God IS period, to be… enlightened, but the phrase became, I am the way, follow me, and they looked DOWN and they followed for two thousand years, just a flock of sheep getting bigger and bigger following the master, the Muslims are a bit smarter, they have decided to kill some as an offering to God to beg and implore forgiveness for human insanity, no wonder it is called the “AÏD KEBIR” meaning the greatest feast for the Muslims, for this, Muslims are damn right to celebrate the greatness in the idiocy of humans, this is the only character in humans that IS …REAL to the oneness, they are all just ONE IDIOT flock. I really laughed my eyes out when this cosmic idiot told me all this, I felt it so deep, I was rolling and crawling and he said you are GOoD, you are already getting answers to your question, who am I? And I said what, and he said: you feel totally free, you laugh like a child, that is the closest image of a GOD- like man, a being. But don’t over pop up your ego, stay humble, and just enjoy every single feeling, the smallest it can be…, because it is that little “be” you ought to catch, and it is every where, in every single movement you do, whether you are watching, touching, eating, smelling or hearing, in every sense of the word and the feel, the higher the sources are, the bigger “Bes” are ( plural of “be”), on the lower level, the smallest the things are, the bigger the productions of “bes” are, the easier to catch; so start by the IN-significant blade of grass, the flower, the tree, say hello to them every morning, apologize if you step on them, ask permission when you cut a rose, the compassion of a plant is far bigger than the CON-passion of your own mother, then be more friendly to animals, let the mosquito eat from your blood, she lives on that as you live on fruits from the trees, they never refuse you, don’t they ? So show your inner compassion with these innocent beings, be the source of their nectar, they are smarter then you are, they can fly, you can not, you need a machine to do that, be close to them and they will teach you how to fly, you can’t fly because you think in your mind that you are heavier than a mosquito, but your mind is the biggest ignorant of what is in you, of what you are, GRAVITY is the mind’s fabrication, the illusion on earth, ALL BEINGS CAN FLY with no exception, but it can’t be seen by physical eyes, you need the 3rd to see the happenings in the real 3D world, it is no longer a mystery, thousands of stories by innocent children were reported, they were hanging in the ceiling watching their bodies on the operation bad, but who would believe them? We have SEVEN body layers of different constituents, they take us to seven different worlds we dream about but we most can’t re-member, depending on the level of the state of mind of the body owner, the earthly will mainly re-member the dream related to the physical body-mind and so if one put a wet cloth on your feet while sleeping you will dream about being in a river or anything that relates to water, S. FREUD has spent all his life analyzing the physical mind and could get through to a part of the explanation relating to the second body he calls the SUB-CONSCIOUS or the UN-CONSCIOUS, which is in truth the ETHERIC BODY that is more connected to true consciousness within the mind, and the dreams are more real and revealing some of the core of what would happen to the dreamer if he can relate it to his actual state of mind, that is the psychic work, further than this is FALLACY, everything written about the SUPER-CONSCIOUS or the more advanced term used by PSYCHOLOGY as “ COLLECTIVE UNCONSCIOUS is not objective. The proof is rather obvious, hitting the limit of their knowledge which is the UNCONSCIOUS, they are eager to know something they have NO ACCESS TO, you need TO BE first, something they ARE NOT, and so they call everything that is beyond, the “collective unconscious”, the missing peaces of the unconscious still untouched whish is a better word for what they mean. How can you get to a third step before knowing completely the second step? And that is how far we are from true knowledge, so starting from the third BODY which is the ASTRAL or the entrance to the THIRD DIMENTION, PURE CONSCIENCE, PURE REALITY, any DREAM of this KIND is a VISION of what is going to happen which has already happened ( this is what we call destiny: IT IS ONLY AVAILABLE FOR THE ONES WHO LIVE FULLY IN THE PRESENT WHICH IS THE VERY BEGINING OF THE THREAD’ s TAIL MOVING INTO THE FUTURE), it is not a mystery neither, for the cases are overwhelming but the drama is, people can’t relate to this kind of dreams and no matter how the persons explain that it was lived exactly as in a conscious level, they drop a stupid re-action to make them stop and let the energy explode inside the person, a very dangerous irresponsible act! As I said psychoanalysts and psychologists are still far behind and can’t help the inexplicable in their knowledge. Let me give you an example that happened to a very close friend of mine. Few weeks before the events of the September 11 that shook the world, the astral body of my friend revealed the events three times and so she didn’t know at all what was happening, she got scared like hell, can you imagine watching the towers falling in front of your eyes and people are screaming and burning alive, and you can’t do a thing! Ask one of those who were on the scene. Any way, she was affected deeply because she was a whole hearted kind of person and felt a lot of compassion towards the victims, but she couldn’t do a thing! What would the embassy do with such an info? Who is able to listen and act? And where to start? So the best action would be to save at least the person who has lived it from madness, for it is indeed a heavy STUFF, most people she talked to were STUPID IDIOTS and instead of giving her a hand while she was sinking in the moving sands, they built a sign: DEAD END, so that no one would get there and let her fight for her life alone! That is how idiots humans are when you speak the IRRATIONAL, they hide in the SCHOOL of IGNORANCE that conquered the MONOPOLE of the IDIOCIES ON EARTH. They are the champions of the EXTERNAL, the SUPER-FICIAL, The internal is NOW called THE BLACK HOLE, waiting for another BIG BANG! So my friend was accused of SCHIZOPHRENIA, but at this point “eye king the 3d” is coming into the scene to say something about it, here he is:
SCHIZOPHRENIA AS PSYCHICS SAY is a SPLIT of personality,
They forget to say that they themselves suffer from the same sickness,
There is no human on earth who is not schizophrenic,
People change their minds as they change socks , what does this means,
We are all sick, only some can control it and some can not, why is that?
Simply because when you notice the change and understand it, you can control it,
So the doctor is bound to find the way to make the patient see “who he is” clearly
So that he can be awakened and pick up the peaces to have his life back in his hands.
So from what we have heard, there is no need to dramatize this kind of sickness, it is very plausible and one should not speak about things he doesn’t understand, and rather, at all times, should pacify the one that is living an unclear and critical situation, just “be” if you can, so be silent in truth, so your heart will speak, not your beak.
So in truth, your ass hole is even more intelligent then your mind, a pure fact, listen to this: when all the parts of the body had a big fight about being the chef in handling the tasks, the ass didn’t even start the fight, the body was working and all the rest were quarreling and the mind won and was surprised that the ass hole was just laughing like crazy, the excessive stretching got the mind worried because he was afraid that it breaks and he will be handling all the shit himself, so he said to the ass: take it easy on your self, watch your limit, and the ass said: ok I stop here and we will talk later when you need me, so that we can mix business and pleasure at once, you know me my work is quite regular, and the mind was intrigued, he thought how can an ass hole talks about pleasure, it only handles shit during all its existence, and he thought he might BE…bluffing, and he got wise suddenly, that is it, if the ass can just “be” then it doesn’t see…any shit, I got it, I better BE…also cool, and elimination time came and all the shit was gathered and stocked on the main exit line, so the mind asked nicely the ass to open the door, this time, the ass laughed sarcastically outside and crazily inside, he had to make sure his lips are sealed of course, he wants to win the fight in one shot. So he stood up and said to the mind, you realize the importance of my position here, you spend all your time bossing around all other idiots to do all the tasks, you have the job of a president, you don’t even make your hands dirty, at the end of the day you send me all the shit to deal with, I had to give up all my senses to do this job, I just kept this six sense which is smell-less, see-less, everything else-less, so you ought to give up your position, or we swap jobs, which is your smartest move, but as I see the expression on your face, you don’t see any wisdom in it, no wonder you never tasted all the shit, otherwise you would have been wiser, but never MIND, or never SMART, you are just an idiot, so give up your position, I get the door, and so the mind agreed, and the ass said to the mind, from now on you shut the fuck up, I am in charge, but I still give you the supervision of the operations, but you will have to do it my way, whish is the HIGH WAY, the other parts of the body are not your subjects, they are your equal partners, everyone uses what he knows best to attain what the body needs TO BE …fully in tune with us, always light and healthy, just ONE with all of us. And the Mind’ s mind was blown so far away with this penetrating wisdom that he lost his manual of instructions and felt also light and felt very happy as a new born child again, he had to learn from scratch again but this time under the SUPER-VISION of the smartest of all, the one and only enlightened in the world of matter, the ASS! And since then, the body did not experience any sickness or any disturbance of all its functionalities, capable of long repetitive sleepless nights and very long hunger strikes, he just IS the projection of the will of the Being in charge. So tell me guys, who tells a story like that, only an ASS, and this scientific guy was a fine lucky ASS, WHOLE and complete, and then he told me about to communicate the least possible with humans if I wanted to progress in my “Who AM I ?“ search, just observe, never engage in nonsense unfruitful discussions, do not praise their cunning, they call it to “CON-verse”, it is their daily poetry, as soon as they wake up they start writing their verses, honey, where is my fucking shirt, oh why isn’t it ironed, I will be late for work and the kids start too, etc… this is just an obvious very expressive example, but the underground silent cunning is worse, they just boil inside in the mind through thoughts, why did I marry such an idiot, he is a mess, a real piece of work, and I am stuck with two “fuck-n” children with him, divorce is heavy, etc…but they smile to each other as hypocrites and life goes by in the lie, and they jump for any chance to release that blocked energy boiling inside like a volcano, I enjoyed this scene a hundred times when I was a student working as a night man in hotels, I had to fill in frequently and I made a smart move to more comprehend the wisdom that their asses were speaking, I am not a machine, I know how to listen! So I have learnt a lot of human stupidity and as a true seeker, I tell you everything, so that you can save some time in the lower idiotic level, but even when you are an enlightened you are still an IDIOT relatively to the one on a higher level, the ascension never stops, but the cosmos idiot laughs all the time, I call them the mother fuckers, because they fuck all the idiots of the lower level in a spiritual sense, and so I said why do you use such obscene words and he answered, heed this very Well: as long as you see obscenity in the words you miss the fragrance and that means that your ego is still conditioned with your nonsense values of your relative life, but for once a writer is writing for the mass and no one can deny it, go on the streets and see how kids talk, you will feel way behind, you don’t even get the meaning of their jargon, and I want to consider these people, because they are the real future of this planet and not my snobbish filthy rich loving friends, they are the minority and so they have to be ..left behind, they get their true position, they have no other choice but to accept, adjust and catch up with the mass, the streets mass! Here is what I wrote to a friend about the FAIR WAY of living:
My dearest friend ;
I hope these lines will find you in good health and wish you all the success for this new year 2003!I did my best to share with you my realizations , but I have no expectations , only observations . Get this straight THE HIGHER your EGO gets, THE FURTHER you step AWAY from the realization of who you truly are and the more you live in DENIAL Of the highest in you . It’s all UP TO YOU ! Remember this :
THE TRUTH HURTS A LOT
BUT WHEN YOU LOOK AT IT REALLY , WISDOM FILLS YOUR EMPTY POT
HAPPINESS AND SHIFT OF CONSCIOUSNESS ATTAINED IN ONE SHOT !
1- CHOOSE your way of living
2- EVALUATE how it serves you
3- ASK your self if it represents who you really are
4- CHALLENGE your standard understanding of making a living , and be-come THE ever shining STAR !
Once you were talking to me about thinking of helping the TRIBE who served you and made most of the IMAGE you display with PRIDE today as a designer ! the truth is : your plan of helping them is just a continuation of EXPLOITATION and that is what it really was , that is what it really is and that is what it will ever be in the EYES OF THE UNIVERSE !
The results of the fruits of their work is not shared FAIRLY
Try to look at it objectively
Do it ,so that you can feel the E-MOTION of what we call FAIR-NESS
Under the rules of our society which I call FAIR-LESS !
Think of it ,bathe in it ,and then you will see clearly that you were just using this fair-less sorry fair-ness rules to justify what should be called simply EXPLOITATION !
I just know that this is a very hard step for you to make , even though all I am asking is to open your heart to see it . The easiest way to see it is to imagine yourself sincerely in the skin of a Manian who knows about the truth of the outcome of his work! can you do that?
It ‘s about time that you wake up , since you are seeking a higher consciousness , WATCH OUT where you step here , it might STRIP you NAKED literally , but that feeling would be ABOVE the GREATEST feeling you ever had in your life ! ( naked in bed with your first love for the first time ! )
NAKEDNESS is our BEST IMAGE of CLEARLI-NESS , CLEAN-LINESS
FAIR-NESS or in one word TRUTHFULNESS !!!
THE FAIR-NESS OF BUSI-NESS IS IN ITS IMAGE OF CLEARLI-NESS
Every-one should know all the steps :
1-Costs of the workers
2-Overhead costs ( various )
3-Selling price
THEN YOU SHARE THE PROFITS FAIR-LY !!!
WHO DOES THAT ON THIS EARTH ?
ANYTHING DIFFERENT FROM THIS PRACTICE IS EXPLOITATION !
But there is nothing to be ashamed of !
You just have to ADMIT that YOU ARE THAT .
IF IT DOESN’T REPRESENT ACCURATELY WHO YOU ARE
MAKE NEW CHOICES ! SIMPLE , NO ?
Thank you sincerely no matter the decision you take or action you under-take !
THERE IS SOMETHING IN LIFE THAT IS NOBLER AND MORE SUPREME THAN FAME , AND THIS SOMETHING IS THE GREATEST DEED THAT INVOKES FAME !!! ( K. GIBRAN)
ASTA LA VISTA !!!
And so I touched her EGO deeply and she got angry with me, but we exchanged a lot of cell phone messages and she praised my words but not the fragrance, it couldn’t cross her EGO, I asked for a meeting to develop some explanations but she turned me down, I stayed UP until now …But I love her deeply and I just let her be, some wisdom has entered, I let it be too…
You look at the world today, a handful of IDIOTS are ruling the world, and the drama is that the mass is misused to do their dirty job, the flock is fed and the message is said, and one day you hear he is dead, for what?
“ Are you a soldier compelled by the harsh law of man
to forsake wife and children, and go forth into the field of battle
for the sake of GREED, which your leaders miscall DUTY ? ”
&
“ Between the frown of the tiger and the smile of the wolf the flock is perished;
The ruler claims himself as king of the law,
and the priest as the representative of God, and between these two,
the bodies are destroyed and the souls wither into nothing.”
( G.K GIBRAN )
This is so true, this K. GIBRAN guy had so many illuminations in his life, it is another “eye king the 3d” who wrote the Prophet, pure 3d standard literature writing, a peace of art, but he didn’t make it to the top, because he was too much compassionate with this world, he really wanted to change it, but no one can, the world is what “it is”, all what we can do is “be” a part of what that is, discharge the nonsense in any way possible and move on, God himself doesn’t give a shit, he doesn’t lift a finger, why should I, I want to be…like him, not merely a subject, so I have to move on, move on, to reach up, reach up and fill the gap, one step at a time, never loose ONENESS from my sight, my SOUL’ s work site, that is all times right, so I am feeding you with all this so that you have a GOoD overview of all that is happening, but whatever subject we talk about the essence is the fuck-n same damn thing, we can’t avoid it, all these stories I told you can resume in only one, so don’t bother about them, fuck all what I have said, forget it completely, what you have understood will be there for ever, it is already yours, it can’t go away, it can only grow, just let it sink and avoid human contact, unless your mouth is shut and your ears are half open, just observe and feel them, Once you are stronger in your realization, open up more to those who are really asking, drop the just curious parasites, they have to learn the right way, as long they are so much attracted by “what they are not”, they can’t be “what they are” otherwise, it is the law of IS-NESS you can’t circumvent it, you only waste your precious time, you never ever work enough on your “SELF”, its knowledge is endless, an eternal ascension, a COSMIC FLIGHT, you just need to taste that for once and only once, to get hooked to that, cocaine is a joke compared to it. Now I tell you the last thing, Meditation is the way, don’t follow all the nonsense yoga courses and all the in-laws numerous methods to accomplish anything getting you closer to the “SELF”, the answer to the fatal question “WHO AM I”, go there for fun, for body exercise, for a social happening but not for your personal ascension, these people are not teachers, just money makers, let them teach themselves first, if you see them at home, you will see how many times they change faces, that makes more than one of each, so they can’t be…teaching ONENESS, they are just people with better understanding of the body’s physical chemistry, which has nothing to do with ONENESS’ s alchemy, you want God, face God, he is the biggest observer, his SOLE’ s JOB is to DO NOTHING but LISTENING to his SOULS, so go for it, tell him what you like, give all the shit you have in your guts, all the anger, the frustrations, the difficulties, the nonsense, but not your GOoD things, he has an OVERDOSE, and where do you think you got it from? So don’t play the hypocrite, talk to him as an equal, ONE to ONE, be a man show him your balls until he takes them away from you completely, because you only need them to enjoy a bit of oneness unconsciously and pass on the seed to give birth and bleed, the same for the female, there will be no more differences, you become each one of you a simple ASS, to purify the SHIT others will throw on / in you, that is purification, and God can take all the shit you can imagine, don’t throw it in the universe, by getting angry against IDIOTS like BUSH, BLER, CHARON, SADDAM, ARAFAT, ARAB KINGS … no, you have to send them as much love as you can through Meditation, through God, purify, purify, purify, all, until your ass has no more task to do, you consume all the material in you, your body is no more part of you, you are the master, you can decide when to leave it, you are ready for the next flight, another planet or another planet system all together, I DON’ T KNOW YET, for I still have some shit in me…only one word about Meditation, just let go everything that enters your mind, don’t resist it, but be an observer, nothing leaves a trace, like the flight of the bird in the sky…ok, the MIND has to CHOOSE to SET OFF himself, NO ATTENDANCE, NO ENTERTAINMENT, FULL BOREDOM, he chooses to sleep. He told me all these things and I practiced what he said, hey you seem to be lost, I am the FAN vendor, don’t forget me yet like I forgot everything my scientific told me, and only now I am able to make of his story my own, because it is flowing, and without thinking. Anyway nothing belongs to anyone, ten people could say the same thing at the same time, words are just words, and the knowledge written is not that extra-ordinary, only to the idiots that rush all the time to demonstrate their worldly literacy by mentioning non stop the one who said this and said that etc. At the end they have said nothing coming from them, they don’t deserve any diploma, I would have offered them a parrot so they can have a God-brother to listen to their shit coming out of their recording machine, only a machine can understand another machine. The energy within the words written belongs to the only source that exists, given through inspiration, so that is why my writings will not bear my “shit-y” worldly name, but rather the seed in its natural form, the 3D NAME-LESS, FACE-LESS, but ASS-WISE FULL being! Could any body give a GOoD name that suits perfectly GOD, how can any name represent the NOTHING-NESS which is far bigger than the EVERYTHING-NESS, everything has a frontier, you can reach where it begins and where it ends, the enlightened ones that see God as FULLNESS, are not there yet and therefore they can give a name to their GOD, but the ones that speak about NOTHINGNESS that is absolutely eternally expanding, become FEAR-LESS of this energy, ONLY A STUPID IDIOT is AFRAID OF NOTHINGNESS ! When this outer-space scientific guy told me this heavy shit, I felt like disintegrating and separating from my body, and started on the job right away, very little nonsense left, most of my time was spent on settling my accounts with the pure energy, a fare trial. And so I understood why he told me to be away from humans as much as possible, simply because they can’t give the “BE” points I need, no one can, he said, even himself, I am still completing my set of “Bes”, otherwise I wouldn’t be “still” here, he said…just to get the last “Bes” like a real BEE, look at this marvellous fly, a true smart ass, it sucks all the nectar of the flowers one by one to follow her automatic oneness program, one day it will be me, but now I am copying what is “ TO BE” from a “BEE”, so natural, but I have been a normal idiot for 45 years. And so now I say this:
I am the king of bees that SUCKS THE HONEY of “ALL THERE IS”, where ever it is !
I tell you, this guy writes non stop without even sleeping and he doesn’t even know if his writings will ever be published for he can’t go through the nonsense process of the editing companies that forces you to fit in a specific category, finally he has decided to never bother with all that, he will just give his writings to other people until one may make a move for him to publish it, and he also offers the name on the book of any one who wants to be responsible for its publishing, but then the guy who accepts it, will be expressing the wisdom of a donkey loaded with books! But if you can understand the DONKEY himself, you don’t need any books any more, that is why the donkey doesn’t read books, he knows it all! The secret is in “his name”, he’s got a DONE KEY that no body can see, so they call him an ASS minus the WHOLE, he’s got the KEY to get in and learn it all, humans can only peep, they always go for the cheap, and became sheep to fit in the flock, always running for a fuck, they use the stupid brain-less key to get to the stinky HOLE they confuse with WHOLE, for that you need a DOUBLE YOU, get on the job and meet the other higher in YOU to become WHOLE and enjoy being an ASS WHOLE this time, get a donkey and treat him as a KING, for he made your ASS SING, he handed you the KEY, DONE especially for you, DONKEY’ s LOVE is higher than any other of all the animals, but they FOCUS on the stupidest animal, the MONKEY, the closest to us, the only KEY he’s got we already have, to enjoy CON-science, and become human, no more study on monkeys, let them be, move on to find your key. Sorry for this little donkey part I let him talk about it himself, I didn’t master it yet and I wanted you to really enjoy the depth of this astonishing sleeping wisdom that can kick your ass to awaken all your senses to a point they are bound to choose to become one out of con-fusion. This scientific guy has a mind of another kind, so he told me at last, if you become an ASS WHOLE, if you experience the depth of being …a DONKEY! ( his first book talks at large about this ), you throw all the books away, including mine, but I am “STILL” working on it, but what bugged me that this guy doesn’t want any money from his books, just to survive as usual, everything would be directly distributed to some GOoD organizations that respect life in all its forms, GREEN PEACE might be the one he said, this scientist guy doesn’t want to work before CON-suming all the shit he has, he said the more you produce the more you are forced to CON-sume, because of ENERGY, once CON-served you need to consume it, and the SUM of the CON keep adding up…your shoulders, not your ass, that would be great for you and that IS what you have to do, to become WHOLE, stop peeping to just “jerk off”, get in and get ready for your TAKE OFF! It’s his own words, a bit gross but he likes that because he loves all of the people, those with class like a Shakespeare as much as those gross angry voices of RAP musicians, he also said, from the middle point, all of it IS sublime, for the words disappear and only the fragrance is left, and that is what enters his soul, but this is a bit too much for me, I can’t see it that way, but he asked me to practice the two principals with my heart and I will certainly experience what is beyond my understanding, of course along with the purification of the body through foods, this guy has so much respect for life that he doesn’t eat any plant that is pulled with its roots which means to him “killed”, he said and insisted very much on this point, I had to heed it in the DUNGEON of my heart, and I did, but I could get it out to give it to other but then they are invited to be in a receptive MOOD to feel what is GOoD like…here it is: “ If you STOP the EVOLUTION of another Being you STOP YOURS” and you get a REVOLUTION inside you will have to win before EVOLVING AGAIN, so much time wasted on BATTLES for such a simple task as EATING most of WHICH goes to SHITING”, He said when I discovered this he laughed to death about how IDIOT he was for 45 years, so I took advantage and I laughed at him and so he thanked me greatly and said you just GAVE ME THE GREATEST RESPECT, others think otherwise or UNWISE! This guy is really nuts, he only accepts what is eatable in a form of a fruit taken without killing the mother bearing it! That is deep spirituality man, I loved his spirituality, he knows how to put things in equations, normal people can’t use their irrational minds in a rational sense, this MIX is the soul of the “X”, unique in itself and it is the ultimate way for a material world he said, because the irrational is in the east and the rational is in the west, to unite any opposite forces you have to get to the middle to approach the creator, a male and a female meeting in the middle ignites a creation through the creator, never think they did it, they only enjoyed the act, the doing is from the creator that gave the power to the soul to choose the womb it wants, to be born in a specific environment to follow a predestined path, to experience what it has planned to experience, so to come back to my FAN story, from which I only make one a week because it fulfills my weekly needs. Beside that, I do not give a damn about how many fans I would sell and I wouldn’t insist to sell it, once I was standing with a guy puzzled by the fan that is very expensive and looks like shit but runs for a life time, this buyer wanted to start bar-gaining with me, but I refused immediately and said thanks for the “love in your eyes that enriched my FAN” and sure I am going to add it on the price but it can’t be sold to you even if you change your mind to buy it with the new price, this FAN is unusual and uncommon, it gives only one chance, its secret is oneness, you can try to con-vince her if you want, but I know she doesn’t listen, you idiots humans, you even bargain with your God, oneness does not know such a thing, there is no hesitation, and you can ask and pray for ever for material things, all your efforts will always be in VAIN, and so I left the so called buyer with a smile and a GOoD deed in my file, a smile is a true active energy, my scientific friend explains it at large in his first book. That is why now I am such a pleasant being, but poor like “hell” in the eyes of normal idiots. My slogan is, FANS for life and FUN forever, check your “self”, very little on the shelf, the last one to become one, and I never take with me more than one, I am really an idiot to you no ? Once my only one fan is sold, what is left of my time is on hold, but that is the highway to the WHOLE wisdom, now I love aloneness, idiots miscall it loneliness, these vendors are really stupid I thought, they spend so much energy to sell ten fans a day with harassments, it is far better to multiply the price by ten and sell one a day or a week, that is all I need for my weekly survival, any way life is difficult, complicated and hard only for the one who sees it that way, in my way, I mean high way, I never miss to be enlightened by all things, a cat taking his chances to steal something, a blade of grass suffering under the used oils of the ignorant, a bird in his beauty saloon doing his morning beauty session, a rose opening spraying its invisible fragrance to the blind crowed, rain drops washing my face … all nature’s grace, why would I care to run after money, money is GOoD…you get it, no hassle and no bustle, basic needs are a birth right not a fight, humans are really big idiots…but I still love them, they fall for my wise FAN once a week, that fills my stupid belly. Ok what’s up today, so many people in the streets, a big gathering in front of a big hotel, a great star must be coming, so I stayed hanging around there and a super Rolls-Royce car stopped in front of the hotel, and I yelled laughing, the fan for a super star, the fan for life & FUN for ever and Madonna while going out of the car heard me, and was instantly very intrigued, so she sent someone to call for this crazy guy, that is me, only a crazy one can understand another lunatic, and so I went to see her and tripled my price, this is my day I thought, better make it right, she fucked so many, it’s my turn. It’s up to you to know who’s fucking whom, all up yours, if you catch it, you will fly, right now! And she put the FAN in front of her and said, this doesn’t worth a shit, you are fooling me, I said no, you buy and you try, if my fan goes wrong you get your money back, or you can be even nicer to a poor guy like me, you’ve been there yourself, I keep the cash and I write you a song, it is up to you, to yours later if you are smart enough, and she said you seem to be a smart guy but don’t push your luck, and keep your stick far from me, you are making fun of me, oh just a little joke I said, this girl is very bright when it comes to ass’s business as we say in Tunisia “ she catches it while it is flying”! So she laughed and said what the heck, I stink the money, ok let’s do it. I said, I shower first. And she laughed and got the fan and threw away the instructions note, she plugged the fan in, and the fan didn’t move, and I was laughing, rolling & crawling on the floor, she felt stupid and started hitting the fan, the whole thing fell apart, a very delicate HIGH tech thing, in a six sense, and she said you asshole idiot, give me my money back and get out of my face, and I said with all respect , Madame I am not giving you a shit, she said why is that, I said: you didn’t follow the instructions, tell me where did you go to school, she said just a little and I don’t remember, and I said very GOoD, it is better so, we are neighbors but I am just higher than you, she said what? you are really nuts, you know, and I said :
you are in that side of the horizon and I am at the opposite
but if we meet in the middle you will have my wisdom and my full happiness
and I will have your wealth and your foolishness
then we can play the greatest idiots of this world, in this world
we will fuck them all by all means!
So she laughed like crazy and she said ok, now stop your crap and come back to business, I said, what are you waiting for, pick up the paper and read it and so she did and fell laughing on the floor, you should too, get ready it is going to blow:///////////////////////////////////////////////////
She is the one who had to move left and right
to feel the coolness of the “still” GODLY FAN!
But after she came back to her senses, she was “still” puzzled and asked: why do I have to plug it in, while there is no electric effect on the FAN, and I said so that the FAN can catch your energy to re-use it when you need it, otherwise all your efforts would be in vain. How could it come back to me, it is impossible, she said, and I answered, now you can’t see it, but when you pass to the other side you will understand, by the way, did you read what is written in very small letters fronting the little star that you are, she said no, and I said then you are a fake star, you can be one, but you need a “break”, that “break” you just gave it to the FAN, it doesn’t need it at all! So you have to start working, I will give you another this afternoon, but you still have to pay, she was completely hypnotized and said I like you even though I love to kill you for showing me how ridiculous I am with my own eyes, but before deciding, tell me what’s the catch, so I laughed even harder than before and started rolling & crawling on the floor again, and after the laughing ecstasy ( this is above what you can call a laugh, it is only IN describable ) I said, sorry Madame it is beyond my control, I can’t help it, I never thought you are this much idiot, so she couldn’t help it neither and she said ok I admit I am a big stupid idiot, tell me the catch now, and I said, as it is written in small letters: you never loose your efforts to meet your being!
You common humans got it all wrong, everything you do is in reverse, even the time, you count it COUNTER CLOCK “WISE”, the little wisdom you catch in the morning you loose it in the afternoon, always connected to your watch, you became just a killing machine ticking in tune with your heart, the clock in you, when you counter it, you are simply killing your “self” with every single minute you live UN-WISELY, so in other words, if you can reverse the counting of your usual clock, or you count it wisely, you will end up in the middle and you can live forever, even in a human body! The human body is made perfectly, but we just don’t know how to use it, but we are able to stop the aging process on a higher conscious level, the possibility exists, time is the problem, if you can STOP IT, at a certain moment YOU CAN’ T GET OLDER than that moment, but you are “still”, as soon as you move, or you see other things moving around you, a reference point is created, from which time starts its counter to kill you, that is relativity as it is seen in geometry “ two parallel lines never meet”.
So stillness is the way to the HIGH way for longer life!
But you still have a problem, you “still” need to breath,
Breathing less is the HIGH way to BREATHLESS! Thus,
the more you breath the less you live !
pure life energy or “prana” develops between inspiration & expiration,
so if you create a gap, you are between the parallels,
you undergo less cycles of breathing,
and so you have more “prana” to sustain longer life.
So again: if you can stop the time, you can hold your breath forever,
Meaning you can live forever.
Let us follow this lead and dig a little more into this longer life possibility with the combination of stillness and the breathing process. To know what is happening I am bound to be highly aware of the inner movements while being still. But I have two scenes within this scene, duality is also “STILL” there! Now what are these two scenes, obviously the BODY and the SOUL. Thus I need to separate them with awareness, what is more accessible to the observer that I ought “to be”? only the BODY as the observed, other wise I would be God herself observing my soul! What is keeping the body alive? certainly my breathing, so I ought to observe my breathing consciously. Now at this point I have two possibilities, again as long as we talk about the physical we have the presence of duality, please understand deeply this fact, we always have two ways to reach oneness from where we are, from the body meaning the physical. So what are these two possibilities, the natural and the non natural or the unforced and the forced or the smooth and the SHOCK.
What is smooth in our civilized life, the answer is irrevocably “SLEEP” for “nothing left in what we EAT and what we THINK that is still NATURAL”, our life’s force that is OXYGEN is getting harder and harder to be available in a city life. So evidently the best choice we have is the forced unnatural choice that goes along with the message of the universe that is to INVERSE and so we need to apply a SHOCK to awaken us from this deep sleep. In my first book entitled “I am a CON-man & TO BE is my plan”, I based the universal method on a two step SHOCK type, that is a FOOD SHOCK for a more purified BODY and a MENTAL SHOCK based on detachment of material possessions for the thinking process purification. Both shocks are meant to give us an easier access to the SOUL, then one can come back to life’s illusions with less danger for his soul for he is now AWARE of his doings and thus can handle some “miss takes” to flirt with temporary illusions, I am not thinking of a society of saints, just to balance the energies available for humanity with AWARENESS, only then the ILLUSIONS will “BE”…HARMLESS, for “who am I” to step on the FREE-DOM of anyone? But I am becoming aware of the difficulty in what I am asking with these two shocks.
It strikes the heart of the illusion and unfortunately that of my dear loving practitioner also, “BIG TIME”! So I am bound to help him to find a way to strike this “BIG TIME”, but then time is an awesome & fearsome killer, we ought to reduce it to its minimum so that the heart can accept effortlessly to cope with the changes. I just found out that BREATHING could be of a great help. I will be recommending both possibilities the “smooth” and the “ shock” type, why? Simply because both are beneficial and could be used simultaneously. For example if someone gets bored somewhere in the city, he could always stop the nonsense of his MIND BUSI-NESS to relax its never ended activity by simply a SHIFT and a smooth SWIFT to watch his IN & OUT breathing while walking or sitting, the MIND will smoothly obey and start thinking only of the breathing which is far better and beneficial to the body than the constant nonsense rebel thoughts about the past and the future that are filled mainly with a mix of happy / unhappy experiences in relation to others and to our material goals. This awareness is extremely beneficial to prepare the mind for meditation for it starts to obey to direct itself to the happening of the moment and therefore to LIVE IN THE PRESENT and you will feel FILLED with more LIFE and more OXYGEN. Now the SHOCK breathing possibility is highly recommended and the first man who applied it so intelligently is the holder of the highest soul of our time labeled as OSHO. Actually what you are reading is coming from the same source, the label is just a material representation to define the recipient through which the knowledge has been issued but in truth, the speaker is the very same source as when you dig a well in your home and another do the same two hundred meters further, both will get the same water coming from the same underground river that comes out in both wells, the differences will be insignificant relating simply to daily maintenance of the well, but the essence stays the same. So that is why my approach can be of a little different as a whole but the convergence is sound and alive with pure love. I bow to the knowledge given through this man. Thus DYNAMIC meditation is the UNIVERSAL KEY to humanity to establish an easy access to their well of power “STILL” within them, one has to shake it off as hard as he can, the soul can’t be satisfied with any less than a 100% of your will power, you could bargain with all of humanity but never with the source of all sources!
Very fast conscious deep inspiration and exhalation is the way to the HIGHWAY I was talking about. I will give you the detail of this method in the appendix from OSHO’ s writings to practice if you want. But I repeat again, the fastest process is the combination of the THREE SHOCKS I talked about, one has to be more aware of what works for him best, you are the observer of your own unique experience, don’t cling to anyone else’s experience, you can’t photocopy any thing from another, get inspired yes, but you ought to live your own for your DATA is only IDENTICAL to yours, your FINGER PRINT is its material identification, don’t waste your TIME!
SHOCK EXPERIENCE is thus my HORSE RIDER to get me to the highest vision I could ever imagine of my SELF. When you want to wake up in the morning to work you set the ALARM ON don’t you? That is what it is, just an alarm clock to awaken your sleeping pure energy within you to become more CONSIOUS of your UNCONSCIOUS!
That is what happens during SEX, your body chemistry changes suddenly when all your mind is focused on the delights of the body treasures and your breathing becomes very intense and dynamic and then you touch your pure energy by shaking it just a little that it starts to slightly move on its surface as a river starting the feel of the wind embracing its outer surface, and just from that you enjoy what you call an ORGASM. Please notice that your orgasm is very dependant on your excitement and thus the shock you live through your breathing, if you could sustain that shock for a longer time, both involved in the act will enjoy a higher orgasm, now you can imagine what will happen if you can create a wave of this pool of pure energy! You will go ASTRAY with JOY and you enter a state of deep meditation. In this state, you feel a SHARP SEPARATION between your BODY and your SOUL and your breathing chooses to sleep for your body is no longer entertained, it is left to self support and that needs a very small amount of oxygen, the soul doesn’t need anything, it can live on its own, self sufficient by all means. The body is naught but its host to communicate with other human beings. Once the communication is established we all become BUDDIES and not just BODIES! So there is no difference between what is called me or OSHO or JESUS…The source is ONE and so WE ALL ARE…
If you proceed with these practices of the three SHOCKS as you wish, the last, the dynamic breathing, BEING the most “straight-forward method” to lead you to a quick result, affinity is easier reached with the help of the other two and sooner or later the feeling of separation will take place. The bigger the SHOCK the bigger the GAP the bigger the distance from the body. For the energy needed is only to sustain a still body. A very small amount of Oxygen would be sufficient. Now we have two entities living in stillness in parallel in which the body is loosing life or having life decreasing,( less oxygen), while the SOUL is getting awakened to fill all the emptiness of the senses abandoned by the bodily life. This is what I meant when I said TIME is the killer and has to be stopped to get out of the relative, the reference point, your point of view, your ERRONEOUS point of view, you just MISS- TAKEN your VIEW with that of your physical senses and your MENTAL, RUN by TIME, the PHYSICAL ILLUSION. Now you can see clearly the meaning of my statement above: in relative geometry “ two parallel lines never meet”. Earthly life is of this KIND, we have at hand two PARALLEL LIVES at every moment, one is living in the relative and the other in the ABSOLUTE to SALUTE as soon and as often as you can, that is why I am seen as a CON-man for I am out of the SYSTEM’ s PLAN, I am on the SOUL’ s PLAN, how can some BODY possibly under STAND the SOUL, they are on two parallel planes thus they can never MEET… which has to do with the MEAT they EAT, stained with the STRUGGLE of the SOUL they FORCE to abandon its habitat! But what they can’t REALIZE is that SOUL is ONE & the SAME sitting in their BODY, the wells are different but the ocean is the same, so they are chasing their own soul of their own habitat, thus it chooses to go into deep sleep and leave them with the LIFE of their body, but stays very close to the body with almost no GAP to give a chance to the body to continue enjoying at least its ANIMAL LIFE or SEXUALITY UNCONSCIOUSLY! The ONLY LINK left from the SOUL to the BODY aside from all the SUDDEN SHOCKS that short circuit the MENTAL during an ACCIDENT and any SURPRISE EVENT to ensure the adequate emotion, the body is simply in-capable of. The compassion of the SOUL to the body is immense, so let us leave them in peace.
I like the saying, “your life is in your hands”, it IS true. But the problem is, they don’t mention at all what hands are? Humans are really idiots, they say so much wisdom out of the mouth, but they are merely PARROTS, because they wait for the mind to do the thinking for them, the best image of this is like the stupid brainless people who spend so much energy to “create”, a written program to do translations from one language to another, the words are dual, the program can’t think for you to know whish meaning you are choosing to address it to the sense you are giving to the group of words. That is pure togetherness above the mind, only ONENESS can realize true togetherness, so the translator within the computer program is just a projection of the idiotic mind of the IDIOT who wrote it, now, if you got it right, you will see that your mind is not more than a translator stupid program that can only identifies what he knows within the lines written in him during your idiotic life, therefore when you read hands, he will only think of your physical hands, the meaning is not external but
INTERNAL=IN-ETERNAL, IN-E-TERNAL, E for energy,
needed to be used to see within the words, and can only come from the ETERNAL-IN you, which is naught but the eternal message of the
UNIVERSE = U-INVERSE = U-IN-VERSE,
Meaning, when you inverse, you find the “verse” of what you are inversing within it, in tune with what IS within you. You become a very happy NON-UNDERTOOD ASS WHOLE like me
Or an UNHAPPY NON-UNDERSTOOD ASS HOLE like every artist, who CON-FUSES his ART with his NONSENSE stupid name he is WRITING on his FRUSTRATIONS, all IDIOTS call ironically CREATIONS, no body can create a shit, ONLY TRANSFORMATIONS are POSSIBLE,
energy conservation CAN NOT BE VIOLATED WITHIN THE PHYSICAL WORLD, NOTHING IS CREATED, NOTHING IS LOST, ALL IS TRANSFORMED!
Let me take a school case to explain this very subtle and very REVEALING phenomenon. First of all I would like to apologize for using harsh words that might chock my dear close artist friend who ever you are. That is my tool to wake you up if you belong to that specific category of artists, experiencing frustration within you because people can’t understand you despite material success & fame. This frustration is the only creation you have managed to realize, your art works are simply its transformation that pays you back heartlessly with money and fame, you see nothing is lost. So if you want to work in full peace and divorce this frustration you have to disconnect completely from expectations from others, what you are living is an individual experience with profound emotions rising from the holy temple of your soul, that is your unique journey, no one else but you can touch it, see as if it is your very dear loving wife, would you like somebody else to touch it? That is the metaphor you ought to live it within your guts. Only this magic experience is your highway, it can’t be of the level of public traffic, only once it is hung in a gallery to be tagged and priced and criticized etc…It gets PRO-stituted by the “pros” of the intellect in the matter. Enjoy their ignorance, it is their role, respect it and move on for another peace, let them shower you with fame and wealth but in no way you loose your HEALTH, it is not worth it. Now let’s get on with our school case.
Suppose you are watching an artist facing a big stone rock , before touching it, the artist is bound to commune with it, for THE ART is DWELLING in a different world the artist has to penetrate to collect his inspiration. This power is hosted by the SUBCONSCIOUS of the artist. He will then be able to imagine what he is about to unveil that will give birth to the “image” vehicle of the transformation. This image will be IN-printed within the big stone rock as soon he touches it with his tool. All happens on the subconscious level, the evolution steps can’ t be revealed before hand, otherwise the game is over, who would enjoy drawing with a tracing paper? Where is the fun in it? Where is the drive in it? But in truth, it is happening that way with a little difference, the artist can’t see the tracing paper that is in fact the projection of the image in the subconscious on the big rock. A mechanical act can’t give birth to subtle emotions, for these E-motions are the source of THE Creating-Energy that dwells in every being on earth. Out of this definition of the “closeness” that ties the artist and his art, we can’t speak about either of them! They would be just “copy machines” reproducing what is already visible. ART is that which IS only IN-visible, THE unmistakable invisible. I remember that I have read a statement of a philosopher, I can’t recall his name and that is not the most important, who said this:
“Beauty is the mental formation of an image in our imagination
that catches precisely the thing perceived in our E-MOTION.”
But do we know yet what is CREATION? Surely not, I suggest science to help us leading us to the door then catch the metaphor. Science is in fact the only holder of CON-science knowledge that floods our conscience, it is the path revealing the process of the creation, yet it is “pushing its luck” to justify being THE Creator without the “being”. The unavoidable PARADOX of life thus that of the CREATION. Science says:
NOTHING IS CREATED, NOTHING IS LOST, ALL IS TRANSFORMED!
Nothing can be more SIMPLE & TRUE, energy conservation law.
Let us go back to our big rock resting in peace in front of the artist getting ready to inflict “disorder” in “order” to unveil the image dwelling in his subconscious. As soon as he starts to invest his energy through his tool and touch the rock, the projection of that image has already ended, the veil to unveil is already precisely defined and the statue is thus already there. This sublime journey of the artist in removing the veil hiding the statue is in itself the accomplishment of the transformation breeding the uncommon emotion known only to the artist. In general this is precisely the most precious “DUE” the artist enjoys to use as his vital force to support his existence. The veil lovingly removed is now naught but shattered and scattered peaces of stones lying peacefully on the floor ready to undergo another love story leading to a new “status change”. Our capricious statue is showing up finally nude before us incarnating one of the infinite faces of God’s energy, that the critics praise its nakedness. Balance drawn, ( as the saying ”GOoD accounts make GOoD friends” and that is what I hope to attain with my dear reader seeker of the true meaning of creation), NOTHING new is observed in this whole scene in which the artist played the role of the DIRECTOR. All the material elements were already there and the one sole NEW thing is the emotion that flooded the artist sprouting from a spiritual well detaining the MONOPOLE of what can be called CREATION. All what humans make visible is naught but material transformations, what we had to start with was found at the arrival, simply transformed.
“The INVISIBLE belongs to the world of the creation and thus that of the IN VISIBLE”
Science says:
The RATE of energy generated or liberated can only INCREASE!
It is the sub-law of the energy conservation law called ENTROPY or
The measure of the molecules’ s DIS-ORDER.
In the physical dual world, the law of UNITY has no place to be, could it be clearer? Thus to generate this dual world said also the visible, a second law had to be introduced to ensure the continuity and visibility of the material process. It happens to be the ENTROPY that gives NEW material appearances through DIS-ORDER in the image of the statue that resulted from the disorder inflicted by the tool through the energy of the artist transformed in the hammer blow marvelously adjusted and executed
Now why this disorder can only increase? The answer is simple : could we put back the scattered stones exactly as they were before the transformation ? Now the answer is rather obvious and the question itself is idiotic. The portion removed can never “be” again what it was, unless you can ask the “present” to be the” past”! What is can only be what is but ready to undergo any other transformation, in this case the Glue would be the medium of use for example. This process is thus said IR-REVERSIBLE…It is only reversible in the invisible world as we could imagine the rock reconstituted in our subconscious through the “telepathic energy”, the same energy responsible for the “in-print” of the statue’s image in the rock. But it is of no use to perform such action in this opposite way, it stays buried in the subconscious level for ever. NOTHING can be repaired after transformation. It is the thing that incarnates the malediction of humanity, the human clings to the past to repair it and construct his future, on the way the PRESENT is lost, he looses his REAL CHRISTMAS GIFT, no wonder Christmas is unhappy about it, but he keeps trying…for ever…
Time is illusion,
The sweet CON fusion…
Nothing is wrong…
Just can’t “be” the real song…
You need “to be”…to be aware,
How it affects your life…
Through the oxygen you breath…
Create the gap…
To see the parallel…
The higher life of the deep well…
Meditate to separate…
To watch yourself by your SELF…
Rejoice and make your choice…
Take your time…
Just make it rhyme…
The Gods are “STILL”… watching…
Few days ago, Dec 11, 03, I went to attend some meeting with the HORIZONTAL enlightened very dear & loving idiots that follow the HUMANITY’ s TEAM of Paris based on the wisdom of a wise ASS who wrote the TRILOGY OF CONVERSATIONS WITH GOD, which IS a beautiful original book, that I used wisely as a SPRINGBOARD to my spirituality, most are idiots like a lost flock, ONE smart finds a GOoD thing because he labored very hard to get the attention of the source, and others just followed to form another FLOCK within the BIGGER one, and so the SMART ONE who started it, ILLUSIONED BY SUCCESS, FAME and money, gets STUCK with them as the SOUL responsible for the flock he created and he calls Humanity’s team, and that is just fine if you choose to be a follower, the thing is you will not be able to fly for a follower has a horizontal path like the one of all religions. I am inviting you to enjoy your own ascension in a vertical flight. Straight to the highway with neither crossings nor forks and turn-offs, no trace is possible in the sky, the whole space is free of the dummy followers, only masters flying and flowering inside every one of you…
Let me tell you this:
Very simple math can show you that a HORIZONTAL move will lead you to nowhere,
At best you are BOUND to come back to the point where you started from!
Humans as idiots as they are, will go on circling forever, whether they start on the right or on the left foot, the mind will make their eyes always looking down to your foot, he doesn’t know anything else, that is his JOB in your life,
The MENTAL in your purpose of living
is NAUGHT but the simple STICK that helps you to walk
when you have a BROKEN LEG,
can you ask the stick to show you the way?
Humans always go counter clock wise and can only be heading for no head at all on their shoulders, they want to defy nature, that beats them all the time, just re-member the catastrophe of 1993 in MONTREAL, where all the power was cut off, a national panic because of an unusual fall of snow that CRISTALLIZED as soon as it touched the thing it landed on, because of the climate change due, partly, to all the shit we throw in the space, it creates what we call “ GREEN-HOUSE EFFECT”, the drop of water was warmed up by a sort of huge warm tablecloth above the low clouds and then met a very cold local temperature and thus it became ICE as soon as it touched something. Yes the GREEN-HOUSE EFFECT, what a name done by an enlightened one , an outer space guy whispered this name into the human mind to awaken our attention, but again a sleeping mind can only analyze it up sorry down to its color, just a name, but it is related to NATURE, now it becomes NATURE-HOUSE EFFECT, it is a very clear message, DON’T MESS WITH ME, not me, NATURE is speaking ASS HOLE! So get on the job and become WHOLE to help me help the scientific idiots to help nature!
ONLY SCIENCE CAN GET THE WORLD OFF THE HOOK!
It brought it to this stage, it can reduce greatly its negative evolution,
The reasonable TOP is reached in many fields,
Let’s redirect and change NATURE’ s EFFECT?
The common spiritual people can’t do a shit, they are working on themselves mainly, and I love them for that, because their main ROLE is to enlighten themselves first then the others including the SCIENTISTS, the scientific MIND is the TRUE RULER OF THE WORLD, not the politicians, they are simply the SMALLEST NON SIGNIFICANT worm on this planet, they live in the obscurity of total darkness, they can never see a shit of the “REAL”, Ask G.BUSH what he does before taking a decision, he will always behave like a stupid waiter who gets the door and asks his boss if he can let you in. So if the scientific crew say that thing or that thing is not possible, they wouldn’t do a shit, because they are a bunch of chicken bureaucrats in truth, have you ever seen a president heading his soldiers engaging a fight? COWARDS they are, but loving, yes I love them so much, they gave me what they do best as servants, so they served me my enlightenment on a diamond plate, I GREW UP IN THEIR WOMBS,
the DOUBLE G. AM-BUSH, the IGNORANCE composers that write everything in “Am”, the most powerful presidents ever, my unusual mother, I came out of their ASS holes! Sorry another miracle, Jesus had no father and came out of Marry’ s womb, this time, pure energy chose another kind of miracle, a much more powerful one, women are too much compassionate, and Jesus preached through his healing powers, and he made followers not enlightened people, that makes a flock not soul leaders, that is why I refused to possess this healing powers, I could become a super healer, everything was there and the teacher was also there but my soul declined, I only had a little practice of it, a proof that I had the ability to perform miracles. But miracles produce nothing but ignorant seekers, a truth seeker doesn’t look for miracles in someone else, he knows that it is WITHIN him SELF, the greatest is sitting in him. Nature is just and doesn’t comprehend a “miss-take”, humans MISS the TAKE and see it as a malediction wearing all the faces of sicknesses and suffering, OUR MISERIES, but that is the return of our doings, and we get what we deserve to learn the lessons to wake up a little of “who we are” inside, until he is fully awake! So I am sorry I couldn’t choose to be the healer so that I don’t get into such a conflicting situation that I refuse to heal some BODY, my compassion is far too strong to behave as such, so I chose to push away this power and decided to show every human how to heal himself by him SELF, then I leave behind me true SEEDS not priests and popes with white robes “shit-IN” on a golden bucket. I want to leave a human being that every breath he speaks is able to melt the gold in the heart of the filthy rich to share it with the needy and understand that INHERITANCE is the ugliest nonsense value humans cling to , one has to share what is on top of his needs while the season is his, I want to leave behind a human that is able to understand the secrets of science and can take the challenge with the worldly scientist, I want to meet the human who can teach me something that helps me to grow, I want to see humans working with nature and enjoying a true voice in governments. This is my vision of others and of the world, mine has already happened and I am just walking through it every second of what is left of my life. Last week, I put the TV on and the newsman was talking about how UNINTERESTED the French deputies were about the debate concerning the BIO-ETHIC manipulations, the CHAMBER was empty, and some of the little who were there were gossiping while the knowledge was given! This is the most DANGEROUS SCIENCE that is practiced nowadays, leading to the “INSTRUMENTALIZATION” of the HUMAN. We might get monsters one day, the door is wide open, we produce benign monsters in animals, all kind of combinations are possible, it is a simple matter, they just have to master the reproduction of the womb conditions and the game is played, but NATURE is outrageously DISOBEYED and results could be fatal one day, because humans can only learn by the STICK, facing the wall, ready “to be” fucked big time! Look at men and women of today, women are mostly more “men-like”, completely lost in their self definition, they are the YIN forces to complement the men YANG forces, balance has to be established intrinsically thus we see more and more gays sprouting like wild grasses, they are very, very loving but they can’t replace properly the women YIN energy. And the world celebrates more and more UTTERED energies…So nature decided to get angry and DROP A NUCLEAR SPIRITUAL BOMB came out as ONE WHOLE EXPLOSIVE WISDOM, from the most powerful ASS holes that the world have known until today. That is how nature works with the universe, their POWER inversed becomes WISDOM to counter balance the ignorance, and so this POWERFUL SPIRIT CRISTALLIZED and came to POSSESS me little by little, because I still had some accounts to settle from my nonsense shit I have created through my own life, but now he is in me on a regular basis, I can hardly sleep or eat, I see no body almost, why wasting time on idiots that are not ready for the wisdom, they have to come to it, who’ is the giver? But I have still a weakness for that, I do always my best to explain to anyone that happens to be fronting my face, I luck so much to see some grace on human faces, there is so much beauty in every single face on earth, if you can’t see that, then you are an idiot stupid choosy son of bitch, and you miss most of your time looking for the illusion you have created in your mind, I take anything that comes along, that is the universe’s gift, it IS MY SONG, and all KIND of people keep coming, and we exchange kindness, so yours may have been mine, now who is the ass hole and who is the ass WHOLE with all asses? You only get the leftovers, you are fucked any way, your ego I mean!
If you don’t show GRATITUDE TO EVERY SINGLE THING THAT HAPPENS TO YOU EVERY SINGLE MOMENT, you waste your life looking for a SINGLE experience
you have created in your mind, which might never come, I “came” so much that I thought
Life is not about coming,
it is rather about GOING …SOMEWHERE, and I walked out of asses!
I watched every one I had under my nose very carefully, to understand why people are hypnotized by asses and especially by their change and rate-exchange, but I could only see the same stupid misplaced stinky loving mouth, hiding in a bush,
so morality, don’t get stuck with things, experience and move on,
AHEAD is far, far, far FURTHER than an ass in a BAD!
The bad is for sleepers, GOoD night sleep my friend, enjoy the material bondage.
So, to get back to our drop of water on Montreal sky, one can feel the wonders of natural powers, but Humans analyze and decide to challenge it instead of embracing it and try to look into the source of the problem objectively, they repair and build more solid structures, very IDIOTIC behavior, the least I can say, ARCHIVES are full of knowledge showing their linear curve ( horizontal) of their idiotic ignorant game they are playing with nature, a childish reaction tracing the game “ONE GO BETTER THAN”, they can’t possibly beat nature in this game! As what have brought to science its greatness, by the ones who dared to challenge the IDIOTIC LINEAR THINKING, like EINSTEIN to mention one, so also here they need to introduce another parameter to the equations integrating the data given by history and not the other way around, we would get greater-ly fucked. The equations has “to be” NON-LINEAR making the solutions more difficult to find, but more into reality and therefore far more efficient. But one has to show gratitude and let the PRESENT heading the equations not the PAST (history), we will end up, sorry I mean down, dead twice! So I am calling the scientists of all research centers in the world to reconsider their project goals carefully,
Dear scientists loving friends,
FUCK THE MONEY, GO AFTER THE HONEY, COMMUNE WITH NATURE!
Fuck the noble price, enjoy the moon’s holiday on ice…a crystallized knowledge.
So to come back to this evening with these loving people of Humanity’s team, the leader suggested as the core of the discussion would be creativity and CREATION, so I thought it is like I was sent to these people to show them the way to the high way RATIONALLY, the thing they usually accept ignorantly in the words. So I let some people talk, but the level was rather mediocre, so I have decided to speak, and I got the attention of the people, for a change someone is talking clearly with a practical example to explain to them the inconceivable with their minds, but half way, I heard a nuisance disturbing my meditative state, for I was talking from another reference, and I came down to my senses and said, I don’t understand, do you want me to lower my voice or something, and he said no, no, it is not a conference place, it is an exchange place and we need to give a chance to every one to talk, meaning to exchange idiocies, they are not interested in “knowing”, just because it takes a longer time, so I shorted cut my story and gave the way, he couldn’t wait to have a glance of the highway, I have concluded, they were not ready and he did right, but this idiot tried to challenge what I was saying by daring to say that he does not completely agree with me, but what could I say, these people are still with a fat ego, they are the leaders and they are merely parrots of a book they fantasize on, they live in riches meaning still attached strongly to matter, they can’t come up with such higher knowledge, so they have to slow me down then kill the energy that arose from what has been said, in order to annihilate the whole thing, unconsciously, these are very subtle things they can’t see from there body’s local reference, but I love them deeply anyway, if they are happy, I am too, cause it is not about me, it is about them, and so it IS their choice, I always say: wisdom starts when someone is unhappy about a situation and ask for answers, outside this case, wisdom is merely interfering with the freedom of the other and that is not wisdom, one has to be very careful with compassion for it can turn very fast to a CON-passion and the effect is opposite, because it becomes imposing to the person who didn’t ask for the knowledge you want to share with him, and you would be talking to the EGO and not to the open door, so one has to be invited to enter before talking with the people and definitely not start screaming from outside, who would listen to nuisance, even if it is the highest knowledge, so I spoke and said, you said a moment ago that you disagree with me and I agree with you completely, and if you would have let me finished you would have noticed that we hit the same destination.( with a great difference, now you know how exactly to get there, not because you have read it somewhere based on a moment of unity of somebody else, so he chose to not know and so the whole group) But this part between brackets I did not tell him, it is not of his concern, it is of yours..
At the end, I told them that I have brought three books for those who are interested to read them, so that I can collect some re-actions,( people are not able to act, the same thing with creation).
Let’s come back to the saying “ your life is in your hands”, and now you know what hands meant, I just uncovered them for you to watch them and commune with them as an observer not as a masturbation tool for your mind, he is already blind, and no matter what you do he can’t have eyes, better than the eyes you have, eyes of a machine, the hands I am talking about can lead you to the real ONE EYE, “two” can’t “be”, representing anything “real”, it doesn’t belong to ONENESS, so the ONE eye IS, your THIRD EYE, a voice is whispering hey it is me “eye king the 3D”! Then why third you would say, just because your mind can’t relate to the absolute so we have to make him aware of the one ABOVE the two he knows, so that he can make the math he knows 2 down + ONE up=3 but then he still has no notion of up & down, to him is the same, that is why humans deserve the title of IDIOTS, but nothing wrong with that, I am ONE, “still” IDIOT the only difference is, I know what is UP and so I earned the title of a COSMIC IDIOT, because there is still UPPER stuff I don’t know of, this is my sense of HUMILITY, the SIX sense humility, very different from the lower idiotic SEX sense humility used by all religions that never experienced anything upper than their idiot mental, sorry they can’t make you fly, you have to do it yourself by your SELF, or rather HIGHER SELF, I won’t allow the misunderstanding that loving idiots have expressed in Jesus’ s saying: I am the way, I am the life, follow me, let me give you now the right meaning above it, I AM THE HIGH WAY, FLY LIKE/THROUGH ME! What a difference, then you under STAND the THIRD EYE or the ONE you need to look at with a meaning of knowing what is up, you got the gesture but not the structure, no foundation, you look up to pray, most are mainly asking from up to fill their cup to get heavier and sink deeper and lower, to FLY you need to get LIGHTER, don’t ask for more things, on the contrary you need to get rid of things! ONE last time, never forget, the pure energy is only watching, your life is “SELF” made, by you, you are its writer and its artist, all the way, take the HIGH WAY, and you can live much longer, eternity if you want, the most obvious is life in the sky, where gravity is absent, and pure limitless blue sky all around, no reference point, but then you need air and a place to live, it is scientifically plausible and realizable but “still” foolishness, I love science but only when it goes along with oneness. Einstein touched a bit of this and even suggested a theory that was very revolutionary at his time and STILL IS but not one with ONENESS, the ONE I explained above is the right one, but I bow to his knowledge according to his time, he said :
“If two rockets are moving in the sky at the same speed, none of the passengers in either of the rockets will feel that there is any movement. Because to experience movement you need something stationary by the side; it is a relative experience. Both the rockets are moving in a silent, open sky at the same speed; naturally, you see there is no movement in the other rocket. And how can there be movement in your rocket? If there were, you would have passed the other rocket. None of the passengers in either of the rockets will even dream about movement, because there is no movement around; on both the sides, just pure sky. They can live in the illusion as long as they go on moving at the same speed.
According to Albert Einstein, a very strange conclusion ... of course, it has not yet been tested, but it seems possible. If the passengers of both the rockets don't feel any movement, they will become very still and very silent. Not only in their minds, but even in their body cells, the silence of no-movement will penetrate. It will be so enormous, so overwhelming, that when they return -- you will be surprised -- all their friends, their old colleagues, will have grown ten years older and they will not have aged at all!”
But let me come back to my story with Madonna because she wouldn’t understand this lunatic scientific friend and neither do I, except the breathing practical part. Hey, I am the FAN vendor, so I asked Madonna why are you here, so many people and all media are around, and she said it is for the launch of my book, and I laughed like mad, I was just talking about Einstein launching rockets for non aging experimentation a century ago, and she is launching a book at this time, and surprisingly Madonna’s book is having more success, she must be dealing with idiots, but I love this woman, she has so much self confidence and so much guts that she has the world of idiots on her feet, and I said come with me I will show you how much my scientific friend has wrote, but his wisdom is a bit ahead of time and a head of it, and is only for the ones who are ready to read it as seekers to fly not as suckers to watch time goes by, it IS the match to your flame, to see everything happening as the same and “STILL” your mind and makes you BE…KIND to all, so his books did not find many to read them, only suckers on this stupid planet, now and then there is one, but they kill him as soon as he becomes a tree, his branches grow too fast, so they become afraid, without the root, whoever left loose , mostly loose the direction except for some exceptions of course like in Buddhism, a guy named Mahakashyap took over nicely, but an “ism” is an “ism” and destroys the fragrance, look what happened in Jesus’ s name, a big SHAME…loving people, but ignorant of Jesus’ s knowledge. So I have this idea, may be if I suggest to Madonna to put her name on the book, she wouldn’t say no, because she has guts, and she does not give a shit about what people say, I will try that, for now my story is over, and I hope you will play the FAN until you become ONE… of my fans, then you take my place, I need to move on, waiting for your call, play now I just threw the ball, you can play with the other two while being…aware of what you are doing…GOoD luck my dear friend… For now I take a deep breath and relax…
Oneness is the way,
Meditation is its free high way,
So quite the mind,
And make him blind,
You become still,
Now make the kill,
Time is out,
The soul is the boy scout,
Love showers,
Minutes feel like hours,
The body is an ecstasy,
Live your fantasy,
Enjoy,
Watch your SELF,
The Gods are “STILL” …watching…
Let us come back to my Icelandic love that blossomed from a bet, a lotus flower grows in mud and sewed waters, isn’t it? By the way I never told her about it. Where were we, so much going on in between my nonsense and the voice of existence, that I even forgot my name, oh I won the bet and went with my friends to consume it in a Santana concert, and it was great. And so I had a wonderful few days with her before she goes back to Angers to pack her stuff and fly back to Iceland, but something happened inside of her and she decided with her friend to extend their staying for a month in Paris. Lucky me, a friend of mine was leaving to Tunisia and I managed to stay in his lovely studio, and so we had a sort of a honey moon thing, I can’t express the joy I had, now that I know how energy works, it was just the other side of the coin deserving all the efforts and extreme patience I have shown during the seduction game. We kept in touch after she left, and that summer, I planned to go to the states to try to pursue my studies there after my under graduation degree I just obtained in Paris. I have saved the money for it, and was ready as ever to challenge this crazy idea, most were against as usual but I was a stubborn dreamer boy. American friends where cautioning me from the danger of new York city and how expensive the hotels were etc. Strange most people when they give an advice, they speak more about the traps they have fallen in more than the joys they had, with good intentions of course, they just don’t want me to fall in the same traps but the thing is, they don’t know how energy works, me neither at that time, but I had it in me unconsciously, and I was telling myself it is may be good to know but after all, it was not my experience and so we are different people, the DATA is so different why would I care about what happened to others, it can only bugs me and by thinking of it I will create it, so it is more of a nuisance than anything else. And here I am landing in new York city with an address of a newly married couple that happened to enjoy a lot my company as their night man in their favorite hotel in Paris, so I was a sort of a part of their honey moon. As usual my bamboo is guarding all my money, and in a strange way he was always awake watching over my wealth, two thousand dollars of a very hard labor of daytime work in the stinky garbage basements and very long sleepless nights in hotels. I often had three jobs at a time to save so much money, quite an amount for that time 1979. So the first thing I did is to drop my bags in a locker and hit the city, that was 3PM. So I walked, and walked checking some hotels but the rates were too expensive for my budget, the money I saved were for my tuitions in case I manage to have an admission. By 11PM, I passed by a place for orphans under 18, and I said, hey I could be an orphan under 18, I was 22 and looked very young, so let me try and I entered to see the night man handling this place. And here he was a very cool nice looking guy with long hair and shiny kind eyes named RON, our eyes met and the spark was set, so I sat with him and I couldn’t lie to such a nice guy, I can’t help it, I have weakness for sincerity, it penetrates me in a way that I forget on the spot all my ”evil ways”, they all disappear with the soul that Santana expresses in this song. So he gave me some cheap hotel addresses but I never made the move to get out, he was a student also and very interested in hearing about the Paris he was dreaming about to visit one day, a common dream to the American of that time, things have drastically changed nowadays, it became the last destination, how idiots humans can be! One discussion led to another and he remembered that one of his friends was planning to go to Paris in a couple of months, so I spontaneously offered the comfort I could share with this person without knowing him, he was surprised with this generous spontaneity and said well, just wait here until the bus comes with the kids, if there is a mattress left, you could spend the night here. And so it happened and in the morning while leaving he invited me to his place, he was sharing a house with two other couples. He said his friends would surely like me, let’s get your stuff and go. And here I am as a lucky ass among lovely people sharing a great time in ”New Brenswik”. And there he took me to a state university called “Rutgers university” to have the general information, and I was amazed how far I was from my dream, the money I had couldn’t even cover up for the tuition & fees of my registration, so I instantly gave up the project and decided to spend five weeks free vacation, if I could make it without paying of course, I wouldn’t spend money earned so hard on vacation, I had a better use of it in Paris. The third day I told him I would be leaving the day after cause I already have seen the town, and he said ok, we will have a nice goodbye dinner and stay in touch. I said great I’d appreciate that, these people were very nice. Between us, it is all about DATA, what you put in you get out …according to your data. Life is simply a computer program. Any way my leaving time came and he said that he wanted to show me a last thing before I leave, the American football stadium, I said thanks man you keep surprising me. And that is what it was a great surprise, while going out, the friend who would be going to Paris came to pick me up to his house for a couple of days and on the way he bought me a ticket to watch a very giant game in which the Giants should be winning. And I was thrilled with everything, so many things at a time, the meeting of this invisible friend, the discovery of a totally different architecture of a stadium, the learning of the rules so that I could follow the game, everything seemed planned by the providence, so perfect! Anyway the Giants won and my friend drove home singing, this guy was a piano musician and lived in a country side, the farm was beautiful and so was the huge house and the car and mostly important the people inside. As usual my luck has decided to be my shade and couldn’t leave me alone for a moment, please don’t get me wrong I am not complaining. The second night I was invited to a marriage of one of their friends. The ceremony was nice and I have met many people of course and as talkative as I was, I couldn’t relax for a moment. One specific couple I liked very much and special current has passed between us so I told them about my plan and they spontaneously invited me for few nights at their home. At this point, I stop playing the violin about what is happening, you’ve heard enough already. So I enjoyed being with this simple couple, the guy was a musician in the streets and the girl friend had a simple job, so I played the baby sitter while I was there. Children have some magic that adults don’t have. And so I landed finally at Red Bank with my honeymoon Paris couple. They were very surprised and happy to see me, this guy was drinking cognac as water, he was a wine taster! I got drunk during one of his wine tasting nights. To make the long story short, I spent five weeks moving from one place to another, and I have never been in a hotel once! During my last day in new York, I was walking around killing time and suddenly I saw an offer of a trip to Iceland, and I thought about my girlfriend, so I got inside and told the travel agent that I had a ticket to Paris passing over Iceland actually, I haven’t noticed it, and she said you could have a stop over with another flight for 200$ extra, now you really can’t catch what happened inside me, you can try but man…And here I am in Reykjavik airport, I haven’t informed my girlfriend, she didn’t hear from me for five weeks. I just made a call as I arrived and she said you sound close, and I said how close, she said I don’t know you are so near your voice is vibrating, so I said shake your ass and come to pick me up, I am at the airport, and her voice was troubled …happily and in fifteen minutes she was there, and we ran into each other’ s arms and
hugged forever!
At those moments, the feeling was above what I can express in my words at the moment, so you will excuse me, I am having a little break to relive this fantastic moment, PRIVATE…
Strange are his ways,
Love grows in hidden corners,
Unpredictable,
Irresistible,
Your arms turn to wings,
Bodies meet and souls fly,
Your heart sings,
Words disappear and feelings are the lullaby,
I am moved…
You must be grooved…
Go out and live…
But give first…
Drink your thirst…
The Gods are “STILL”…watching
Fifteen lovely days I spent with my Icelandic very warm hearted girlfriend, that ‘s what she liked in me most, abundance of warmth and spontaneity, my dark sides were absent whenever we have met, hers too, just perfect. I left off to Paris and came back overcharged. We kept in touch, and she started to show a lot of attachment, so she asked if she would join me in Paris, and I said how about your university, she was studying pharmacy, and her French was not good enough to follow up such a course, and she said I don’t give a damn, it is you that I want, just find something for me to study. Any way, I thought of the highway and had some answers, and she wisely chose architecture, she didn’t need to speak good French, the first year is filled with scientific subjects, I could help a lot. Her parents were hard working wealthy people, they had a good business as the only pharmacy on an island near Reykjavik called “ Vestmanayer”, a beautiful volcanic island. God bless these loving parents. But they haven’t met me, and she just gave up her studies and said: I am going to join this Arab guy, and they resisted the idea with dignity and love, they just new Arabs through the wrong Medium, television and not by the heart. But she was as firm as a rock, her heart was no longer a common soft fashionable tool, something has crystallized in it, can you imagine throwing a piece of any thing in such a climate, it freezes in one night, our love had fifteen nights! But love doesn’t freeze, it crystallizes and it parades its magic when it reaches the specific temperature set by both hearts, so their meetings are always in all ways unique, and can never be mixed like mercury, LOVE is life’s thermometer, the drama is, people know it only unconsciously, had they known it consciously, they would not have behaved so idiotically. Conscious love between two beings stays an untouchable crystallized substance no other can interfere with it, no reason to be jealous about, no envy, nothing can enter its kingdom, it is like finger prints, even twins that came out from the same womb have different finger prints, how about heart prints! Humans are idiots and I was a big one. So the parents were wise people and gave her everything she needed and my icy jewel came to join me and life could never be the same. And I blessed my bamboo to be such a great money-watcher to help me bring back the money I have saved for tuition and fees. I new I had a better use of it, a whisper of my invisible omen. I am making short cuts here, but one interesting thing had to be said. A family of the same building living on the fourth floor, had a ”two years young” child, an idiot would have said “two years old” ( that kind of intelligence people give to their minds, and they expect it to use more then 10% of its power, how can that be with so many programming errors, like the black man who is called Mr white, idiocies, idiocies…), so this boy named Julian, a blond jewel, why children can’t stay children while growing UP, what a waste, any way Julian needed a nanny and I have seen the “AD” so I thought why not me, I need more money and my girlfriend is coming, so I had went to apply for the job, and they thought I came for another reason, they knew I was living on the six floor, anyway they let me in and I preached the EMANCIPATION of men eloquently, what a woman has more than a man for such a job, for two lousy hours four times a week, a piece of cake I said, and I am right here, two floors up. So I got the Job, and instead of money they would give me their abandoned two rooms on the six floor, so I had great time with the child, I learnt more patience, what adults destroy in me, and the boy cried every time I had to leave, but you know that song…the six floor turned to a working site, the Turkish sitting duck toilets became a sitting reading bureau. A thick carpet all over the ten meters elbowed corridor was installed, even thick curtains were hung to reduce the cold flowing from the unused further rooms, the rooms were pure beauty, I wouldn’t dare to destroy its relative art work with these nonsense words, I have deep respect for certain things, you need to see a piece of art, you can’t talk about it, don’t ask an artist why did you draw this line or why did you use this colour, he would answer: do you ask the rose why are you wearing pink? These are moments of unity where you see things that are not accessible by either than you, as an outsider you can only try to catch that moment by communing with what you see. Any way, the two dirty rooms got finally bone naked and ready to get married with my vicious visions, I have no limits to go for what have touched me. And to make the story short, I built everything from scratch, a complete kitchen with a double sink, hanging elements, a standing stove, everything…And on the space next, about three square meters, a massage shower. You can’t possibly know how much crystallized love was there, once you are in, you are fucked, you can’t get out before that, I mean you will feel it, please forgive my gross expressions, I am also writing for the ones who love that kind of language and I love them EQUALLY!
Obvious are his manifestations,
Some are re-actions
You can see their naked beauty,
They are very sexual,
Some are actions,
You can’t see their depths,
Your SOLE access is suggestions…
Their sexuality is crystallized,
You can’t be part of it,
It is that thing “ non” manifested,
Can you touch a true NON ?
Only the Godlike,
Some use this flower,
When caught,
Undergo a cold shower,
Sorry just a thought,
So be Godlike,
All the doors are open…
Enjoy what you like…
Free your SELF first…
None of the cold showers…
You suck the nectar of the flowers…
Spread the fragrance…
The being rejoices…
The Gods are “STILL”… watching…
This girl was smart and succeeded every school year and I was the best handy teacher she could have in scientific matters. We had great times and less great times of course. Duality you can’t escape. To come to know something, you ought to experience the opposite. “Who you are not attracts who you are”. Her parents were very loving and protective too, they knew I was just a poor guy with smart brains and a fat heart, and their daughter lived a queen’s life with a sauna and a piano at home, and a private car parked in front of her door. So they have tried to help us a lot financially, and I resisted very badly because I had a high standing nose filled with a pride cultured by a continuous success, so I didn’t want any one to take away from me that power of life’s challenge and that was the source of everything that counted for me in life. Most measure their life to their possessions, their only known CON-FASHION to them. And I said, what if it doesn’t work between us, I won’t loose my rooms, and how about all the love, physical and material efforts I have put in them, I won’t go for better, this is BEST, and here I find my total REST, you came for me, here I am… just be…here in love with me. And so they have chosen a back door solution, they would open a non taxable dollar account in Luxemburg under our names, and I said hey, they couldn’t get to me from the front door so they try from the back door, they are very loving with GOoD in-tentions, and for that they were a 100% right I felt those tensions inside of me. I am a free man and I can’t be caught tied up with money, our relation was pure, it wasn’t sick why would we need a CURE. So many takers, give it to those who have their eyes closed, mine are wide open, and my legs too, I get all the joy and get me to the “black” working sites safely. And here they are paying us a visit in Paris and a twenty thousand dollars account in Luxemburg, under my girl’ s friend’ s name. All is cool, at that time I had an old “CAR, a Peugeot 204 1969” with a history that would fill two pages, I spare you the fun about it. You suckers take everything and just give some money in return: the SYSTEM, don’t mind me to keep a little away from you, please, I love to be sucked but too much is too much.( between us that was my favourite thing, I had trouble giving up my “69” old car, a love story, may be still is, but I am out of it now by choice, to complete the answer of WHO AM I ?, but I am still FREE, and the door is open, I live the moment at the moment, and just talking about it the devils are awake, so let me have a break, thank you…). A confidence though, I found better,
I FUCK my SELF and it is greater…check my first book…a lot ahead of that…
But I am compassionate and wouldn’t mind to FUCK someone else to plant the seed…!
SPIRITUALLY would be the BEST, both would BE…TWO.. BE…only IN-describable!
So this car was not really very safe, now and then little problems, the maintenance was done mostly by myself, and it did not inspire them much for I loved the speed. So they have decided to buy a new car for their daughter so that she can be more secured, and it made sense to me and I agreed and enjoyed this brand new Citroen GSA X3, the X3 was the part for me, of Me. And we left for a vacation in the south of France. One nice anecdote though, they have brought with them the grand mother around 70 years of age and still strong and bright, in such a cold country your bones stay straight for longer time, much less people and so is the pollution ( only 350000 ), not even a district in Paris! This woman had never seen an Arab in her life and was really very excited to see one, and she was served for the surprise was of the size of the excitement, she never thought men could be so small, but I patched it up by a joke: the smaller the smarter! And they all visited us in the sixth floor without elevator, but I spared them the four first floors through my employer’s house, do you remember my BUDDY GUY, Julian, he got the door and said, let my friend pass anytime through this door for as long as I live here! Children can’t miss kindness shared with the heart. And I made a Tunisian specialty, a “Couscous”, Semolina steamed on top of a vegetable stew with sheep meat . And they finally understood my philosophy of life and loved my determination and the great efforts done, they finally tasted what is above what money can do through workers that make things for you, it is DIFFERENT, it smells different, it FEELS different. And I earned my respect forever from this lovely couple, I do think that they are one of the three loveliest couples I have had the honour to embrace in my life. Any way, life went by smoothly and musically cool. I had some friends that made their living through the music they played in the “ Metro”, both were and are guitar players, a Malaysian and a half Italian half Australian. This Australian jewel named Felice was very close to me, I loved him more than my own brother, definitely I was font of music and he was feeding the opposite part in me that was hankering for what I have missed so much. Do you re-member “Who you are not attracts …”. Sorry, another musician I loved so much, a Malaysian also, he had a very expressive deep voice but never found the ears that wanted to bring it to the air, show business is tough and he had no balls for that, he was a peaceful guy who managed to find a nice French girl, got married and have some children . He worked his ass off to join the two ends of the month as a waiter in a restaurant, at the moment he ‘s got his own restaurant in Malaysia I heard, but he wrote GOoD music, a very sensitive guy. But he chose to fit in the SYSTEM MODEL, GOoD luck to you my dear friend, and greetings to all your family. And one summer day, Felice was leaving to Australia for a vacation, but I felt something that pushed me to keep some memories with him, I told you how much I loved this guy, and I told him we have to record some music together, the four of us if possible, that was a Saturday morning and he would be leaving in the afternoon, but he resisted a bit, he said come on man it is only a vacation, but I didn’t want to hear anything, he couldn’t convince me, I did. And we went to fetch the other two musicians, the first one was a hard working guy and was already in the metro doing his number, he was a money lover as sugar to an ant. And the sensitive guy was at home with his wife, so we went to my place and recorded some numbers they use to play during the many, many parties we had together, including a song I have sung and played with him, I could strum few cords, I called this guy the “CAT” because he played cat Stevens so well. And I loved cat Stevens for his depth of originality musically and vocally, this guy is his finger print, no one can copy CAT’s way, it must have been a highway ( pity he turned to a monk and gave UP his SOUL…) like some of those we had during the sixties and the seventies, music blossomed. He sung the father and I did the son, usually I don’t hit the notes right but that time I had my best performance. Only god knows where this cassette IS.
So I drove him to the airport and kissed him GOoD buy…and he bought his ticket to God in Australia, he met with his destiny in a car accident, he was learning how to drive…life to death, the other mystery of life…the other beautiful mystery of life…I think. I do believe death is much more joyful then birth, don’t you see the baby cry as soon as he enters our shitty world? But death must be sublime, for the soul’s leaving the body is a salvation, a true celebration and would keep wandering around for a while laughing at those ignorant that cry over their nonsense attachment to the dead body! And I cried, and cried my eyes and guts out…I got the news by telephone because I use to call him weekly…
Now you make me cry again…I love to cry…what can I say…I am a pussy…and I use to attract many…I use to cry in the arms of my girlfriends…they loved it…I did too… fucked them after words…words can’t make it…FEELINGS DO… so I SUNG the DO…so nicely that they loved it even more…Life is easy, so you TAKE IT…easy…you become the Metaphor…
What is a friendship…
The answer is within…
Questions are idiocy expressed…
Solutions are answers blessed…
No sooner you give it up…
It drops in your cup…
Negation is the way…
Leading to the high way…
To find unity you need to separate…
Just do it…
No idiotic debate…
Just open to get the bate…
It is just a simple love story…
I lived a million times and never said sorry…
Be sexual with all…
To play smart, the ball…
Open the two parts and answer the call…
It is right there down the hall…
It is a bit dark…
Inviting you to embark…
On the greatest ship…
To enjoy and to take a sip…
From the magic in a friend…
That will never end…
Are you ready …
I am a ship…
Do you need a friend?
The Gods are “STILL” …watching…
PS:( to be read 1st ): the universe’s message: I deeply apologize for the use of some gross vocabulary in this penetrating wisdom, but I am just following the voice of the providence through the universe that literally said: U-INVERSE and U-IN- VERSE, so I am BOUND to give you my IN poetry in this VERSE you are going to read, if it is already done then you didn’t follow the universe’s message. Now, if you haven’ t passed the EGO’ s test about the unusual gross impolite language I have used purposely to defeat the ego in his ridiculous UNJUSTIFIED prejudgments based on words, you better read again to become a “FAN”.
It is about time that the people learn how to TRANSCEND language and its NONSENSE, the
SENSE created by the foolish mind to separate us just because of dead words. WE idiotically give them a sense they can’t possibly have. The meaning is not in the word, it is WITHIN the word which is its INNER VIBRATION that bursts with its FRAGRANCE we need to CATCH. Otherwise we MISS and we are affected by the dead representation that is GROSS and IMPOLITE and all the nonsense the mind will attach to it, so one has to look in the eye of the other with “eye king the 3rd ” super-vision to feel the fragrance of the word said, its very source is a silent one, so get the sense from the source not from the DELIVERY BOY, the message has undergone a treatment and it became dependant of the custom and culture of the host, that can’t be the SOURCE! The eye can tell you everything, you don’t need to talk, it tells the whole story of the owner, it is a scientific RATIONAL matter, no longer a myth, a mystery, a Santa-Claus, so let us use it, don’t be a coward, LOOK UP & FILL YOUR CUP and commune with the other, no matter will interfere in between.. I need to unite all humans that are divided in two, in a DUAL WORLD, we have the rich & the poor etc…but also the LITERATE & the ILL-LITERATE, who is the ILL person? Both are…ILL, cause they chose separation, they live in two opposite ISLANDS separated by LIFE, so they miss both the LIFE…’s BOAT, NOAH’ s ARC when time comes, the providence is handing it to you through the stupid ass hole IDIOT that I am. I am just the Mail BOX !. So please get your real sense and forget the other five, to defeat your EGO’ s drive, the words can never touch a hair of the STAR that you ARE! Go beyond and build the true “BOND”, between the seven energy centers, from the bottom, SEX to SUPER-CONSCIOUSNESS ( the CROWN), they will call you “James”, and here you are A REAL walking undefeated INTELLIGENCE, the ”X” being human, holding the ONE KEY to the POWERS of the SEVEN PLANETS inter-acting with the ON-GOING LIVE RE-CREATION of the UNIVERSE’ s r-evolution!
You be-come The 007, the “X” of the MARIX minus the TRICKS! You are FREE!
Freedom is unconditional, it is in the word itself,
you attach a condition to it and you are out of freedom.
The responsibility for another can only start after the realization of BEING…
fully responsible for one SELF,
and that is in itself the HIGHEST DEED in the existence of a human!
So BE first…before feeling responsible for another, you simply can’t!
Your responsibility is then in truth only a NUISANCE, called INTERFERENCE!
PURE CONSCIOUS LOVE is NOT JUDGE-MENTAL, the mental can’t be…right!
The SOUL IS…to TRUST and IS… ALL LOVING…so BUST the mental… LOVINGLY…
Ignorant is the one that lives in SERIOUS-NESS,
LIFE slips under his nose while he is asleep,
LIFE IS…BEING-NESS, nothing else-NESS,
The creation of the SINCERE trouble makers, social & religious MENTAL - ET!
Now FUCK you & fuck YOU, both, and you ought to accept it, because I LOVE you consciously deeply, your ASS is my HOME, you give me no other choice, I need to get to you through the BACK DOOR, I am just building the METAPHOR. you ought to UNDER… stand!
GOoD luck, my friend, accept the FUCK & get UNSTUCK, it is worth it. I am your servant!
The DEAD LIVING at the service of the LIVING DEAD, no more ”to be” SAD, but “to be” LIVED, the missing “X”, do you remember, the I (3rd), oof it is finally SAID! I=higher intelligence. SAD-ness dissipates in the ONE word, just throw in the I, truth never lie. The only thing to DO, is to sing the DO and watch the I, that of “eye king the 3rd “ !
GOoD BUY my friend, the “X” to be…FREE, for FREE, keep your money, to experience FREE…DOM, God’s KING…DOM and everything else…The SEL…DOM in your LIFE!
The river is flowing,
I am about “to be”…
I am “BLOWN”…
away… a… way…is shown…
So far…
So HIGH…
I am on a HIGH…WAY…
So high that I…
I …I…I…
Am… nothing…
The I is melting… in IS-ness…
The I is…is…IS gone…
The greater SUN has shone…
I see no thing…
am IS in the limitless ocean…
In nothing-ness…
The pure in-definable substance…
Am IS… melting…
Defusing…
Nothing left…but nothingness,
Am IS… fucked…
… IS… sucked…
am IS…IS…gone…
Are you “STILL” peeping…
The Gods are “STILL” …watching…
TO BE…continued…Can “Being” stop?
Join and catch the BUS…STOP please…your NONSENSE…
Find your HIGH WAY…and FLY with me far away…your own way…
The GODS are “STILL” …waiting…for “EVER”…for “YOU”…the eternal…in you…
Until my next Chapters of my life…I say…unto you…
NAMA-STAY …Or NANA-STAY…To make you stay…BONNE APPETIT…
I love you consciously…you are a part of Me…the Me in you…the You in me!
Once more, there IS “ nothing ” to do…
for it IS “all there is” to do,
as in Dreams, you can only dream about “something” you have seen,
Dream is that which IS a PLAY-BACK…the pay-back…
In both cases, you are OFFERED TWO CHANCES…to KNOW…
Whether NOTHING or SOMETHING …to RE-MEMBER…
EVERYTHING that IS …happening….has already happened…
DAY LIFE and NIGHT LIFE are two lives in parallel…they can never meet…
Geometry said so…only UNCONSCIOUSLY…they DO…meet…
The HIGHWAY is the only way to make them meet CONSCIOUSLY…
Join the TWO to reveal all of your DESTINY…ONE with that of the world…
For there IS only ONE of all of us…a limitless energy…
In me exists the secret of all my existence…
The secrets of everything that exists…
Nothing IS “the secret” of day-life…”STILLNESS” IS the key…
Something IS “the secret” of night-life…”ASTRAL” IS the door…
Consciousness is the METAPHOR…
So get the KEY to open the DOOR…leading to ETERNITY…
You will know no SLEEP…you will just BE…
Watching all of human’s history while the FLOCK of sheep…is asleep…
So don’t look for any other GURU but the ONE in you…
A hundred per cent of you…
you withhold…you get sold…
the whole story can’t be told…
I see no other around…
“EYE KING the 3rd “ is an EYE like no other…
how does it sound…
choose the unbound…
are you “STILL” peeping…
The Gods are “STILL”… watching…
PS: All I can say is that OSHO’ s knowledge, as BUDDHA’ s knowledge, is the ultimate of all the Indian mystics, marvellously digested and shit-ed as a jewel “CHIT”( meaning consciousness in Sanskrit). I am eating of it to complement and challenge my understanding until it is consumed and turn to shit again but through my own ass and no one else’s, before that, I can’ t say what he is saying is THE TRUTH. He can, but before I experience it I just can’t! This journey is an individual journey and I take no SHIT from no one save the ONE sitting in Me, and I advice you to do the same with all the SHIT I am putting down! I don’t want anything I write becoming a sacred “CHIT” stored in a book, for all those sacred books turned out to be just a WORM to the ignorant fish to get caught in the HOOK, the “CHIT” I am talking about goes beyond LIBERATION, re-construct your own creation, your own TRUTH, the only TRUTH that IS…true to you, whatever that is! Without this “CHIT”, the world as a whole is going nowhere…but to FASTER self distraction… It needs your INDIVIDUAL ACTION!
My testament,
Dear brothers and sisters, dear Me as a WHOLE…
If I ever get to leave my sweet home, this healthy BODY,
Please proceed to donate all the organs to the one who needs it…or make use of it…
What is left is a GOoD quality meat, ME-EAT!
That is “eye king the 3d” message,
So get together, and let the music take you to a trance,
Don’t withhold anything,
Dance, dance, dance …my LOVE… for Me…and shower me with tears of love…
Around a sacred FIRE…on which you cook ME…
Now you offer my MEAT to the meat eaters among you…with my blessings…
To balance what you have eaten without permission…
This ONE is your CURE to SECURE and abandon this ugly FASHION…
There is NO TENSION, please EAT…you will get my attention…
but I am no more, so you get God ‘s attention,
Take your time to answer unless you say NO, “YES” you CAN’ T SAY,
YES has “to be”, thus REAIZED! Are you UP to that?
Or you prefer to stay DOWN, a comfortable place, with no grace,
So EAT-ME or “abstain” from MEAT for ever,
Don’t be a coward, just do it…I can see the happenings…
I will stick around for several days…in my etheric BODY, my second,
to you…I offer the first…so please eat your THIRST…pure spiritual FLESH!
Look UP, I am there….
I will be “STILL”… watching…
PS: sorry I forgot about my family claim,
they will express some rights on my body, don’t listen to these fools,
my blood can’t be owned, it is as “free” as Me,
it is the one that runs in every being on earth,
coming straight from the biggest ocean that feeds all, from the plant to the human,
my closest family is in the one that can’t speak to utter the silent message,
secondly, all of humanity is my third degree family for they betrayed silence as I did,
but I found it at last, and I feel so alive that no silly eyes of yours could see me,
so EAT-ME to have a chance to see ME, to learn higher compassion from the source,
the PURIFIED MEAT to stop your CHEAT,
helpless animals you raise as friends & you kill as enemies to eat…
my second degree family,
OM MANI PADME HUM…you are naught but a dum…my sweet & loving SCUM…
I love you consciously for ever…all UP yours…
A last message from the source…
